May The Fourth Be With You All Btw

when i was younger, all i wanted was to stay up forever. i would hide my laptop under the covers to watch videos and play minecraft, and when that inevitably got taken, i would hide a book and a little light under the covers instead and read until i fell asleep on the pages. people used to brag about not sleeping, outdoing each other with less and less hours of rest, and i felt like a king because i could never fall asleep if i tried. but now that life is so incredibly busy and stressful yet simultaneously dull, insomnia has revealed itself as the curse it is. all i want to do is sleep and sleep and never wake up. my mother, who used to confiscate my computer and books and phone so i would go to sleep, now instead gets angry at me if i take a nap or go to bed too early. there’s too much work to be done for me to be ‘lazy’. but i am tired. i am so very tired. all i want to do is sleep. and sleep. and maybe have a nice dream where i’m happy and carefree and i never have to wake up.

i got a harsh liquid chemical deep in my left eye this morning and it’s still fucking throbbing omg.

26th february 2025

ROMANCE IS IN THE MOTHERFUCKING AIR MOTHERFUCKERS.

<3

xoxo

feeling very violent recently

almost lost a days worth of my code and my mind along with it… very stressful three minutes

:(

callout post for @clangcrunchyeowch he hates biodiversity and is racist towards vegetables

hear me out on huey long...

SNEEBSNOG

so embarrassing when i forget im checking someone's blog and i start scrolling through and liking and reblogging shit as if it's just my dash. it feels like wandering into someone else's apartment and not noticing and making myself lunch

mouse bites™

is that a codpiece or are you just happy to see me