Fly Me To Tbe Moon

Please please please dpnt fall in love with me I dont want to hurt yoh

Ok so he said he still wants to be chill but we haven't really spoken since we broke up but like I put a hot picture on my insta story he liked it

HE WANTS ME BACK

Or he just tryna show we chill

HE BETTER WANT ME BACK

Childhood loneliness

I keep having flashbacks.

Not full fledged images.

My memory doesnt work like that.

All i remember is the painful emptiness.

The time i spent all on my own.

Because noone cared.

Noone ever has and I'm finding the will hard to locate.

Am i made to be a solitary creature.

Is this a prison.

A chamber where god has put me.

Made me forget all my sins.

Only thing he left me with.

Agonising desertion

Isolation beyond explaint

Why forsake me lord?

You made me this way.

You want your creations to be happy?

Then who made me.

You want me to believe.

How can i?

You refuse to send me a sign.

You want me dead.

But every chance you get you ignore.

What do you want from me?

Right so I'm 174cm which is abt 5'8 ½ which is pretty tall for a girl

I used to be very insecure about my height thinking it made me uglier and less desirable cuz I had a terrible terrible need for male validation that i simply never got when I was younger.

I have gotten over that now and honestly tall girls are so gorgeous and pretty.

But like shorter girls keep fucking complaining about "I can't wear these shoes I'll be too tall" right in front of me like WHAT

Ok ur shorter then me ur literally average height why are you complaining abt shoes, like I'm not even THAT tall and I've gotten over this whole shoe problem

But gosh fucking pissed me off

yesterday

This girl is talking to me abt wanting to get new shoes but she says "I'll be too tall with them"

uhhh no???? No you wont

She said "I'll be like the same height as you"

Uhhh

Girl

WHAT ARE YOU SAYING

Why is being my height bad

Literally I dont get it

174cm is a perfectly perfect height

Why is she saying this backhanded shit

Is it really that hard to love me

Is it really that hard to want more then my vagina

Is it really that hard to sympathize

Is it really that hard to care

Is it really that hard

Bro this film gets more and more relatable.

Dont think ive ever gotten this emotional over a film

The anger i share it the sadness the guilt i share it

Kissing in the back of police car while hes in cuffs kinda romantic but idk how he feels

Why do they call bruises black and blue when they are purple and red and turn yellow later on

People who hate others for something they did while in active addiction are actually so fucking full of themselves

Don't expect an addict to be acting right

Especially when you know they are using while they are being this "horrible vile person" (the most said addict done is usually just say smth mildly rude)

Like I understand when it comes to the addict being abusive or whatever

But more times then not people only be judging specifically FEMALE addicts who literally only CALL PEOPLE OUT ON THEIR WACK BEHAVIOR or just fall in love with the wrong people, which mind you is influenced by their addiction

And yes a fucking addict will beg for money for their addiction

If you have never had an addiction I don't want to hear any of it

You do NOT understand how it fucking feels to have an addiction and never remember anything you do YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO NOT BE ABLE TO FEEL HAPPY WITHOUT YOUR ADDICTION

so yeah

Just my thoughts

I really do not think people should judge addicts the way they do like have some fucking grip on reality

Addicts are addicts because they've been hurt, because they are hurt, because they are struggling

More then not, particularly for female addicts but also just implies to addicts in general, addicts are using their substance as a method of escapeism and/or coping mechanism as what is essentially a wheelchair, something that helps them survive

I don't think you as a non addict can actually judge an addicts actions when you don't understand any of their life or thought process

This also applies to judgement of people with BPD, Bipolar, Depression ect

If you don't understand then don't judge