Feel Free To Ask Me Any Of These!(^_^)

So I may have gotten inspired…

Expect a video in maybe 3 weeks to a month.

I’m looking back at videos trying to explain Jirai Kei and not gonna lie, if I wasn’t a hideous, camera-shy freak, I’d go all out and make my own Jirai Kei essay.

The way that these people talk about Jirai Kei doesn’t feel like it does them justice since they’re into it from a fashion perspective. And I don’t wanna be that person, but if you’re into it purely for the fashion, you might as well call it girly kei since that’s what its fashion aspect of it basically took inspiration from, if not directly took it from (and if you’re a subcul Jirai, emo fashion in Harajuku is a primary visual inspiration).

Jirai isn’t just some edgy term used by Jirais to look cool and like some sort of anime menhera archetype. It was an actual insult used by people(usually men) in Japan to describe girls who are basically ticking time bombs. This is just Jirais reclaiming the term the same way Emos had reclaimed their name(Emo was an insult in the early 2000s).

I call myself Jirai because I understand this as someone who was often called overdramatic and too emotional, and feel a sense of power from it. Yes, I’m not Japanese, but there’s a reason that some Japanese subcultures have terms for participants outside of Japan(Ex. Gaijin Gyaru). It doesn’t have to be exclusive.

In conclusion, to quote a Reddit that I found, “I don’t think people(especially fashion Jirais) understand the implications of being called a Jirai.

Anyone got any J-idol recommendations?

Here are a few of the ones I like atm to get an idea of what I’m looking for:

-BABYMETAL

-Candye Syrup

-Momiro Clover Z

-i☆Ris

-femme fatale

I am not me. I am an amalgamation of my interests, mental illness, and my kins all in one.

(credits to someone on pin!)

girls are so pretty and gentle how can guys treat them like shit (≧□≦)!!!

♡Welcome to My Online Journal♡

I previously had a couple of blogs but I decided to delete them because I got overwhelmed and bored of them. However, I knew I was gonna miss having a Tumblr so I decided to remake one into a blog where I just do whatever I want.

♡Introduction to Me♡

•My name is Kiara, but I also go by Kiran or Kallisto. In any other case though, you can just call me Pearly.

•I use She/He/They + Neopronouns. I am genderfluid and xenogender, as well as alterhuman(Therian, Fictionkin, etc).

•I have AuDHD(Autism + ADHD)

•I’m a huge fan of Alternative and J-Fashion, especially Scene and Jirai Kei. Some aesthetics that I adore are cutecore, mcbling, morute & 2020s Tiktok Alt.

•I primarily speak English, but know basic Spanish and am slowly learning Japanese

•I have a crap ton of ocs and may or may not occasionally use this as a way to catalogue them. If all else fails, I’ll just make a separate blog for them, but who knows?

♡Before You Interact♡

•I will do my best to to not direct too much attention to things like religion or politics, but on the off chance that I do, it’s likely to give my take on a serious issue. I will be sure to give content warnings for when this happens.

•I generally suffer from mental health issues, and may use this as a way to journal some of my thoughts. I’ll refrain from getting too extreme with it, but if you otherwise don’t want to put up with that, I wouldn’t suggest interacting with this blog.

•This blog isn’t suggested for anyone under 16 due to the aforementioned topics.

♡Do Not Interact List♡

DO NOT INTERACT WITH ME IF YOU ARE ANY OF THE FOLLOWING:

•Proshippers

•MAPs/Zoos/Necros

•Homophobes

•Transphobes

•Anti-Xenogender/Neopronouns

•Anti-Therian/Otherkin

•Zionists

•Nazis

•Islamophobes

•Antisemetics

•Political/Religious Extremists

•Right-Wing Conservatives

•Supporters of any of the above.

If there’s anything else I should be aware of, please do let me know!

Other than that, hopefully you enjoy your stay!

