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Studing
Expectations: studyblr aesthetics, candles, fresh-brewed coffee, fairy lights everywhere, macbooks and moleskins, everything's neat and fancy af
Reality: cheap pens and pencils, a hell of a mess on the desk, notes and scraps of paper on the floor, three cups of unfinished instant coffee, cheap-as-chips old laptop
Listen to me. The human world is a mess.- Sebastian the Crab
Last night, he had me edge until I was a sloppy mess. I am only allowed to edge in ways that amuse him. This includes anything that is embarrassing for me. Table corners and the edge of my tub are favourites. Seeing how he laughs at me, turns me into even more of a desperate slut. I become so needy. He just laughs at me more which turns me into even more of a messy whore. I am a desperate cunt.
Just really fucking love edging honestly. Need someone to rub my clit until I’m begging and smile after not giving me my release. I’ll beg and beg, and when she does let me cum, she tortures me with overstimulation. hnngh
☝️🙌🙏 I feel that!
I found a picture that someone apparently was secretly taking of my desk ...
My desk looks a lot like this one. But outside is much more snow, on the windows are frost pattern and I don't have any donuts and coffee mugs on the table ':) And my cat is actually black, but that’s fine ;) I think this picture is awesome and very very beautiful, so I had to share it!
Inktober2018 day 7: exhausted
• 10th June 2021 •
Constantly changing tabs in my brain between "You got this, everything will be fine." and "You are useless, you will never amount to anything in your life."
I'm not crying and neither are the lights off
I am convinced there is a troll living somewhere the house, or maybe a nisse. Because every time i start making jewelries, all this mess just "happens". I Honestly have no idea where all of it is coming from! Then my stuff disappears all the time too, thank god it shows up after some time. Now i have to organize it all again *sight* Well at leas i made a lot of new jewelries this time!
My messy room is an expression of my thoughts
Sorry...
Sorry for being a burden.
Sorry for being clingy.
Sorry for being such a mess.
Sorry for having no self control.
Sorry for being insensitive.
Sorry for being thougtless.
Sorry for being heartless.
Sorry for being unempathic.
Sorry for overestimating.
Sorry for not grasping cues.
Sorry for being emotional.
Sorry for overthinking.
Sorry for being distant.
Sorry for being manic.
Sorry for being depressed.
Sorry for being arrogant.
Sorry for hating myself.
Sorry for bothering you.
Sorry for dissapointing you.
Sorry for making excuses.
Sorry for being suicidal.
Sorry for telling you about it.
Sorry for staying.
Sorry for opening up.
Sorry for saying all that.
Sorry for apologizing.
...I'm sorry.
Ripped into a thousand pieces
Left with a hopeless mess
Spend all my blood on the way
To find a place to rest
And I swear I'm trying my best
But it drags me down
Again till nothing's left
Nothing's left to be found
Lunatic Luv
You'll surely overthink
If you try to understand me
A paradoxical chaos
Far beyond comprehension
Look at me through blinded eyes
Loose sanity in my undertow
You have to leave your mind behind
To scrutinize my heart and soul
"One day you wake up and realize that: others' perfection is no better than your imperfection, their order is no better than your mess, their hypocrisy is absolutely no better than your honest madness... So... you just... be yourself and fly away.”
-Isac Randazzo
Everything is covered in pollen. I’m done
You can have everything, and still be broken.
today, i realized i am drowning.
i am drowning and i can't breathe. its all dark and too much. i am choking and coughing. but. the catch is, i tried to scream. i screamed till my throat bleed. but when i saw them laughing, i realized how it didn't matter. how i never mattered. my screams , my cry for help never mattered. they knew. they fucking knew but they shut me out.
They left me here. in the dark. to drown in blood.
It's time.
It's time to end it all.
And i am gonna survive it all.
no matter how much i try,
in the end i became what i feared,
just an average.