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Nicknames/pet names (Vanderwood HC)

The names he calls you: Baby girl, babe, love, princess, Love of my life.

Baby girl: This one just came naturally... (I think it makes him sound more... fancy XD)

Babe: He started calling you this after you first referred to him as babe

Love: He loves you... With all his damn heart you are his love.

Princess: You don't like this one very much.. He uses this one to annoy you.

Love of my life: You both refer to each other as this... especially when you two are being cute.

^This is one of his favorite things to call you and to be called.

The names you call him: Babe, handsome, Vandy, Vanderbae, Agent, love of my life, Leopard.

Reasons:

Babe: I don't think this one needs an explanation...

Handsome: When you first met him, you told him that he was handsome.... and you still think he's handsome..

Vandy: Just a shortened version of his name... He doesn't mind it too much.

Vanderbae: This one is just to annoy him... He honestly hates when you refer to him as this...

Agent:... I’ll leave that one up to your imagination... ;)

Love of my life: you both refer to each other as this.. especially when you two are being cute.

Leopard: For some reason, he's obsessed with leopard print, so that just became something you call him every once in a while.

And that went..... terribly

He broke up with me on boxing day because he "realized he wasn't ready for commitment"..

I was asking him for comfort because my mom was hospitalized and I was terrified, I wanted someone to be with me... and he did this instead... he told me it would be best for me if he broke it off because he "couldn't keep pretending everything was fine" (he hadn't been able to get out and see me... because he's like the biggest coward on earth about snow and ice and his parents arr equally as bad and he would not even try to fight his parents on any of it)

Literally this boy's mom told him to break up with me, that it wasn't worth coming out to help me through that night.....

Like seriously? Did he even stop to consider how this might affect me? Clearly not, or maybe he didn't give a shit.

Really pisses me off, I was nearly hospitalized myself that night because I took two massive, traumatic emotional blows and I was nearly going to end my life. Had it not been for my father talking to him (he agreed to remain friends.... we'll see how long that lasts 🙄) and talking me down, I don't think I'd be here

yea.. after this I'm fucking done with men and their stupid commitment issues and their mama's boy mentality.. hope I meet a woman... or a man who is motherless and more dedicated to the relationship.

And I was so dumb for letting myself plan a future with him... he didn't deserve me, he never did, I should have seen the signs so much earlier...

Anyway, I lost all sense of self and purpose... so Idk what to really do...

I'm trying to do art and the things I love but like everything I do reminds me of him... no matter what it is and it reduces me to a crying heap..

So.... um in honor of this truly nightmarish situation, I'm taking requests... for art, not fanfiction..

H!

I'm back from the dead!

And I have things to talk about 🤭

Last month into this month has been fucking wild for me!

I was connected to a girl my age through my therapist, her name is Sam. We've really hit it off and I now consider her a friend.

Then... for some reason I felt confident enough to make a dating profile.... and

AGAINST ALL ODDS I MET SOMEONE.

Like I live in a town over an hour away from any cities.. but he only lives a half hour out of town... so not a super long drive.

Anyway, we've seen eachother in person twice but I fell so deeply in love with the guy.. and I can tell he feels the same about me... the way he looks at me.... How he talks... He is also a total romantic.. much like myself, so it's been going really good! I'm hoping we'll get to see eachother again next week.

But I never thought I'd ever get into a romantic relationship... if I'm being honest

Don't read on if you're easily triggered by mental health issues and/or sexual themes.

I never intended to be around this long... I was literally planning on ending it all shortly after my 18th birthday... But for some reason... I kept going.. and I'm super happy that I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have ever met my friend and boyfriend.

Seriously...

Things are finally going right for me after so many goddamned years of being alone, isolated unable to find any real connection and incredibly miserable because of it...

I have finally realized I am not unlikeable, I'm not worthless and I can find friends. And for the rest of 2022 and into 2023, I will work as hard as I can to not let my anxiety control me anymore

My next big leap comes in November. I will be looking for my first job!

And here comes the part where I gush about my boyfriend

I now have this dream now where I'm settling down with my boyfriend.... we move into a little apartment in one of the cities nearby (in fact that dream could very well come true... because we both want to go to the same city for college) and we settle into a peaceful domestic life together.... hopefully with cats!

Ok... but like honestly this guy is literally the one I've been dreaming of. He's very attractive and emotionally available, and he doesn't judge me for who I am! I neglected to mention here, but I have discovered that I am agender and my pronouns are they/them... I live in probably one of the most conservative provinces in Canada and to make it worse, I'm in a small town with like 4 churches of the same exact brand of extremely homophobic and transphobic Christianity... I fully expected him to lose interest in me. But no, It hasn't affected how he thinks of me. and he is very careful to respect my pronouns...

