casseroleblanca

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the desire to be mysterious is such a pothole... like wdym u didn't work on shit at home bc u didn't want anyone else to see u work

idc if this sounds stupid but my newest favorite thing in the world that i just discovered on monday is the white chocolate bergamot mocha from the case study coffee roasters around the block from du's grill in portland

looking back on old pictures... i know people always say they didn't realize how good they had it but man... things have gotten so much better since...

what does crying while watching the same jim and pam edit on loop mean

okay so. omg i finally did the hair curling thing i've been trying to do and it turned out pretty good! gotta work on the other side more but that'll come w time... i watched the minecraft movie today and boy. it was... something alright..................... kinda almost asked someone out today but chickened out. m kept goading me on and giving me delusions but i resisted her dw. 😌👍 i did take initiative in another way though upon returning home (see: following people on instagram- now that i've written it out it seems so small and inconsequential lol). yay. trying to pull myself together ugh why does growth hurt sm... since driving in seattle on saturday and feeling how exhilarating it is to do something you're terrified to do i'm trying to do more things that scare the crap out of me... might go to a random concert friday night? by myself? ugh idk

some motivation for u to pull it together and PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS

i think this goes hand-in-hand with my post from yesterday... GET UR HEAD OUT OF UR ASS AND START LIVING RAH

no bc i was thinking abt this the other day when sk8r boi came on... how did i casually forget about my obsession with having a skater boyfriend when that used to be all i thought about when it came to men

okay so you know how last week i had a REALLY SUCCESSFUL WORK CRUSH INTERACTION (granted i did absolutely nothing to prompt it but i do think bc i looked Very Cute (see: hair was wavy and was wearing my uo shirt with my zara slacks) and this was like the one time we were working in the same shift wc decided to take initiative? a girl can dream)

now i rarely see wc- they always schedule us opposite and so today this was like the only time im gonna interact with him until next week and dude. i fumbled so hard....... well to be accurate, i guess to fumble you have to be playing the game. but i was so blech today mainly just really tired and hella out of it and i said hi first but i said it super blechhhhh and then later i saw wc on the line and i was tryna get bread and wc was like HEY WHATS GOOD (not psychotic but very energetic) and i was like 🥹👍 and scampered off bc of chaos. also bc i think the fact that my brain defaults to "no one Reallllly wants to talk to you" and i therefore treat everyone like that i come off super chajkakaoainwnsna like i hope wc doesn't think i hate them...... it's actually quite the opposite... also bc i felt super shitty today. udsghsnakakan i hope we have a shift together this week bc i think we'd really vibe...... ugh just broccoli things i guess rip

i had a dream where "life experts" came to my house and had me tell them everything i did in my life and pick apart exactly where i went wrong at each point

was having an absolute shit afternoon for no reason but now i'm at the park and it's a gorgeous summery evening and there's strawberry switchblade and even though i'm wearing my cheesecake hat bc of bad hair day everything feels okay. ✿

my version of "marry me" pasta

tried other people's but was too bland so made it my way... all these vanilla people no seasoning

enough to feed a family of 5

1 lb. linguine

1 bag parmesan (6 oz.)

1 jar napoleon sundried tomato halves (7.7 oz)

1 bottle heavy cream (1 pint)

1 orange bell pepper (in slices)

1 yellow bell pepper (in slices)

1 entire bulb of garlic (in slices)

1.23 lbs chicken tenders meat

garlic --> bell peppers (~10-15 min) --> chicken --> tomato (cut in slices, try to get all the goodies at bottom of jar) --> heavy cream --> (optional: add maybe 3/4 c. milk to heavy cream bottle, shake, and add) --> start boiling water --> keep stirring while water boils and pasta cooks --> 1 min before pasta ready add parmesan to sauce after taking sauce off heat --> mix --> add pasta

help i can't sleep the west wing theme song is playing on loop in my head

happy earth day planet ilysm <3333 ✿

watching superhero movies really makes you wanna write yk

just realized what i want- i want someone who will be there for me when i wake up drunk at 4:21am and refuse to watch anything but sam raimi's spider-man

okay am Heavily dreading hangout tmrw barf barf blech. am only happy bc will get to eat green curry for dinner. would be fine if he didn't text like a moron. already knew i hated when men say shit like "good girl," but did not realize how much i hate when men call me the following over text: "ma'am" and "miss [insert neighborhood i live in]." like wtf we barely know each other it's not even funny. also he only said "ma'am" i think bc i was taking most of the initiative in deciding shit for this hangout bc he's stupid. he's the one that texted to hangout first like grow a pair?!? he asks me what to eat. i ask asian or western. he says asian. i give several options. he picks one. i then suggest the time (i thought he would but it's only because i forgot he's stupid- i would also like to note he specifically asked for my number under the guise of determining a time for the hangout), to which he says "yes ma'am." like GOD FORBID A WOMAN TAKE INITIATIVE BC YOU'RE NOT DOING JACKSHIT. LIKE WHY AM I MA'AM ALL OF A SUDDEN. LIKE EW. WTF. i was gonna buy dinner to atone for ghosting last year but now im so traumatized i feel he owes me further compensation. please send help and thoughts and wishes and prayers and whatever tf because i'm gonna need to be severely liquored and/or drugged up to get to and survive tmrw night

so you know how i was dreading the hangout on friday? well what if it goes well and he invites me to a kickback with his friends who r all very rich too and i get to be friends with a bunch of rich people in a good way and find a rich boyfriend like what if bc that sounds really fun to me

aaaaaaaaaand then after ur emo break someone makes everything feel okay <3 i love my manager sometimes

sometimes you find yourself sitting on a curb in front of the dumpsters and next to the sewer, looking up at the fancy high-rises around you and wondering where the fuck it all went wrong

so storytime. last august i met up with my cousin and his friend who had just moved up here, but tbh i didn't really have fun (probs has to do with the fact that they grew up in a Very different tax bracket and we thus have Very different views on life, politics, morals, etc....). so when he requested to follow me on instagram i ignored it for like. two months until i felt bad and accepted and followed him back. he then dm'd (just to clarify, he has a gf i think he's just lonely in a new city and would like a friend) and we dm'd a little until i decided to just ghost him bc i was so over it :D fast forward to last week i was feeling guiltier than usual about my past actions and decided to just dm him back feigning apologies. and now we're hanging out friday and he wants my number to determine the time? like why sir we r communicating just fine via instagram. i don't need another form of communication through which i must ghost you when neither of us have fun on friday. so anyways i hate myself

istg if i don't move out soon i'm buying a fkn vape i've tried so hard to fight it but sometimes a girl's gotta smoke a joint in the bathtub and she can't do that with her parents next door

stonks

i miss my friends

ugh almost got ASSAULTED by a bee ew like keep your chubby furry body away from me

genuinely tweaking rn... probs because period is in a week? but why am i on the verge of tears like wtf i have to be back at work in less than thirty minutes...

some days i hate work but then other days i just feel it- like i'm in one of those movies like office space where work is boring but everyone there is such an interesting character... and the point was the friends we made along the way... idk maybe this means it's my bedtime now

it's 3:28am and i am so exhausted but i literally cannot fall asleep because i am too excited to eat pizza tmrw why am i literally a rat in nyc

fuck yeah just did yoga feel fresh and new and peaceful and calm intentions have been set body has been stretched and exercised i am so fkn ready to get ready for bed and attack tomorrow

- listening to nfr on loop

- being so over people

- fighting The Urge

all point to signs period is coming but she's not due for two weeks... right? aunt flow honey please come early i'd really appreciate not hosting you while traveling <3