Cluster B - Blog Posts

i just think it’s silly that my parents were a little sucky and now i’m a 19 year old with a personality disorder and an emotional support stuffed animal

Wow uh

Finally posting something to this godforsaken app.

Um.

Hi chat.

I’m honestly trying to create a friendly little corner of this hellsite so uh, yeah! If you’re queer, neurodiverse, disabled or odd in some way shape or form hit me up.

I don’t judge.

A bit about me, I’m almost 16 (in July, woohoo!), I’m intersex and queer, VERY neurodiverse, disabled, and a little weirdo. My special interest is Scooby Doo, I love horror media as a whole, and I love film/cinema.

Nice to officially meet you all.

BPD : big penis disorder

ASPD : awesome superb penis disorder

NPD : nice penis disorder

HPD : heavy penis disorder

Autism, the worst one (/silly) mlm, c-did, c-ptsd, gad, and insomnia

audience test

How many disorders do you match with me

NPD

ASPD

STPD

ADHD

AUTISM

SENSORY PROCESSING DISORDER

MAN LOVING MEN (the worst one)

C-DID

C-PTSD

DYSLEXIA

LIKES PICKLES

BIPOLAR / MANIC DEPRESSION

GENERALIZED ANXIETY DISORDER

SELECTIVE MUTISM (fluctuates)

HYPER MOBILITY DISORDER

RESTLESS LEG SYNDROME

INSOMNIA

HCD (huge cock disorder. contagious so I have to be quarantined)

(all medically recognized. don't come @ me because I'm a fucked up guy) ((huge cock disorder is self diagnosed but you have to believe me))

this was actually a very vulnerable post to make but I want ableists to block me and we should not be ashamed to be disordered

BPD makes relationships almost unbearable. I think I'd just assume be alone. Then we can heal. And move forward. Plus, being alone doesn't sound half bad. I won't hurt anyone that way.

i am cluster b but i do not have aspd so same as last time pls tell me if i got anything wrong 👍🏻

someone please see i’m struggling and be gentle to me!!! wipe the blood from my skin, hold me, kiss me, comfort me until i feel like something, until i feel like i’m worth existing

BPD Acceptance & Awareness Flag

While there is a popular black and white BPD flag, I wanted to create one with more colour to show the depth of BPD. I was inspired by the NPD Awareness Flag by npdsafe, and the alternate NPD flag by npdflag to make this. I followed the amount of stripes the NPD flag has as to show solidarity between cluster B disorders.

Stripe Meanings:

(#000000) Black： Duality, Emptiness, and Support —

Black and White both represent the duality of BPD. Along with that, black represents feellings of being void, hollow and emptiness. It also represents support for people with BPD.

(#711f49) Purple-Red： Negative Intense Emotions —

Purple-Red, Dark Magenta, represents intense negative emotions, both internal and external. This includes overwhelming feelings of rejection, feelings of abandonment, anger, and more.

(#e24069) Pink-Red： Positive Intense Emotions —

Pink-Red, Lipstick Pink, represents intense positive emotions, both internal and external. This includes feelings of europhoria, love, healing, wellbeing, and more.

(#d6cce8) Light Lavender： Fear and Dissociation —

Light Lavender, Haze, represents fear, fear of abandonment, paranoia, dissociation, loss of sense of identity, feeling out of touch with reality, derealisation, and depersonalisation.

(#ada1d3) Dark Lavender：Solidarity and Remembrance. —

Dark Lavender, Periwinkle, represents solidarity between people with BPD and other cluster B disorders. It also serves as a reminder of the different ways BPD presents itself in different people. It also serves rememberance of those with BPD who have passed away.

(#ffffff) White：Duality and Recovery —

White and Black both represent the duality of BPD. Along with that, white represents recovery, and that people with BPD are not hopeless.

Why is this ableist shit on my dash

“what radicalized you” bro EMPATHY

borderline inspired emojis, by people who have it

in order:

infatuation, heartbroken, dissociated, rage, content

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so resentful, that I wasn't so hateful at times. Hatred does consume your soul in a way. But I can't help it. And for the love of God sometimes I wish people would just understand that.

Like all throughout places like special ed school, or even support groups, I would get bullied relentlessly by people who were neurodivergent or had a mental illness of some kind, and I'd get told "they can't help what they do, just ignore it" or "be nice to them regardless, they already have it hard as is", but I, with the same neurodivergenies and mental illnesses, never get afforded the same treatment. Why don't I get treated like that when my mental illness or trauma makes me say some fucked up shit? Or have violent thoughts? Or have outburts?

Even here on tumblr all I hear is "support people who get angry or violent from mental illness" and stuff like that, but the exact same story. They say something genuinely hurtful, they get defended because they "can't help it", but when I have an episode, I get degraded even further.

