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I didn’t plan to be here so I don’t know how to be here

i thought i was at my lowest but holy shit it gets lower

The fear of abandonment isn’t just about people leaving, it’s the gut-wrenching belief that you aren’t worth staying for.

My existence feels wrong. Like I wasn't even supposed to be here to begin with.

I have this silly little feeling in my chest that's making me want to die

Me this Wee..

I cant get up without getting spliting headache and vertigo :///

HAVE STUFF TO DO.I want to like be physical and active and keep myself healthy but I took a 30 minute walk 2 days ago right I try to take daily walks and 1 had to lay in bed all day after becuse I was so freaking exhausted. A 30 minute walk. I literally just wondered aroundddd guyyss

My younger self would be so disappointed that we’re still here

growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

I don't need someone to talk to. I need someone to kill me.

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

I'm sorry if I'm difficult to deal with. I don't know how to deal with myself either.

I’d be more lovable dead

Why do I feel this bad

My parents are okay people

I have money

Education

Everything everyone wants

So why do I still feel this shitty

Tw sui talk and attempt

Me having to support my boyfriend after I tried to kms and apologising.

Am I selfish for wanting to scream that mabye it was harder for me??

Am I selfish for wanting the tiniest bit of support??

Like im sorry I tried to kill myself but obviously im going through some shit.

He then proceeded to dump on me how he was sucicudial and acted like he got it

I'd been suicidal for as long as I can remember

Im sorry me killing myself fucked with him I really am

But I feel like he didn't even bother to consider that mabge it fuxked with me

Mabye I get flashbacks and panic attacks because of it

I want to go back to a time when no one cared so I could destroy myself without feeling guilty