Littlecigs - Out Of Body

i'm damaged as fuck but i'll never hurt anyone the same way i've been hurt

i love when i warn people over and over and over again that i have "ugly" symptoms of my mental disorders and that i won't always be easy to deal with and they assure me it's okay and it can't be that bad and say all these nice things then fuck off and leave when things start to get tough. cute.

I feel sick, you know

In my head, in my heart

My eyes are filled with little black stars

And my stomach churns

With a thousand words I'll never say

i h8 being suspicious about things but damn that gut feeling really is always right

I wish I felt connected to these people that I’ve known all my life but I don’t

it's like i am literally never going to own a house or find authentic love or escape the clutches of late stage capitalism so really what am i living for