He's also very funny (which I really love in people... I can't be around someone who is super serious all the time) I mean... when I last saw him on Monday, we were at my place, playing around (in an adult sort of way) and he discovered my toys

One of them had a suction cup at the base, so he goes and sticks it on the wall a few times... then he sticks it on his forehead looks at me and says "I'm dildo man" we laugh about it together.... and he goes to pull it off his face only to discover it has suctioned pretty hard to his face, so I help him by wedging my finger under the suction cup and lifting it off...

and HE HAS A BIG ASS BRUISE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS FOREHEAD... We're still laughing our asses off... me almost pissing myself with laughter as we frantically search for way to get rid of bruises and hickeys online... we try the fork method, icing it... everything we can do, nothing works.. so we decide to just take a bath to clean up before my parents get home from a trip they were on (at this point my parents don't know we've had sex... and I wasn't exactly ready to tell them) While we're in the bath, my parents get home and my dad calls out to me... I fucking panic and we get out and dress at breakneck speed.

My parents brought home some takeout and my boyfriend stayed for dinner... he met my mom for the first time... but damn... coming downstairs after that was... super awkward... but thankfully my parents aren't the type to be bothered by that kind of thing, all they needed to know was that we used protection (which we did ofc)

It's funny though, he really gets along well with my dad.. Maybe it's their sense of humour. Or maybe the fact they are both quite talkative..

But damn.....

This guy is special.. and I hope we last for years, decades... life even...

And done.. Sorry about all that.. just had to write this all down somewhere.. It's really hard to contain my happiness right now.

it's a dark day for america, and all i want to do is hold my trans and queer siblings tightly. but since that's not possible, this is me sending digital hugs to all of you. stay safe. stay alive. fight. your one precious life is worth more than any of the poison that's taken so much from us already

please. stay alive

So... I got freecam and now I feel like a God lmao also used a emote mod for the one in the bath and the one in the bell tower...

Can someone please write a cute fluff (maybe even fluff and smut) fic about Tav and Astarion bathing together? If not, I'll do it lmfao

(I already have like 10 different Astarion fics in drafts RIP.. side note, If you have requests for Astarion related fanfiction, feel free to send me an ask! I need to edit my rules for requests though nsfw is now allowed and I'm no longer relying on my character list.)

Is my account slowly turning into an Astarion account? Maybe...

Ok but why tho?

Cropped Jumpers made from Upcycled Ski Masks by Lasher Felix

Well hello there~

info and a long ramble about this and why this exists under the cut if you're interested

So.. I'm experiencing the most intense obsession with a fictional character I've ever experienced in my entire life..

I started playing Baldur's Gate 3 two weeks ago.. why did I pick it up? Because I saw a clip of that scene where Tav kills him by shooting that lazer and dropping a building on him, and the dialog after you get Withers to bring him back.. you know.. "Somewhere between a nice summer's day and THE FULL CONCENTRATED POWER OF THE SUN" and I was like.. daaaamn who is this character and why does his VA sound so damn passionate? So I bought it...

And I have clocked well over 100 hours in game now and it's safe to say I'm completely, hopelessly obsessed with this game. Now...

Onto the actual explanation of this piece

The idea for this art piece came from right after his first sex scene with Tav (the only one I've seen as of yet... and um.. like damn... DAMN) when he stands in the sunlight and you see his scars on his back for the first time.. The moment I saw that, the gears in my head started turning and I imagined big huge angel wings on him... then.. um.. well.. I heard a song which brought that image back into my mind.. (Helios by the Crüxshadows.. It's good go listen to it!) which yes.. music is a huge part of my creative process most of the time.. My imagination can run wild when listening to some songs not certain why.

But anyway.. Astarion with big ass angel wings was born.... and I'm probably going to go in and paint it with watercolors and pray that I don't hopelessly fuck it up.. If I don't, I'll post the finished piece when I'm done.. (really wish I had metallic watercolors.. I feel like gold paint on the halo and maybe the scars would add a lot to this tbh)

I guess the unofficial title of this piece is:

Helios ☀️

Side note... I think I gave him too much ass... (as if that's a bad thing lmao)

He really puts the ass in Astarion... Ok.. Ok I'll stop 😅

I just wanted to come here and say, I'm sorry I haven't been active lately.

I haven't gotten around to requests in like months.. thankfully only one is in my inbox right now.

I also haven't been doing a lot of art.. things have happened which I will vent about... because my therapy appointment is over a month away and where else can I vent if not tumblr..

Tw mental health stuff, general health stuff, transphobia, relationship drama.

