Just A Smudge

Sometimes I'll come across YouTubers I used to watch and... it just feels so weird. Because I've gotten older now and so have they. It's kind of nostalgic actually.

Like heyyy, I remember you! I would try to watch all your vids in one go and then I'd happily wait for your next one!

It's always a pleasant surprise to have them pop up on my feed again.

The only thing I have the most knowledge in at this moment is MYSELF.

Tbh I still don't know too much about that either but it's all I got, man.

Ain't much, but it's all I got.

Receiving verbal instruction is my kryptonite fr fr

I just can't man. Like yeah I HEAR what you're saying but it's just sounding like a butt load of gibberish rn.

And then I just decide to fucking wing the task given to me and guess at what you want done.

As much as I love art as a subject and enjoy it as a passion, I will probably never come to understand it.

Rewatching the same romance animes I used to watch when I was like 9 almost every year has become a weird tradition of mine.

AND I EAT THAT SHIT UP EVERY TIMEEE.

1/16/19

Greetings

Sometimes I feel like I'm not being authentic in how I present myself online.

Like I'll try to look at my profile from a different perspective and it never seems like the real me fr fr.

I be thinking "Wow, I seem so friendly and upbeat! If only that were the truth haha!"

Cuz in my mind, I'm not that friendly and open. I'm the total opposite. Reserved, closed off, and very low energy.

But then I think hey wait a minute, I can be pretty friendly and upbeat-- when I feel like it.

My social battery gets drained fast and it takes a long ass time to recharge. I am NOT a consistently social person. I need many breaks and some time to myself, yk?

I'm no social butterfly, I'm more like an asocial moth.