Mentally Fucked - Blog Posts

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It's crazy how with a little bit of adhd and excelling grades you can convince everyone that Ur fine, even when Ur OD'ing.

Having a mental breakdown the night before possibly going to school is so fun 😃 (I really hope elsa brings down a crap ton of snow tonight cause i ain’t ready 😭)

When you stay up until 8:00 am, and you have to leave the hose by 9…

Here’s another one that can summarize one of my fav seasons:

A group of teenagers go to find their robot, only to find out that a different version of Silco (from arcane) who likes buttons and is not mentally sane, is trying to trap them in a evil conspiracy theory. And is Silco’s bff, Sevika is a emo middle aged man who loves snakes…

I'm bored so here is a Ninjago tag game for y'all:

Explain a Ninjago scene VERY BADLY

Me first: four local teenagers bully a child who just wanted candy (I start pretty mild I just want to see chaos ensue)

@penofwildfire @nyaskitten @fernaldoishere @gravyhoney @a-big-chicken-nerd @user-without-a-cool-acronym @iamsonormalaboutninjago @bravetheperson go nuts

Edit: forgot to mention that I will try to guess them

i absolutely love insane characters from anime games or other media, i love a guy that would mindfuck me

Last night i was in my room, then all of a sudden i felt like my limbs were being weighed down. I could move but it took a lot of strength. Then i started hearing things repeating the same word over and over again. Then i saw people staring at me and not breaking eye contact. Surely i can't be the only one to have something happen like that? Why could i do stuff completely fine right after? Like i straight up watched youtube after?

Literally mentally unstable drama.

Okay so there's this guy same age as me let's just call him T. Yeah, so T used to be my first and last male best friend. I was really depressed and emo in school with no friends because i never fit in and used to cry a lot and get yelled at and T is my only friend during my not-peak-phase life. So, many time after, he told me he likes me but i don't like him and he doesn't exactly show any weird behavior or signs of it and i still stuck being his friend despite him liking me and many classrooms shipping me with him, i was very uncomfortable by that.

Soon, he told me he has to moved away and i gave and introduced him my and to discord after that we talk a little in discord and all, i introduced him to a server called Leafy.gg with members that are quite offensive (normal discord members)

i have really good reputation in that server being an active member but then T, he leaked my real life name, my face, my school to them. not sure as a joke or something but he just said to them that this is my name and then quickly, Leafy.gg members mocked me with my name jokingly but i was really sad and mad that T leaked my information. He didn't say sorry or whatever. i told him to stop and after that incident, i told Leafy.gg members that i'm quitting discord. of course, i had no friends that time and T just ruined my relationship with everyone.

after like 2 years, Leafy.g server went very dead and not active that makes me think that i was the reason most of them are active plus i saw that a lot of active members' account was deleted. I texted T again and i still remembered everything that happened and with no apology or nothing, he just said he missed me and all but after that, i just ghosted them. he keeps on texting me and i keeps on ghosting.

suddenly, he gave me his phone number which i don't have, i decided to not contacted him instead i gave his phone number to my friends in a new server named Bocchism, a server full of Bocchi the Rock fans, i was one. Basically, we just talked to him for fun and Bageto tried to fake being me,

My friends, Bageto, texted him and stuffs went out. he has phone numbers with my school friends even after he moved away, keep this in mind, he told Bageto and Weif, my other friend who helped contacting him, my information again but it's fine because Bageto and Weif didn't leak that information to the whole server.

anyways, we invited him to Bocchism for fun and i text him on discord again, i told him to say he's sorry and he said nope. NOPE? anyways, he then started attacking me by threatening that he will call the police when it's technically all of his fault. then he told me he already send it to his lawyer and his dad's friend who is a royal police or whatever and i was literally cringing by how fake that is. and soon, he send a picture of him with a glass of water and a fuck finger saying it's vodka LMFAO anyways, i told him he was underage and THAT IS NOT VODKA. he told me "just do whatever you want" and I told him "yeah i wanna eat fuck up" and BOOM, by the way, forgot to add this, first thing that he said to me, technically not me because it was bageto who is faking to be me, was that HE MISSED ME and HE WANTS TO DATE? SERIOUSLY AFTER ALL OF THIS, he don't say he's sorry and he just said he want to date like nothing happened??? i don't know what's wrong with me but i just wanna live peacefully with any guy stalking me and then JUST YESTERDAY, he got a picture of my face DURING GRADUATION that my school friends send him??!! i unblock him for a sec and typed in stuffs like lemme just-

Yes, i said a very cringe thing.

that's all, don't take this too seriously i better not see someone say "just report this to the police" no, i don't wanna do that because I'M A MINOR and i don't want someone i know get to focking jail he is the same age as me

I play video games to distract myself from the horrors

My sister ♡♡♡♡♡ she is just like me♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎♥︎

I think a lot of jirai/menhera committed suicide on January 1st :(

𝙳𝚛𝚊𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚜𝚑 𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜.

