Lowk Lost All Will To Live Again

Do men purposely say "you can say no if u wanna" cuz they know it makes a woman more inclined to say yes cuz it manipulates her into thinking he respects her

Anyone else ever cry because of a friends death but without them being dead. Like they are alive and well and i fully know this fact so why was i breaking out into borderline hyperventilation about their death

Addiction sucks because you get so deep into it that you dont know how to live without your substance. Life without it feels so lacklustre. You lose track of who you are

I am an alcoholic trying to recover but living without is so hard for me.

This is my plan

I will start drinking in secret to try reduce my alc intake cuz trying to go sober is really hard, idk how to act sober, idk who I am sober, idk how to feel normal sober

It just doesnt work for me

Trying to stay sober while everyone around you is either street drinking or clubbing is so hard

I'm 18 why do I have to struggle like this

The only way I will feel happy without blacking out or doing stupid shit is if i keep drinking but without telling anyone,

Doing it in secret because then I will be worried about people knowing so I will be forced to drink less but I still get to have the clutch that makes me likeable and able to actually enjoy my time

I know this is a bad idea and I should just cut it out entirely but after a week of trying I just cant I cannot it is too difficult

Finally broke up thank you lord for the courage !

#imjustagirl

NOOOOOO YOU WERENT SUPPOSE TO FALL IN LOVE W ME NOOOOOOOO

I thought I thought I was generally healed from my ED but evidently not cuz I just threw up all my guts and 5 hours + a nap later I can still feel mia

Crying hyperventilating and packing my bag i dont want to be in this house anymore i dont want to feel like the ultimate disappointment and i dont want to live i wish i was never born why would they put me on this earth if they wouldnt love me why do i have to be so useless why csnt i just be normal

He broke up w me cuz he's not ready for a relationship (that he started) and apparently I'm too emotional but he saying he does have feelings for me... He gave me a hickey earlier that day then he breaks up w me... I want him back... Is it bad to ask him for fwb...

I just had the most extreme urge to relapse into sh again but then I had a poo and now I don't have the urge anymore