Getting Flashbacks To When I Genuinely Was Convinced That I There Was A Chance I Had Some Form Of A Bipolar
Getting flashbacks to when I genuinely was convinced that I there was a chance I had some form of a Bipolar Disorder except I now cannot tell if it’s Bipolar or BPD that I exhibit the most symptoms of.
I was doing one of those tests for BPD symptoms out of boredom/curiosity and my attitudes aligned a little too much with some attitudes found in BPD.
Here’s the test I did btw<3
I’m very much aware it’s just a little test done for shits n giggles but Idk I remember taking like 10+ different tests for bipolar and being worried because they all came out with the same results.
I backed out of telling a professional about this because my mom convinced me by that point that I’m probably overthinking and that It’s probably a piss poor mix of having an emotional form of autism & severe depression.
Now that I’m coming back to this.. Idk I’m still not sure what to do.
The only thing I know is that something is wrong with me(what a shocker). It’s a matter of what the hell it is that’s wrong with me.
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Just doing this to project my thoughts(as if that wasn’t the point of this whole ass blog).
I recently started thinking that I may be some form of dollkin. I used to identify as dollhearted/kith but I didn’t resonate with the term so I dropped it.
I made a little side note about why I feel a stronger sense of connection to dolls and why I lowkey wish I was one. I decided to take a look into porcelain dolls specifically because I didn’t really feel anything for other types of dolls. One of the notes I took down was that I always felt connected to vintage imagery and objects and like I was meant to be in a time that was not the time I actually was born in. Porcelain dolls are hella vintage and usually associated with elegance and the upper class of the time it was produced(1800s). I identify heavily with things associated with purity and elegance and all that jazz. That shit’s like peak gender to me among other things.
I know that otherkin identities are meant to be personal and so the experiences will also be personalized, but maybe if I hear the experiences of someone who is dollkin that’ll give me an idea of where I align.
Soooo….. PLEASE HELP!!!
That moment when you accidentally reblog a post on your side blog instead of your main blog…
Fml man I hate having to jump between two different blogs constantly.
I feel like making a post about my alterhuman identities outside of fictionkins so here’s a list of the like 3 different identities I have plus some that I’ve recently been kinsidering recently.
♡Kin: Angel♡
♡Kin: Wolf♡
♡Kin: House Cat♡
♡Kinsidering: Doll♡
♡Kinsidering: Rabbit♡
I’m looking through some mizuiro/tenshi kaiwai fashion on some sites and I’m just like:
I’ve started getting into the style because my angelkin ass will attach to anything angel themed + I love cyber-esq aesthetics.
Also the tendency for the fashion to be somewhat androgynous is definitely a plus.
If it wasn’t expensive I’d have like 20 pieces by now. :(
WARNING:
SH MENTIONS
Genuinely scared to go to class because I feel like shit and I don’t wanna do anything today, especially after that fuckup I had yesterday. I hate how my scars look so much I wish I could just erase them.
Luckily I can cover them up but it doesn’t stop the fact that I know they’re there.
I don’t wanna go pretending like everything is normal because nothing is but… ugh I don’t want to bring suspicion to myself.
Why must I have a life?
I made an art blog for stuff that I feel like showing off that are arts and crafts related.
So far there’s nothing on it but I’m gonna be posting some stuff there eventually.
I think it’s also generally gonna be a geekier blog than this one idk yet 🤷♀️
Anywho here y’all go.
Gotta love it when you try to cheer yourself up only to feel worse by proxy of being an insecure bitch.
I’m watching food shows to get rid of my boredom but I just feel guilty because I feel like I ate too much..(I literally just had dinner)
I’m counting my calories atm and it feels like one too much for just being afternoon. Last time I checked I did lose some weight but it just wasn’t enough for me. I need to lose like 200+ pounds more.
I want so desperately to be able to fit into size L clothes like I used to but I have the self control of a literal toddler. I’m hella scared for when my DearMyLove buys get here because what if I wasted my moment just for it to be ill-fitting?
They say to be proud of who you are but I hate being plus size so damn much.😒
Holy crap this is actually my body type?!
I was incredibly insecure literally this entire day but seeing this made me feel a little better about myself. ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
My first post on Tumblr! This is my latest doll sculpt, I have yet to name her~
My account was banned by tumblr policy and I created a new account and my account is very weak
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