I Cant Fucking Do This

How about both 😎

Pfft physical pain? Have you ever tried having bpd

One day we shall grow wings

One day we shall feel free

The thoughts that drag us down

Rip our skin

And cloud our skys

Won't be able to touch us

We will be above the clouds

In a place that no one's seen

The people who spit in our faces

Prod at our hearts

And watch us sink low

Won't be able to touch us

We will br above the clouds

In a place where no one's been

There no tears shall be shed

Except for ones of relief

And our hearts will open

We cant feel pain in the palace in the sky

Will you hold my hand as we fly?

One day we will grow wings

Please excuse me while I struggle with major depressive disorder, post partum depressive disorder, low support asd, inattentive adhd, bpd, cptsd, multiple anxiety disorders, panic disorder, ocd, gender dysphoria, wanting to kms, cvutting myself, and thinking everything i do is wrong and everyone hates me

But im fine and here for you!!

i have the urge to hurt myself every single day. it's all i think about and yet i don't. and then i hate myself for not doing so.

I feel... wrong for not being covered in scars and not taking control of the uncontrollable. i don't know how to explain it

Yeah why im in so much pain i feel like im dying why not just be dying

Why isnt the suffocation from depression enough to kill me?

Haha me every day

If only they knew....

If they only knew....

Pretty like blood in snow

Pretty like feathers in a vase

Pretty like dried flowers

Pretty like art of bones

Pretty like decaying fleah

Pretty like rotting stones

Pretty like tired nights

Pretty like dying leaves

Pretty like broken glass

Pretty like bleach stains on a black shirt

Pretty and fragile

Pretty and gone

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

i wasn't meant to live this long and that's why i don't know what to do when i feel this awful

I just wanna stick a knife in my arm