♡Other Socials + Pronouns Page♡

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Hi! I go by Kiara, Kiran or Kallisto! I'm 18 years old, and I'm an emo/scene kid trying to live their childhood dreams! Despite calling myse

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Pearly (@xxPearlyKissxx)

˚✧₊⁎⁎⁺˳✧༚Hello༚✧˳⁺⁎⁎₊✧˚ ♡I go by Kismet, Pearly or Karma online! ♡I identify primarily with both feminine and masculine identities. ♡I l

Inspired by a post by @crushingcasanova where they had shown their results, I looked at a few Yandere personality charts out of boredom and because I (personally) love the yandere archetype. These were my results:

•Big Five Yandere: CCDAF

•Yandere Types: LSVT

•Yandere MBTI: RDHL

•Soft Yanderes: CDWI

Also just in case anyone wants to do it themselves….

♡Sources♡

Big Five Yandere Personality Types:

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☰ Yandere Personality Types  〔Big Five〕 ☰ Overview 〔Disclaimer〕 Yandere behavior and mindsets are not healthy, nor should they be sought a

Yandere Types:

Yandere MBTI:

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Yandere “MBTI”

Disclaimer: The yandere trope is not a portrayal of healthy or ideal relationships, but instead a horror-based genre meant to stick strictly

Soft Yanderes MBTI:

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An MBTI System For Soft Yanderes

Having discovered the amazing Yandere MBTI by @ddarker-dreams I was inspired to create a similar system for the categorisation of soft yande

I made a bunch of collages of all the different styles I like & wear/want to wear.

90/2000s Grunge?? Not sure…

Mcbling/Trashy Y2K

Kawaii(with some possible jojifuku influences)

2020s Tiktok Alt

Mall Goth

Scenekid

Dark Coquette/Morute/Dollcore

Jirai Kei/Girly Kei

Imagine my struggle trying to figure out what to wear lmao

WARNING:

POSSIBLE NSFW & SH MENTIONS

I just got a message from I think a bot or maybe a scammer trying to get me to be his sugarbaby or something like that.

I blocked of course but it got me thinking…

Even if it wasn’t a ploy or something I just wanna say:

Bitch in what world am I sugar baby material?😭I’m a hopeless, fat virgin who cuts herself to cope with stress(which doesn’t even work anymore), can’t maintain a healthy friendship to save her life, and will throw a hissy fit when things don’t go exactly as she wants it to go.

I struggle doing minimal tasks such as getting up in the morning, brushing my teeth and taking a shower.

I spent the last two days doing absolutely nothing but sleeping and scrolling on my phone, praying that I get more online attention.

They say people are complex but if I were a rubix puzzle i’d be a fucking dodecahedron.

I’m a mess and I wear that fact on my sleeve.

I doubt that I can handle a relationship, let alone a transactional one.

Fuck I was listening to a song that triggered a phantom shift and I felt like I had wings for the first time on my back.

I knew that it was just a phantom shift and it made me wanna start crying lowkey.

I know I’m not a picture perfect person and I know I don’t take care of myself that well, but fuck I’d be so happy if I just had wings. I promise that I will take care of them and tend to them and preen them just please let me have some.

I hate this human body of mine so much and everything that it entails. I wish I were made out of light and purity instead of out of the ribs of a pile of dirt.

I wish I were made an angel.

Getting flashbacks to when I genuinely was convinced that I there was a chance I had some form of a Bipolar Disorder except I now cannot tell if it’s Bipolar or BPD that I exhibit the most symptoms of.

I was doing one of those tests for BPD symptoms out of boredom/curiosity and my attitudes aligned a little too much with some attitudes found in BPD.

Here’s the test I did btw<3

I’m very much aware it’s just a little test done for shits n giggles but Idk I remember taking like 10+ different tests for bipolar and being worried because they all came out with the same results.

I backed out of telling a professional about this because my mom convinced me by that point that I’m probably overthinking and that It’s probably a piss poor mix of having an emotional form of autism & severe depression.

Now that I’m coming back to this.. Idk I’m still not sure what to do.

The only thing I know is that something is wrong with me(what a shocker). It’s a matter of what the hell it is that’s wrong with me.