Anyone else ever cry because of a friends death but without them being dead. Like they are alive and well and i fully know this fact so why was i breaking out into borderline hyperventilation about their death
Lowk lost all will to live again
Lowk burnt out again
Lowk drinking alone again
Lowk ugly again
Lowk fat again
Lowk hate myself again
Lowk relapsed again
Lowk unlovable again
Lowk lost everything again
I hate spring
I got that spring time apring time sadness
Why does no one else have spring seasonal depression
Spring highlights my low mood cuz everything is suppose to be happy
Fly me to tbe moon
I am the biggest embrassment to mankind
Kissing in the back of police car while hes in cuffs kinda romantic but idk how he feels
Latest hobby is editing my photos as if I'm a cybercore artist cant stop wont stop
The void its coming back
People who hate others for something they did while in active addiction are actually so fucking full of themselves
Don't expect an addict to be acting right
Especially when you know they are using while they are being this "horrible vile person" (the most said addict done is usually just say smth mildly rude)
Like I understand when it comes to the addict being abusive or whatever
But more times then not people only be judging specifically FEMALE addicts who literally only CALL PEOPLE OUT ON THEIR WACK BEHAVIOR or just fall in love with the wrong people, which mind you is influenced by their addiction
And yes a fucking addict will beg for money for their addiction
If you have never had an addiction I don't want to hear any of it
You do NOT understand how it fucking feels to have an addiction and never remember anything you do YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO NOT BE ABLE TO FEEL HAPPY WITHOUT YOUR ADDICTION
so yeah
Just my thoughts
I really do not think people should judge addicts the way they do like have some fucking grip on reality
Addicts are addicts because they've been hurt, because they are hurt, because they are struggling
More then not, particularly for female addicts but also just implies to addicts in general, addicts are using their substance as a method of escapeism and/or coping mechanism as what is essentially a wheelchair, something that helps them survive
I don't think you as a non addict can actually judge an addicts actions when you don't understand any of their life or thought process
This also applies to judgement of people with BPD, Bipolar, Depression ect
If you don't understand then don't judge
My notes app is colour coordinated for this reason