Every Time…

I got my permit guys!!!!

guys I’m so nervous, I’m about to go and try to get my permit again!

"you're so funny" - thanks man can’t wait to stare at the ceiling tonight.

1/27 work out

I decided to record my workouts from PE today and these were the stats

Badminton: open goal

total time: 1 hour and 17 min

Active cal: 374cal

total cal: 447cal

Average hr: 146BPM range: 95-187bpm

I walked a total of 3,612 steps and closed two of rings. my goal was to burn 300 cals and went a total go 142 over that. And I try to work out for 30 minutes each day.

I feel like I did pretty great today, I feel well accomplished in my workout today. I do badminton for my college PE credit and Im honestly debating on joining the schools team, my coach seems to think I would do pretty well on it.

today we worked on improving our aim as well as our swing range and boy was it a lot of squatting, my thighs feel like their going to melt off- but in a good way-. i'm getting pretty close to having a healthy thigh gap. like Im getting to my goal weight by working out and turning the fat into muscle instead of starving myself to get there, and i'm proud of myself for it.

At this rate, they'll find me dead in my room any day now. And the worst thing is that nothing in their lives would change in the slightest.

craft update

yesterday after going to the dentists, my nana wanted to go to the craft store to look around since there was a big sale and I had a coupon. So we walk around and I offhandly mentioned that I wanted to try doing cross stitch, so she goes all in and gets me a starter kit and some of the fabric for it. I even have some embroidery floss that’s back at home.

anyway I wanted to show everyone my new hobby lol

I’ve spent a little over 5 hours on this guys, why is it so addictive!

Well, actually funny story!

(Proceeds to tell you the most wild, traumatizing, sad and tragic story you ever heard)

Update: this was months ago and we broke up.. I broke things off after he wasn’t respectful of my boundaries after multiple chances. On the bright side I’m in a much happier and healthier relationship with someone that does respect my boundaries

holy shit

guys I’m literally freaking out, just for some context I’m a senior in high school and have been in a committed almost 3 year relationship. And this dummy texts me “wouldn’t it be so silly if I proposed to you while your in uni” and I say back “if you doo, wait till after freshman year as that’ll be my most stressful year” wtf like I know I wanna be with him forever but like, what if he’s joking? I don’t think I can that that

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why is job hunting so hard now?? In high school I got a job so easy, but now in college it’s like I fit all the requirements but you don’t feel like hiring anymore after saying you were desperately understaffed?!!??

When you grow up in an abusive home, you don’t become a people pleaser to please people. You become a people pleaser to keep the potential for more abuse away.

ITS BACK!

There’s so much to unpack here:

Pack of Beakers

Goth Beaker

The Beaker snitching and pointing out the photographer

The Beaker that’s about to unload on the photographer

The terminator strut before the ass whooping and you know he’s moving at speed because of the blur

The ominous feeling that you know this is 3 in the morning