Me This Wee..

Shut up, I know others have it worse.

I know I’m a horrible person.

I know that I deserve my poisoned mind.

I know that I’m not worth anything.

I know that I deserve everything that’s coming for my life and my throat.

I know that no one will ever want me.

I know that I’m ugly.

I know that I’ll never be loved by a stranger.

I know that I don’t deserve to complain.

I know that I’m privileged.

Goddamnit, I fucking know that I deserve these thoughts, that I deserve to die and, god, I know that I should’ve never been born to begin with.

So shut the fuck up.

Just a poem I wrote..

So let the winds carry my body,

To brighter places, where you might be,

Lift me up above the clouds

I’ll search all of Tennessee

I wish I didn’t have to unlove,

But know, in dreams, you’re still my dove

A love that never quite got to run

We walked, we crawled, and laid to rest under the sun

I wish I didn’t have to unlove

A bottomless black hole I see

Where nothing lives, and sadness feeds

A soul rotting into the other

Decomposing in the depths of eternity

In the vast darkness that entangles me

I’ll always remember you in the fall

That’s where it first began

I wish I didn’t have to unlove you at all.

"How do you cope with your disorders?"

I don't.

i thought i was at my lowest but holy shit it gets lower

Cvts myself

Decided im done and bored

Why's this hurt im annoyed now

Please excuse me while I struggle with major depressive disorder, post partum depressive disorder, low support asd, inattentive adhd, bpd, cptsd, multiple anxiety disorders, panic disorder, ocd, gender dysphoria, wanting to kms, cvutting myself, and thinking everything i do is wrong and everyone hates me

But im fine and here for you!!