Your Fifth Most Recent Emoji Is What Your Soulmate Thinks About You

Things I'm good at :

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• feeling like a burden and bed rotting

What it's like inside my brain:

SomeBODY once

told me that you had a boyfriend, who looked like a girlfriend, I had in February of

Laaast Christmas, I gave you my heart...

Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

Welp

After the worst fucking day, I just threw 2 weeks down the drain. I was doing so well, and I went and messed it up. i was clean for two weeks then I went and played fruit ninja on my arms. FUCK. I am quite literally a fuck up

I just can’t do anything right anymore. So here is my current mood. Idk what I’m doing anymore, should prolly just die lol. That sounds like a better idea than anything. My bf could do way better, and be way happier with someone who isn’t a fuck up. With someone that he doesn’t have to worry about hurting themselves. Mom and dad don’t care, they’re too busy arguing to be bothered by me. That deserve a happy, non-messed up child.

so if anyone is wondering, I have playlist for when I fuck up. Idk if anyone else does this lol, but here what I got. Damn this post is a mess lol

i want to get my shit together so badly

i also want to just give up

i deserve to be an eel. in a crevice with a bunch of other eels. opening and closing our mouths over and over

I highly recommend a clingy, lovey-dovey partner. Life’s too short to be with someone who acts like showing love is a chore

forgot to post this yesterday lol

Breakfast: skipped

Lunch

Broccoli 20

Steak teriyaki 120

Rice 110

Dinner: skipped

Total 250

every time…

man this hits me right where it hurts…

pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning