Well Guys, I Can’t Stand Myself Like This. Guess I’ll Purge To Prevent Gaining From The Food I Ate..(even

Heyy guys, I'm so sorry for not being that activ on tumblr for such a long time. I hadn't had much time because of lots of exams and stuff. I'll try to post more often from now on.

Today, I went to Barcelona with school. It's a school exchange. Guess it'll be a really nice experience, but the driving by train the whole day was literally so exhausting, that i slept almost the whole time.

Luckily, I only ate two ricecakes today!!(makes 58 cals!!!)

Stay on track and have a nice week!<3

So, today i ate 406 calories:Noodle soup(350kcal) and Olaf ice cream from Frozen(55kcal) also a coke zero(1kcal)

Idk, was it too much?

Well... No, actually not well, today, I ate!

It was only a Salad and a protein shake(122cals). But I don't know how many calories where in the salad😭 But I guess, it's less than 300, so maybe i've eaten like 400 cals this day...

I was spontaniously eating out with my mom and a friend of mine and it would've been suspicious, if I wouldn't have eaten anything, so I chose a low cal option.

Won't eat anything else today and I'll continue fasting tomorrow for another few days!(for me, drinks like, coke zero or black coffee don't count, cuz it has less than 3 cals...)

Okay, but the problem is, i'm rlly blosted now, cuz my body isn't used to that much food anymore. And tmrw is a dance party, where I have to look good(well, at least skinny). I hope the bloating will disappear till then. Maybe I'm going for a run to burn off the cals.

Hope your day was better than mine!

Omfg, today, I binged so hard! Like I ate 1200cals… I‘m feeling so guilty rn. Guess tomorrow I‘ll eat nothing!

I‘ll update you tmr in the evening how it went…

Anyways, some Inspo:

Hey guys, today was all fine and I ate only one rice cracker for breakfast and half of that salad bowl for lunch:

(I only ate the veggies and left the quinoa on the plate)

But then, as soon as I came home, I binged…

I felt so bad afterwards(still feel), that I had to purge. But guys, I swear, that was my last time purging and to prevent that, also the last time binging!

I‘ll try rlly hard not to mess up, so wish me 🍀

I‘m gonna tell you my progress<3

Ate 993cals today... It's okay I guess, cuz I burnt more than 1000 calories with martial arts training. Well, I try to eat less than 300cals tomorrow!

Hope you had a nice day! Stay consistent!!<3🦋

Ate only 345kcal today, but still feel guilty...

Breakfast: 130g Strawberries(42kcal)

Lunch: green Smoothie(140kcal)

Dinner: 2 Rice cakes(57kcal)

And was forced to eat a slice of bread(106kcal)

Today, i ate 199calories. 1 Chai Latte and 3 Dates.Also, i burnt 1.719cals with martial arts Training!

Tomorrow, i'll try to fast, but i havn't done it in a while.

One sad truth I realized recently is that no one outside of our bubble can understand how it feels. No one can understand what it feels like to just not being able to eat more, even if we want to. To just not having the strenght to eat, face our fears or sometimes even to get up.

It hurts so much not to be understood, not even by my closest people. I sometimes feel like they don't even worry nor care. They just tell me I should "just eat more", then I'd be fine...

It is not that fu**ing easy! If it was, then why do I hate myself even when I go the slightest amount over my self-set "calorie goal"? If it's supposed to be that easy, why do I hate myself when I see any "imperfection" or don't do sports for only one fu**ing day?

I just wan't to be understood or at least seen, but no, even the one's I slightly told what's on my mind don't seem to care...

A bit TH1NSPØ:

I don't know, if it already counts as th1nsp111, or if i'm still too fat.😬😅

Anyways...