I Have This Silly Little Feeling In My Chest That's Making Me Want To Die

ok so, my second semester of college starts soon, and im already starting it off in a bad mental state. I got an email saying that im being placed on academic probation :/

im thinking about posting about how my days go a little bit more and what it's like trying to get off of that probation.

I got my septum pierced yesterday and it’s amazing, downside I didn’t tell my mom…

I’m almost 19, but my Hispanic mother will always spook me

i want to get my shit together so badly

i also want to just give up

I could have a knife in my back and the first thing I'd do is make sure you're okay

current mood

coloring in my colleges library while trying not to cry 👍

mini mood board 4 inspired bc idk why but i cannot fucking. stop. eating.

all i think about is my weight and the wanting to lose, but i am stuck maintaining and ending up in binges.

i need to be smaller. i have to. i’ve been working so hard why am i messing this up??

The longer you’re clean the worse the relapse

Where do i go if nowhere and no-one feels like home anymore