So You Know How I Was Dreading The Hangout On Friday? Well What If It Goes Well And He Invites Me To

idc if this sounds stupid but my newest favorite thing in the world that i just discovered on monday is the white chocolate bergamot mocha from the case study coffee roasters around the block from du's grill in portland

sometimes you find yourself sitting on a curb in front of the dumpsters and next to the sewer, looking up at the fancy high-rises around you and wondering where the fuck it all went wrong

okay so you know how last week i had a REALLY SUCCESSFUL WORK CRUSH INTERACTION (granted i did absolutely nothing to prompt it but i do think bc i looked Very Cute (see: hair was wavy and was wearing my uo shirt with my zara slacks) and this was like the one time we were working in the same shift wc decided to take initiative? a girl can dream)

now i rarely see wc- they always schedule us opposite and so today this was like the only time im gonna interact with him until next week and dude. i fumbled so hard....... well to be accurate, i guess to fumble you have to be playing the game. but i was so blech today mainly just really tired and hella out of it and i said hi first but i said it super blechhhhh and then later i saw wc on the line and i was tryna get bread and wc was like HEY WHATS GOOD (not psychotic but very energetic) and i was like 🥹👍 and scampered off bc of chaos. also bc i think the fact that my brain defaults to "no one Reallllly wants to talk to you" and i therefore treat everyone like that i come off super chajkakaoainwnsna like i hope wc doesn't think i hate them...... it's actually quite the opposite... also bc i felt super shitty today. udsghsnakakan i hope we have a shift together this week bc i think we'd really vibe...... ugh just broccoli things i guess rip

stonks

some days i hate work but then other days i just feel it- like i'm in one of those movies like office space where work is boring but everyone there is such an interesting character... and the point was the friends we made along the way... idk maybe this means it's my bedtime now

genuinely tweaking rn... probs because period is in a week? but why am i on the verge of tears like wtf i have to be back at work in less than thirty minutes...

some motivation for u to pull it together and PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS

just realized what i want- i want someone who will be there for me when i wake up drunk at 4:21am and refuse to watch anything but sam raimi's spider-man

happy earth day planet ilysm <3333 ✿

wow someone's really stressing me out i'm really fighting the urge to buy some cigs :)