Ugh Almost Got ASSAULTED By A Bee Ew Like Keep Your Chubby Furry Body Away From Me

okay so you know how last week i had a REALLY SUCCESSFUL WORK CRUSH INTERACTION (granted i did absolutely nothing to prompt it but i do think bc i looked Very Cute (see: hair was wavy and was wearing my uo shirt with my zara slacks) and this was like the one time we were working in the same shift wc decided to take initiative? a girl can dream)

now i rarely see wc- they always schedule us opposite and so today this was like the only time im gonna interact with him until next week and dude. i fumbled so hard....... well to be accurate, i guess to fumble you have to be playing the game. but i was so blech today mainly just really tired and hella out of it and i said hi first but i said it super blechhhhh and then later i saw wc on the line and i was tryna get bread and wc was like HEY WHATS GOOD (not psychotic but very energetic) and i was like 🥹👍 and scampered off bc of chaos. also bc i think the fact that my brain defaults to "no one Reallllly wants to talk to you" and i therefore treat everyone like that i come off super chajkakaoainwnsna like i hope wc doesn't think i hate them...... it's actually quite the opposite... also bc i felt super shitty today. udsghsnakakan i hope we have a shift together this week bc i think we'd really vibe...... ugh just broccoli things i guess rip

i miss my friends

all the #joever memes have just made me realize it was prounounced like "over" and not "forever"...

okay so. omg i finally did the hair curling thing i've been trying to do and it turned out pretty good! gotta work on the other side more but that'll come w time... i watched the minecraft movie today and boy. it was... something alright..................... kinda almost asked someone out today but chickened out. m kept goading me on and giving me delusions but i resisted her dw. 😌👍 i did take initiative in another way though upon returning home (see: following people on instagram- now that i've written it out it seems so small and inconsequential lol). yay. trying to pull myself together ugh why does growth hurt sm... since driving in seattle on saturday and feeling how exhilarating it is to do something you're terrified to do i'm trying to do more things that scare the crap out of me... might go to a random concert friday night? by myself? ugh idk

no bc i was thinking abt this the other day when sk8r boi came on... how did i casually forget about my obsession with having a skater boyfriend when that used to be all i thought about when it came to men

just realized what i want- i want someone who will be there for me when i wake up drunk at 4:21am and refuse to watch anything but sam raimi's spider-man

happy earth day planet ilysm <3333 ✿

looking back on old pictures... i know people always say they didn't realize how good they had it but man... things have gotten so much better since...

it's 3:28am and i am so exhausted but i literally cannot fall asleep because i am too excited to eat pizza tmrw why am i literally a rat in nyc

i had a dream where "life experts" came to my house and had me tell them everything i did in my life and pick apart exactly where i went wrong at each point