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Childhood loneliness

I keep having flashbacks.

Not full fledged images.

My memory doesnt work like that.

All i remember is the painful emptiness.

The time i spent all on my own.

Because noone cared.

Noone ever has and I'm finding the will hard to locate.

Am i made to be a solitary creature.

Is this a prison.

A chamber where god has put me.

Made me forget all my sins.

Only thing he left me with.

Agonising desertion

Isolation beyond explaint

Why forsake me lord?

You made me this way.

You want your creations to be happy?

Then who made me.

You want me to believe.

How can i?

You refuse to send me a sign.

You want me dead.

But every chance you get you ignore.

What do you want from me?

Fly me to tbe moon

He broke up w me cuz he's not ready for a relationship (that he started) and apparently I'm too emotional but he saying he does have feelings for me... He gave me a hickey earlier that day then he breaks up w me... I want him back... Is it bad to ask him for fwb...

When will a cute tall curly hair midwest emo come save me from this castle ive been entrapped in

this ego train I've been on for the past 3 months it's starting to crash

maybe I was never that bitch

maybe I am just ill

maybe it was never meant to be

it being happiness and me

slowly starting to not reply and not text

if I'm not needed then I wont try stay

if life is meaningless then so be it I dont care

I hope we all die from isolation

into disintegration

Anyone else ever cry because of a friends death but without them being dead. Like they are alive and well and i fully know this fact so why was i breaking out into borderline hyperventilation about their death

Right so I'm 174cm which is abt 5'8 ½ which is pretty tall for a girl

I used to be very insecure about my height thinking it made me uglier and less desirable cuz I had a terrible terrible need for male validation that i simply never got when I was younger.

I have gotten over that now and honestly tall girls are so gorgeous and pretty.

But like shorter girls keep fucking complaining about "I can't wear these shoes I'll be too tall" right in front of me like WHAT

Ok ur shorter then me ur literally average height why are you complaining abt shoes, like I'm not even THAT tall and I've gotten over this whole shoe problem

But gosh fucking pissed me off

yesterday

This girl is talking to me abt wanting to get new shoes but she says "I'll be too tall with them"

uhhh no???? No you wont

She said "I'll be like the same height as you"

Uhhh

Girl

WHAT ARE YOU SAYING

Why is being my height bad

Literally I dont get it

174cm is a perfectly perfect height

Why is she saying this backhanded shit

The void its coming back

Lowk lost all will to live again

Lowk burnt out again

Lowk drinking alone again

Lowk ugly again

Lowk fat again

Lowk hate myself again

Lowk relapsed again

Lowk unlovable again

Lowk lost everything again

I hate spring

I got that spring time apring time sadness

Why does no one else have spring seasonal depression

Spring highlights my low mood cuz everything is suppose to be happy