Just fuck all the way off. I get it. I fucking get it. I'm the unwanted here. Everybody else is more important than me. But you don't have to be mean about it, and at the very least, don't degrade me for something you defend or even praise others for.

Straight up narcing it. And by "it," let's just say, my personality.

who's up narcing their personality disorder - [etsy shop , still a wip!]

I need more friends who also have cluster b pds. I'm tryna find my people. Plus y'all are actually interesting lol (to me)

npd culture is a teacher in your childhood praising you for being good in maths that you started making it your top priority so more teachers notice your skills

until the education system starts getting progressively worse that you can barely get a reasonable grade and feeling like you've lost your achievement forever

-🍷

.

ASPD Adjacent!

[plain text: ASPD Adjacent! /end plain text]

ASPD adjacent flag! This is left vague so anyone who has, is questioning, or displays traits of the disorder may use it! This was made with people who have trouble pinpointing neurodivergencies and is NOT for transid supporters.

[ID: A flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are light coral pink, raspberry pink, grape magenta, dark purple brown, black orange, dark navy purple, dark ocean blue, pink blue grey, and light pink blue grey. End ID.]

[ID: A divider that consists of a thin white line with three stars on each side. End ID.]

Flag by me, using sampled colors. Requested by @radpocalypse. Tagging @radiomogai.

NPD adjacent flag! This flag is left vague so one can use it whether they are sure they have NPD, or just display traits, or are questioning. This was made with people who have trouble pinpointing their neurodivergencies in mind and is NOT to be used by transid/transx supporters.

[ID: Three images.

The first image is a flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are red black, dark red, brick red, terracotta orange, carrot orange, yellow orange, bright yellow, white, bright lavender blue, and lavender blue. In the center of the flag is the outline of the narcissus flower colored red black. End First ID.

The second image is a flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are maroon, red orange, bright orange, bright yellow, pink white, light blue, light purple, flower purple, and plum purple. In the center of the flag is the outline of a narcissus flower colored dark purple. End second ID.

The third image is a flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are bright purple, bright magenta, bright red, bright orange, pastel orange, bright yellow, off white, white, pastel green, and tea green. In the center of the flag is the outline of a narcissus flower colored dark indigo purple. End third ID.]

[ID: A divider that consists of a thin white line with three stars on each side. End ID.]

Flags by me, with sampled colors from NPD flags created by @/npdsafe and @/acidkeylime. Requested by @loveasappho. Tagging @npd-archive.

Narcissus outline symbol from the noun project. Link: https://thenounproject.com/icon/narcissus-1276973/

Flags without symbols below the cut:

[ID: A divider that consists of a thin white line with three stars on each side. End ID.]

[ID: Three images.

The first image is a flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are red black, dark red, brick red, terracotta orange, carrot orange, yellow orange, bright yellow, white, bright lavender blue, and lavender blue. End first ID.

The second image is a flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are maroon, red orange, bright orange, bright yellow, pink white, light blue, light purple, flower purple, and plum purple. End second ID.

The third image is a flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are bright purple, bright magenta, bright red, bright orange, pastel orange, bright yellow, off white, white, pastel green, and tea green. End third ID.]

HPD + BPD adjacent flag! This is left vague so anyone who has, is questioning, or displays traits of the disorder(s) may use it! These were made with people who have trouble pinpointing neurodivergencies and are NOT for transid supporters.

[ID: A flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are purple black, plum purple, dark magenta, berry pink, bright orange, sunny yellow, off white, cloudy blue, light purple blue, and dark stormy blue. End ID.]

Flag by me using sampled colors. Requested by @gillipopmoji.

NPD flag colorpicked from Mars!

[ID: A flag with seven equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are dark orange brown, dark plum red, chestnut red orange, sunny yellow orange, white, and misty blue grey. End ID.]

Flag by me, based on the flag by npd-safe. Tagging @npd-archive.

ADHD Adjacent flag, and ADHD + BPD adjacent flag! These are left vague so anyone who has, is questioning, or displays traits of the disorder(s) may use it! These were made with people who have trouble pinpointing neurodivergencies and are NOT for transid supporters.

[ID: Two images. The first is a flag with seven equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are maroon, bright red, light orange, bright yellow, bright lime green, teal blue, and light ocean blue. In the center of the flag, there is a white ADHD symbol; the symbol is the outline of a butterfly. The second image is a flag with eight equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are lavender purple, pale purple blue, sky blue, banana yellow, pastel orange, red, maroon, and dark maroon. In the center of the flag there is a symbol. The symbol consists of the ADHD symbol and the BPD symbol placed on top of each other. Each symbol is half black and half white, but the halves are reversed. End ID.]

Flags by me. Colorpicked from various ADHD and BPD flags. Requested by users on the LGBTQ wiki discord!