I fear it's getting bad again

sending a letter to my ex (??) who’s in jail

I blame them.

I've been through a sort of "bUrn out" for the past 2 months or so and gain3d back 3-4kgs, feel free to bulLÿ me into loosing them ☀️

I am nothing if not envious.

(Help I sent the original post to the drafts and now I can't find it). Sooooo... I may have fallen into the Forsaken rabbit hole and now I want to rant on my main blog about my OCs. Also, I should probably mention that my OCs are not finished yet, but that's okay! I'll find them some day! And, well, I am reposting these because I originally posted them to communities, but I want to spend the disease of these little guys everywhere. (Also, post 1 was posted to 2 communities while post 2 was only posted to one). Also, this is going to be a very long one, so prepare for no one to read this!

Post 1: Here is some concept art of my OCs! (I know that OCs aren't very commonly found in this group, but I'm going to share these two idiots because I need to spread them to other people.) This is technically a wip, but I'm still going to share it. Also, I do need some help with in-game stuff because I'm stumped. I am going to an info dump because this doesn't really have any info.

The one with a wolf headband and braids is Coco, and they are a survivor. They use they/them pronouns, but they have memory loss, so the other survivors use he/they pronouns for them (which is funny because they have never been a boy). I think they could attack the killer with their axe, but idk what else I want to do. I think I want them to have 3 abilities, but I have no ideas for other 2.

The other OC is Azazel and they are a killer. They use they/them pronouns, but since they also have memory loss, the killers use she/her pronouns. It isn't in the art, but I gave them a weird red spawn looking halo that is coming out of their crooked neck. I imagine they could rip it out to attack a survivor, but maybe they could get bleeding 1 for 3 seconds. And idk for the rest of their abilities, so I need help.

Also, I'm thinking of creating another oc that is a helper. All I have is that they are a girl and she would have probably worked at a bakery before Forsaken but that's all I have so far. And if you have read this far, thank you for listening to my very long info dump!

Post 2: Since it seemed like people liked the last post I made about these silly little guys, I decided to do some more! And I figured out some in-game ideas I have for them!

So, I mentioned an idea for a healer OC, and I made her! As you can see, her name is Drina, and what I have for her so far is that she can give people pies, but how she does it is that you have to click the ability twice on a person because once you set the pie down, it cannot be removed and can only be eaten by the person you clicked on (yes you can click on killers, that's why you have to do it twice so you don't misclick on a killer). I haven't really come up with any lore for her yet, so any ideas would be appreciated! I do think that she would get along pretty well with Elliot, and while not really trusting Coco, would still try and be kind to them. Also, I just want to say that I based her off of Kyoko from Block Tales and I love that about her!

And lastly, Coco! I haven't really thought of anything for them, but I have thought of an idea for 1 of the 2 abilities I want to give them. I'm thinking of a block/parry idea that works very similarly to Guest's block (edit: I forgot to add that I imagine that they would block/parry using their axe). And I love showing how messed up they are in the head! I feel like both of them and 007n7 would relate to each other a lot, because 007n7 isn't trusted by the rest due to him being a former hacker and dad of c00lkid, and Coco isn't really trusted by the rest because they look and kind of act like a killer, so people don't try and get to know the two of them very well; but that doesn't mean that 007n7 isn't also kind of weary of Coco.

Also, some fun facts I feel like I should add. 1: Both Drina and Coco are dark skinned, but because of me drawing in black and white, I keep their skin white in my drawing. 2: I do not intend to do any OC x Canon, specifically because of the fact that 1: both Coco and Azazel are 16, even though they both don't remember that and 2: both Coco and Azazel are aromantic/asexual (Azazel is kind of iffy on that, but I don't really want to get into that rn); and while Drina is an adult and either straight or bisexual, I haven't decided yet, I still don't want to ship her or any of my other OCs with the canon characters. Sorry for rambling again, I just wanted to get this all out while I still have motivation.

(Also, trying out tags for the first time, let's see what happens!)

One of my favorite sillies :3

I feel personally attacked by this…

speak to a therapist

Already do 💅

Max/ The Emerald Spider!

A punk, green, trans and plus size spidersona!

Context:

"Any more bright ideas?"

"I wasn't bitten by a radioactive lightbulb bro!"

am I unstable or it the world unstable? Are my actions extreme and dramatic or appropriate to the ever deteriorating state of society?? Does anyone know because I sure don’t

i gained ten pounds and broke up with my boyfriend

Now i’m like the soul sucking extremely depressed and hopeless mentally ill instead of the manic 🌈💕🌸 mentally ill where i felt good but knew it was bad

how do you break up with someone that you love

This is a mood so bad, it hurts.

“And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake… You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.” —Warsan Shire, For Women Who Are Difficult To Love

love bomb me. ignite the fuse. pls :3