a-fools-whim

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The more digitized my life becomes, the more vital it is to me that I get out and touch some grass.

Sometimes I don't wanna be no thoughts, head empty. Sometimes I wanna be many thoughts, head full. 😔

That random urge to get your life together at 3 am except you actually manage to stay consistent with it and end up with a whole new life >>>

I drew like I'd never see my art again.

I drew with the potential thought that I may never recover my old drawings.

I drew with the expectation of LOSS. And I was okay with it.

Yeah, it existed but I no longer had proof of it.

Like a record lost in time.

Gojo is so...yucky [affectionate]

Sometimes I'll come across YouTubers I used to watch and... it just feels so weird. Because I've gotten older now and so have they. It's kind of nostalgic actually.

Like heyyy, I remember you! I would try to watch all your vids in one go and then I'd happily wait for your next one!

It's always a pleasant surprise to have them pop up on my feed again.

As much as I love art as a subject and enjoy it as a passion, I will probably never come to understand it.

I was today years old when I realized that my taste in anime men reflected parts of my own damn personality

I watch sports anime to help me get motivated. And it does the job everrrrry time.

Me, as a procrastinator: Eh I'll just do it later, I have enough time anyways.

Also me, as a perfectionist: But if I'm gonna do it, I expect great results the first time I do it.

ME, LATER BUT IN ABSOLUTE DESPAIR: Got the task done super late but at least it was done somewhat well

Yes, I had a musical phase.

Yes, I still listen to those very same songs on repeat.

"Trauma builds character!"

IT SEEMS TO HAVE MADE ME WORSE??#&$&

Receiving verbal instruction is my kryptonite fr fr

I just can't man. Like yeah I HEAR what you're saying but it's just sounding like a butt load of gibberish rn.

And then I just decide to fucking wing the task given to me and guess at what you want done.

Rewatching the same romance animes I used to watch when I was like 9 almost every year has become a weird tradition of mine.

AND I EAT THAT SHIT UP EVERY TIMEEE.

You'll try to foster a relationship with anyone but yourself.

Tell me how the fuck that works.

I don't ever want to feel like my alter ego is just someone I can never become. Like an idealized version of me.

Like a costume fit to be worn only onstage but can never be embodied outside of the theatre. A one time showing under the right conditions. A character that'll never make it off screen.

I don't like to confine myself to those kinds of lines and boxes.

The fact that she exists means that I am capable of being this person, you know? That means I was able to bridge the gap between us and become one.

It may be difficult but it's never impossible.

How could we ever just be friends?

I'd rather die than let you go,

Juliet to your Romeo

How I heard you say

I would never fall in love again

Until I found him

I'm sorry but if you purposely use a SPOON to do a FORK'S job, I assume you either

a) Like to make things difficult for yourself

b) Are entering your villain arc and have sworn to be a fucking problem. This is the last straw. Come out with your hands up.

Sometimes I feel like I'm not being authentic in how I present myself online.

Like I'll try to look at my profile from a different perspective and it never seems like the real me fr fr.

I be thinking "Wow, I seem so friendly and upbeat! If only that were the truth haha!"

Cuz in my mind, I'm not that friendly and open. I'm the total opposite. Reserved, closed off, and very low energy.

But then I think hey wait a minute, I can be pretty friendly and upbeat-- when I feel like it.

My social battery gets drained fast and it takes a long ass time to recharge. I am NOT a consistently social person. I need many breaks and some time to myself, yk?

I'm no social butterfly, I'm more like an asocial moth.

Let me start off by saying that I am a very curious person.

Kept seeing this one anime pop up on my feed and one day yk, I got a little too curious. A little too bold. I was all like ykw fuck it, imma see what all the hubbub is about. And so I did.

And I haven't been able to escape the jaws of this anime sINCE THEN. IT HAS CONSUMED ME. IT IS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT. I WANNA WATCH IT OVER AND OVER I-

The only thing I have the most knowledge in at this moment is MYSELF.

Tbh I still don't know too much about that either but it's all I got, man.

Ain't much, but it's all I got.

More sketches qjwjejjeje

Sketches

Just a smudge

1/16/19