Flags without symbols below:

[ID: Two images. The first is a flag with seven equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are maroon, bright red, light orange, bright yellow, bright lime green, teal blue, and light ocean blue. The second image is a flag with eight equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are lavender purple, pale purple blue, sky blue, banana yellow, pastel orange, red, maroon, and dark maroon. End ID.]

Bpd Adjacent Flag! A flag that is left vague so anyone who has BPD, is questioning, or simply experiencing traits or symptoms can use it! This was made with people who have trouble pinpointing or recognizing symptoms in mind, and is not to be used by transID supporters.

[ID: Two images. The first image is a flag with eight equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are lavender purple, pastel lavender purple, white, soft yellow, peach orange, bright pink, purple magenta, and dark magenta. In the center of the flag, there is a black BPD symbol. The second image is a flag identical to the first, but without the symbol. End ID.]

BPD + Autism Adjacent flag! A flag that is left vague so anyone who has BPD and Autism themselves, is questioning having the disorders, or simply experiences traits or symptoms can use it! This was made with people who have trouble pinpointing or recognizing symptoms in mind, and is not to be used by transID supporters.

I made several versions of this flag. The first two are here, and more will be placed under the cut.

[ID: Two images. The first image is a flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are smoky blue, sky blue, blue green, pastel green, pale yellow, pale orange, peach orange, bright pink, purple magenta, and dark magenta. In the center of the flag is a combined autism and BPD symbol. The second image is a flag identical to the first, but without the symbol. End ID.]

Flags by me, requested by a member of the LGBTQIA wiki server! Colors picked from two BPD flags as well as an autism flag.

More versions below the cut, as well as the transparent symbol:

[ID 1: A flag with eight equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are sky blue, blue green, pastel green, pale yellow, pale orange, peach orange, bright pink, and purple magenta. In the center of the flag is a black combined BPD and Autism symbol with added white lines for clarity. End ID.]

[ID 2: A flag that is identical to the first, but the symbol does not have white lines. End ID.]

[ID 3: A flag that is identical to the first, but there is no symbol. End ID.]

[ID 4: A flag that is identical to the first flag for BPD and Autism above the cut, but with white lines added to the symbol for clarity. End ID.]

[ID: Two images. Both images are the combined BPD and Autism symbol. The first has white lines added for clarity while the second has these areas made transparent. End ID.]

NPD + ASPD adjacent flag!

[plain text: NPD + ASPD adjacent flag! /end plain text]

After months, I am still on the rocks as to whether I have ASPD, or just display traits. Maybe there are some things we are never meant to know /ref /lyr /lh

So, I made this flag for NPD + ASPD and adjacent! It is general so it can be used by anyone who has either traits of NPD or ASPD or the disorders themselves.

[ID: Two images. The first image is a flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are dark blood red, berry red, pale brick red, orange, pale yellow, pale grey blue, lavender purple, dark blue, and purple brown. In the center of the flag, there is a white symbol. The symbol consists of an outline of a narcissus flower with the upside down scale ASPD symbol inside. The second image is a flag identical to the first, but lacking the symbol. End ID.]

Flag by me. Colors sampled from the NPD and ASPD awareness flags. Narcissus outline taken from The Noun Project.

Tagging @mad-pride.

Below the cut, I have included the transparent symbol, as well as CMYK versions of the flags! (If you(&) don't know what that means, it's basically the version of the flag in the colors that a printer would output.)

[ID: A white symbol. The symbol consists of an outline of a narcissus flower with the upside down scale ASPD symbol inside. End ID.]

[ID: Two images. Each image corresponds to one of the flags above. They are extremely similar, but there are slight differences in hue and saturation of some of the colors. End ID.]

Turian Variant Flags!

[plain text: Turian Variant Flags! /end plain text]

In order: Apothane, Narcilix, Narcilix (alt), Neoboy, NPD, Acefog, Arofog.

Flags by me. Colors sampled from @noxwithoutstars' acefog and arofog flags.

IDs below cut:

In order:

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are brick orange, off white, grape purple, dark grape purple, and dark magenta. End ID.]

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are dark berry red, icy blue, sky blue, desaturated purple, and black. End ID.]

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are bright pink red, pastel yellow, sky blue, dark blue, and dark purple. End ID.]

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are lavender purple, white, icy blue, ocean blue, and navy blue. End ID.]

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are brick red, pale yellow, lavender blue, dark lavender blue, and dark purple. End ID.]

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are bright purple, white, bright green, leaf green, and dark green. End ID.]

[ID: A flag with five equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are olive green, pale yellow, bright orange, berry pink, and dark purple. End ID.]

Narc Varygirl (link) and Varyboy (link) flags, for Varygirls and Varyboys with NPD!

[ID: Two images. The first image is a flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are pastel blue, icy blue, ocean blue, grey purple, red maroon, red, bright red, pale orange, and pastel yellow. The second image is a flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are pastel yellow, pastel green, pastel blue, lavender blue, dark purple, dark maroon, maroon, red orange, and bright orange. End ID.]

Exclusive to those with NPD. Researched self diagnosis is valid!

Flag by me. Colors sampled from the Varygirl, Varyboy, and NPD awareness flags. Tagging @radiomogai, @npd-archive,and @revenant-coining.

Created an alternate flag for Narcilix (Link) because I wasn't happy with the old one! I wanted to make it more like the Anisolix flag. Feel free to use either one!

[ID: A flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are dull yellow, dull orange, red, deep red, black, blue grey, lavender grey, light blue grey, and blue white. End ID.]

Flag by me. Colors inspired by the Anisolix flag and NPD awareness flag. Tagging @npd-archive.

Narcithros - a term for when your Nethros (link) identity is influenced by or connected to your NPD!

Exclusive to those with NPD. Researched self diagnosis is valid.

[ID: Two images. The first image is a flag with seven horizontal stripes. In descending order, there is a thin pale yellow stripe, a thick pale orange stripe, a thick red stripe, a thin dark red stripe, a thick magenta stripe, a thick lavender purple stripe, and a thin pale light blue stripe. In the center of the flag, there is a white symbol with a thick black outline. The symbol consists of the outline of the narcissus flower with devil horns and a pointed tail that curves toward the right. The second image is a flag like the first, but it does not have a symbol. End ID.]

Flag by me. Colors sampled from the Nethros flag and npdsafe's NPD flag (link).

Transparent symbol below the cut:

[ID: The narcithros symbol. The symbol is white with a thick black outline. The symbol consists of the outline of the narcissus flower with devil horns and a pointed tail that curves toward the right. End ID.]

Aponarc - a term for when your Apothane (link) identity is somehow influenced by or connected to your NPD!

Exclusive to those with NPD. Researched self diagnosis is valid.

[ID: Two images. The first image is a flag with eight equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are lavender purple, dusty lavender purple, off white, pale yellow, pale orange, wine red, dark blue grey, and off black. In the center of the flag, there is a black symbol. The symbol consists of the outline of a narcissus flower with a spiral inside. The second image is a flag that is the same as the first one, but there is no symbol. End ID.]

Additional note: not to be confused with Apothenarc (link), a neurogender coined by @a-quilted-milky-way.

Flag made by me, using colors from the Apothane flag and NPDsafe's NPD flag (link). Symbol put together by me using two images from The Noun Project (link).

Tagging @radiomogai.

Flag with white symbol and transparent symbols below the cut:

[ID: a flag with eight equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are lavender purple, dusty lavender purple, off white, pale yellow, pale orange, wine red, dark blue grey, and off black. In the center of the flag, there is a white symbol. The symbol consists of the outline of a narcissus flower with a spiral inside. End ID.]

[ID: Two images. Both images are the aponarc symbol: the outline of the narcissus flower with a spiral inside. The first image is in black and the second image is in white. End ID.]

[ID: The aponarc symbol; the outline of a narcissus flower with a spiral inside. It is colored in six horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are pale lavender purple, off white, pale yellow, pale orange, wine red, and dark blue grey. End ID.]

I actually made the flag colored symbol by accident; I cropped the image using the magic wand tool intending to make a perfectly square image, and accidentally cropped out parts of the flag as well, creating the effect of alpha inheritance. Because of the symbol's position on the flag, it does not have all the colors, but if anyone is interested, I can make a more polished version of the flag colored symbol!

Narcilix - an NPD experience in which your NPD affects how you show affection, social bonds, love, compassion, and/or care in general. It may feel dull, inconsistent, or otherwise different from how those without NPD experience these things, and may cause issues in forming relationships or bonds. May or may not be part of the user's orientation and/or considered aspec.

This was coined to serve as an NPD version of Anisolix (link).

[ID: A flag with nine equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are pale yellow, sunny orange, red orange, brick red, dark purple grey, stormy blue grey, blue grey, light blue grey, and light blue. End ID.]

Flag by me. Colors sampled from the NPD awareness flag by @/npdsafe. Inspired by the anisolix flag.

Alternarc - a flag for those whose NPD influences their alterhuman identity, or vice versa

Exclusive to those with NPD (researched self diagnosis is valid) and who are alterhuman! Coined with godkin in mind but any alterhuman with NPD may use!

I coined this because I suspect I may have NPD! I'm going to do more research and I won't use this label for myself yet, and even if I figure out I don't have it, I want all beings with personality disorders to feel safe and welcome on my blog <3

[ID: Two images. The first one is a flag with seven equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are black, bright red, pale yellow, white, blue mint, lavender purple, and dark purple. The second one is a flag with ten equal horizontal stripes. In descending order, the stripes are black, red brown, bright red, orange, pale yellow, white, blue mint, lavender purple, grape purple, and dark purple. End ID.]