If You Wanna Eat Something Rn, Think Twice: Is It Really Worth The Crying, The Purging, The Self-hate

Heyy guys, I'm so sorry for not being that activ on tumblr for such a long time. I hadn't had much time because of lots of exams and stuff. I'll try to post more often from now on.

Today, I went to Barcelona with school. It's a school exchange. Guess it'll be a really nice experience, but the driving by train the whole day was literally so exhausting, that i slept almost the whole time.

Luckily, I only ate two ricecakes today!!(makes 58 cals!!!)

Stay on track and have a nice week!<3

Dietspø

Hey guys, from tmr on, i'll try the following diet:

Well, i don't think, i'm rlly going to lose 10kg with this in 10 days, but anyways, wish me luck🍀🦋

Btw, are you interested in Mealspo, if so, i'll try to make it pretty. Pls comment if you want me to post smth like that.<3

One sad truth I realized recently is that no one outside of our bubble can understand how it feels. No one can understand what it feels like to just not being able to eat more, even if we want to. To just not having the strenght to eat, face our fears or sometimes even to get up.

It hurts so much not to be understood, not even by my closest people. I sometimes feel like they don't even worry nor care. They just tell me I should "just eat more", then I'd be fine...

It is not that fu**ing easy! If it was, then why do I hate myself even when I go the slightest amount over my self-set "calorie goal"? If it's supposed to be that easy, why do I hate myself when I see any "imperfection" or don't do sports for only one fu**ing day?

I just wan't to be understood or at least seen, but no, even the one's I slightly told what's on my mind don't seem to care...

Hey guys, i'll try not to eat anything for at least the next 6 days! I'll only drink water, tea and zero cal energy or coke. If you want to, I can update you by the end of next week, how much weight I've lost.

Hey guys! Today, I ate 399cals. Guess, I should be proud or at least glad, that I didn't ate more. But honestly, I feel nothing at all. Not bad, but neither happy. Y'all know?

Hope y'all had a nice day!!<3

Well, the fast didn't went as well as I wanted... I ate 350calories. But I have to say, I was forced to eat by my family, so idk I still feel guilty...

I'm invited to a B-Day Party next friday, so maybe I should try not to eat anything till then(would be 5days including friday)

Let me know in the comments, if you think that's a good decision!

Have a good day!

Okay, today I‘ll restart the diet, I already shared with you. I’m gonna be consistent this time. No binges, no excuses. I want to lose weight, so I have to work for it.

Have a nice day and stay on track<3

BTW, a bit Thinspø:

Can someone pls tell me, why I feel like a disgusting, worthless piece of shit after eating 1000cals, even, if i'm still undereating?! I don't get it...

Omfg, today, I binged so hard! Like I ate 1200cals… I‘m feeling so guilty rn. Guess tomorrow I‘ll eat nothing!

I‘ll update you tmr in the evening how it went…

Anyways, some Inspo:

Just a little reminder for myself

Whenever you're hungry, drink 1l water first!

If you still fell hungry: eat an apple.

If not: don't eat!

I guess, we all know you won't be hungry anymore...