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I'll stop when I can post myself with tight clothes and someone comments; "i know what you are" 😋

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Some of YALL here be like: oh I lost 3 POUNDS, I'll reward myself with *FOOD THAT'S 9228372999 CALORIES* ☠️ like bro atp don't even call yourself anÄrexxic, cause if you reward yourself with food.. you got another whole ass (☠️) eeting disörder dude..

I feel my stomach growling :3

April is my month. April is the time I take a hold of myself and do better. In April, I will focus on weight loss, I will take school more seriously, I will take care of my skin better. I will be better.

One sad truth I realized recently is that no one outside of our bubble can understand how it feels. No one can understand what it feels like to just not being able to eat more, even if we want to. To just not having the strenght to eat, face our fears or sometimes even to get up.

It hurts so much not to be understood, not even by my closest people. I sometimes feel like they don't even worry nor care. They just tell me I should "just eat more", then I'd be fine...

It is not that fu**ing easy! If it was, then why do I hate myself even when I go the slightest amount over my self-set "calorie goal"? If it's supposed to be that easy, why do I hate myself when I see any "imperfection" or don't do sports for only one fu**ing day?

I just wan't to be understood or at least seen, but no, even the one's I slightly told what's on my mind don't seem to care...

Ate around 500calories today(yes, more, than I wanted to eat). But also burnt like 900cals by judo Training.

I'll try to eat less tmr! Also, I'll have a math exam tmr, so wish me luck pls...

Stay consistent and have a nice day!🦋😘

Ate 993cals today... It's okay I guess, cuz I burnt more than 1000 calories with martial arts training. Well, I try to eat less than 300cals tomorrow!

Hope you had a nice day! Stay consistent!!<3🦋

Hey guys! Today, I ate 399cals. Guess, I should be proud or at least glad, that I didn't ate more. But honestly, I feel nothing at all. Not bad, but neither happy. Y'all know?

Hope y'all had a nice day!!<3

Can someone pls tell me, why I feel like a disgusting, worthless piece of shit after eating 1000cals, even, if i'm still undereating?! I don't get it...

I tried Dr Pepper for the very first time and sorry guys, but for me, this tastes horrible in comparison to real coke or energy drink!

I‘ll stick to my opinion.

Okay, today I‘ll restart the diet, I already shared with you. I’m gonna be consistent this time. No binges, no excuses. I want to lose weight, so I have to work for it.

Have a nice day and stay on track<3

BTW, a bit Thinspø:

Hey guys, today was all fine and I ate only one rice cracker for breakfast and half of that salad bowl for lunch:

(I only ate the veggies and left the quinoa on the plate)

But then, as soon as I came home, I binged…

I felt so bad afterwards(still feel), that I had to purge. But guys, I swear, that was my last time purging and to prevent that, also the last time binging!

I‘ll try rlly hard not to mess up, so wish me 🍀

I‘m gonna tell you my progress<3

These are literally the best low cal pancakes I’ve ever tried!

They have only 20cals per piece and r sooooo delicious!

If you want to, I can post the recipe…

If you wanna eat something rn, think twice: Is it really worth the crying, the purging, the self-hate after eating this one disgusting little piece of food? No, it’s definitely not! Eating won’t make you happier, but dropping on the scale, fitting into smaller clothes and noticing others being worried bout you barely eating anything, will! The feeling of an empty stomach, the way you feel, if you can proudly say, that u haven’t eaten for like 5days or longer>>> That’s what will truly make you happy and make you feel worthy!!! 🧚🏻🦋🧚🏻‍♀️

Stay consistent<3

Well guys, I can’t stand myself like this. Guess I’ll purge to prevent gaining from the food I ate..(even though it would be just the weight of the food😞

Well... No, actually not well, today, I ate!

It was only a Salad and a protein shake(122cals). But I don't know how many calories where in the salad😭 But I guess, it's less than 300, so maybe i've eaten like 400 cals this day...

I was spontaniously eating out with my mom and a friend of mine and it would've been suspicious, if I wouldn't have eaten anything, so I chose a low cal option.

Won't eat anything else today and I'll continue fasting tomorrow for another few days!(for me, drinks like, coke zero or black coffee don't count, cuz it has less than 3 cals...)

Okay, but the problem is, i'm rlly blosted now, cuz my body isn't used to that much food anymore. And tmrw is a dance party, where I have to look good(well, at least skinny). I hope the bloating will disappear till then. Maybe I'm going for a run to burn off the cals.

Hope your day was better than mine!

Update

Sooo, well, today I consumed like 37 cals. I know, i'ts not nothing, but it was an energy drink and gum. Guess i'ts okay... especially in fact, that I burnt like 900 cals with martial arts. Good night, hope you also had a good day! ⭐🦋

Hey guys, i'll try not to eat anything for at least the next 6 days! I'll only drink water, tea and zero cal energy or coke. If you want to, I can update you by the end of next week, how much weight I've lost.

My husband told me I look skinny and I don’t think I’ve ever heard a better compliment

Weight loss update!!

So I’ve been counting calories again and staying really physically active and this is my weight loss from the last couple weeks. I don’t weigh in every day just whenever I feel like it.

5/15: 176.8

5/16: 175.4

5/17: 173.4

5/18: 171.6

5/23: 171.0

5/24: 168.6

5/25: 167.2

5/27: 166.4

6/1: 165.6

6/2: 164.8

Total lost in 18 days: 12.0lbs

Total weight loss since starting: 43.6lbs