So happy Pride Month... it's nearly over, I know.. but oh well. Like a lot of people are saying, this pride month feels different.. less safe.. I came out as nonbinary to my family last year and started socially transitioning and I have known I was pansexual since 14.... so this stuff kinda hits hard.,

Even being in Canada it's scary seeing all this hate.. it's not as bad here.. but haha.. I happen to live in Alberta.. half the population here is homophobic, godfearing, truckers, cowboys, and farmers.... so I feel a sense of danger every time I'm open about it..

I went to a parade in my town.. we have a yearly event in June.. it's not pride.. but I kinda treat it as a form of pride.. I wore my pronoun pin badge I bought shortly after I came out. One of the town four churches has a Vacation Bible School program and a woman who is a pastor's wife always every year comes up to me and tells me she wants me to volunteer to help them out and kinda forces me to take an info packet....

Yeah.. this year she looked directly at my pin badge and talked to my parents instead basically pretending I didn't exist which was kinda funny and a huge relief.. hope this stops her from bothering me In the future... I did notice a few people look at it as well and like body block their child... which was so stupid.. istg conservatives think we're the boogeyman or some shit. Also kept getting misgendered... some lady who knew me from my childhood says "oh you've grown into such a beautiful young lady" and I straight up felt ill..

Anyway.. during that event my mother had a medical emergency.. she had a mini stroke.. my mom was very confused wasn't aware of her surroundings.. she's normally super resistant to going to the hospital and will fight you.. but she was so confused she got up, got her shoes on and got into the car and walked into the hospital without a fight...later she nearly punched me in the face while we were trying to hold her down so the nurses could get an IV in.. (they don't have daytime security at the local hospital and they don't have restraints) she said she doesn't remember any of it..,

As for my relationship.. I still have a boyfriend.. he's been pretty busy with work though.. his boss moved him to a super inconvenient schedule 3pm to 9pm.. every single day, no days off..

He's also had so much trouble with his car that it's not even funny. It's all been the coolant.. he thinks he's fixed it though so.. I'm hoping that won't be an issue as much.

So it's been hard for us (especially me.., because.. like my last relationship ended shortly after my ex couldn't make it out to see me.., he did finally admit it was excuses so.. I'd be lying if I didn't say I was afraid of that happening again) but we're enduring it.. he's a sweetheart and has been making time to talk to me after work almost every night until he gets too tired to continue..

It helps a lot.. he makes me feel wanted and he is trying his best to make it work so we can see eachother in person 😊he'll be coming out tomorrow morning and staying until 1pm.. we only get 2 hrs together but it's fine.. any amount of time with him that I get is worth it.

I promised him one day if he's able to visit for longer we'll watch Heathers: The Musical and get slushies... mountain dew, cherry or lime flavored ofc (iykyk) he's into that idea thankfully lol..

it's a requirement that everyone in my life watches Heathers at least once... I've seen it so many times I could almost recite the entire thing... 🤭

But that's all for now, when I get the motivation I will write requests!

Simping has extended to Elven kings, apologies lmao

Can I please request Vandy comforting his MC after her family treats her horribly?

Thanks for requesting, Anon!

-You had decided to bring Vanderwood to meet your parents…

-You had thought they’d understand, you’d thought that they would love him or at least respect the fact that you loved him. 

-But that didn’t happen

-All hell broke loose when you mentioned that he was your boyfriend. 

-Your parents started screaming and yelling at you 

-You felt horrible. 

-You felt guilty.. 

-Vanderwood wasn’t going to let that happen for too long 

-”MC, It’s okay, You don’t need to listen to them” 

-They were your parents, you felt obligated to listen to them… What else were you supposed to do? 

-You cried. 

-He put his arm around you and rubbed your back. 

-You kept crying and he kept hugging you. 

-He kept reassuring you that everything would be okay and that he’d talk to your parents to try to smooth things over later. 

-That seemed to calm you down quite a bit.

-You were still upset, but with Vanderwood, you felt as if you could get through anything. 

Once again.. I've neglected Tumblr..

In my defense a lot has been going on and I haven't had the mental energy to post... buuuuuut..

I made this really nice painting. He got a spot on my art wall in my room.

I'm finally playing Aria of Sorrow.. Wish I could get Dawn of Sorrow too.. Maybe I will one day.. I have an old DSI that I haven't really used since I was 10.

And I saw the Grimior of Souls design and fell head over heels in love.. I wish I had an apple device.. if I did I'd be playing the shit out of it right about now.

Also side note.. I need to work on hands.... DESPERATELY.. why are they so hard to do?? Like the hand in this one looks like an amorphous blob 😵.. Anyone who can draw hands competently is a God, I'm serious.