21F & tired. my old poems are seriously so bad. idk what this is turning into. I just want someone to talk to. open dms
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In the end I will destroy myself, because what other option do I have?
Found on Facebook
I don't deserve the things I want
"what did you do with all that anger?"
"i ate it raw, like I was a starving child and it was the only thing that could sustain me."
: )
-happyface
I'll never get closure because I don't even know what I'm looking for
it hurts so much more to be so aware of my behavior. it’s like i know i’m toxic rn and overly emotional. but when i mention it people won’t believe my illness anymore.
just because i’m aware doesn’t mean i can turn it off. if anything, it just makes me feel twice as bad about the thing happening and my reaction to it.
It gets so old watching people have and get the things you so badly want. I just sit there hoping one day, it'll be me. But I've hoped for so long with so little in return that I'm finally starting to realize that it will never be me. I was born with the promise of being pitiful and undeserving.
genuinely happy for people who can say their trauma doesn't define them but me personally that shit shaped me fundamentally and dictates every choice i make every single day. lol
And lately I've been stuffing my dumb fucking face ruining so much progress
Wish I had thighs but if I gain more than 5lbs I want to kill myself 🙄
I hate how tall I am. I'll never be pretty and delicate. I'll ALWAYS look big compared to other girls. It doesn't matter how much weight I lose
Wish I had thighs but if I gain more than 5lbs I want to kill myself 🙄
Why am I so unlikeable
Wish I had thighs but if I gain more than 5lbs I want to kill myself 🙄
