Latest Posts by littlecigs - Page 6

It's like, I either feel an emotion stronger than I should, or I don't feel anything at all. And here's the thing, I feel happiness stronger than I should too, which essentially means I only feel happy when I'm euphoric, because regular happiness doesn't feel like anything. If it's there, it's exceptionally hard for me to identify it, and I end up just feeling sort of weird?

It makes me come off as unappreciative or disinterested even when I want or enjoy something, and I feel like it's something that needs to be talked about more.

I've had a lot of interactions where in the end the person I was with seemed uncomfortable, because I came off as cold or bored or annoyed, even though I was enjoying the interaction.

Just one of the many things that have caused me to miss out on life.

non sexual intimacy!!!! bathing together, washing each other, playing with each other's hair, kissing every inch of their body, writing love letters on their back with your finger, connecting their moles and freckles to create constellations on their skin, running your hands up and down their thighs, ugh just expressing physical love without it having to be about sex!!!!

the problem with making my entire personality be for my friends is that once they're gone i'm nothing.

time is going too fast and I can’t keep up. the month seems to go by in a blink but the days are long. one day you wake up and realize a full month has passed, and you have nothing. you don’t have many memories, you don’t have the potential to do anything, and you don’t have many reasons to be here anymore.

Knowing you're gonna have an episode soon and being able to do absolutely nothing to stop it is like waiting for your execution or trying to outrun a tsunami

“you’re so mature for your age” thanks I was not allowed to show any vulnerability as a child

If someone changes their tone of voice during a conversation with me I feel like the whole worlds collapsed on my body.

We manic!!!! Rejoice!!!!

-from Pinterest

"i would die for you" this, "i'd walk through fire for you that"

what about "i'd live for you" romances? what about "i never thought i'd be worth the work it would take to piece myself together"?

what about "i don't believe i'm worth it, but for you i'll try"

unfortunately i have whatever the opposite of charisma is

I wish I felt connected to these people that I’ve known all my life but I don’t

I have no real personality, I'm just some kind of monstrous amalgamation of the personalities of every person I've ever been friends with

Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.

thinking you're being overdramatic and paranoid over nothing only to be proven completely right is such a sickening feeling.

why am i always the person who needs to apologize. no one considers my emotions, it doesn’t matter what someone has done to me. once i make them upset, then i’m in the wrong and i’m a terrible person.

"Why are you so negative?"

Because growing up, nothing ever went right, so now I just expect things to go wrong. I expect abandonment, so I either cling on or push away, I expect things to not work out because that's what I've known. Whether it's a relationship, a goal, anything.

I also just have a severely low self-esteem that was consistently reinforced.

It's true that I can be positive when it comes to others' lives. I believe others can heal and become the best versions of themselves, I believe anyone else can deserve happiness and love. Me, on the other hand? Nah.

when you’ve been sad for so long you don’t know how to get better because you don’t know what it feels like to be okay