Kinda Tired Fighting For A Life I Don’t Even Want

Cvts myself

Decided im done and bored

Why's this hurt im annoyed now

When did showers become a space to cry

And not a space where we sung

When did our bed become a refuge and tomb

And not the place where we slept

When did school become a thing of dread and misery

And not a space of joy

When did our parents become our enemy

And not the people we looked up to the most

When did pencil sharpeners become refuge

And not a simple tool

When did it all start to hurt

When did I stop loving you

Tw sui talk and attempt

Me having to support my boyfriend after I tried to kms and apologising.

Am I selfish for wanting to scream that mabye it was harder for me??

Am I selfish for wanting the tiniest bit of support??

Like im sorry I tried to kill myself but obviously im going through some shit.

He then proceeded to dump on me how he was sucicudial and acted like he got it

I'd been suicidal for as long as I can remember

Im sorry me killing myself fucked with him I really am

But I feel like he didn't even bother to consider that mabge it fuxked with me

Mabye I get flashbacks and panic attacks because of it

at this point, sinking back into my depression is like a warm hug. finding comfort in this is sadness is so natural. i know i was meant to feel this.

How about both 😎

Pfft physical pain? Have you ever tried having bpd

i just wanna fucking slice my wrists till i bleed to death

forced to say “it’s okay!” Instead of throwing a fucking chair at their head

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed