Latest Posts by inspiredtrans - Page 2

Wait this isn't some wild screenshot this is an actual ask you received? Honestly I don't doubt it's real. So called "detrans kink" spaces can get pretty wild and not in the fun way. Anon got what they deserved.

Considering his mention of kink I hope this is just an elaborate joke he gets off to, because honestly that would be the "better" ending, but it may very well be real unfortunately.

I voted for Trump and now that people found out they're going through my tweets and blogs and calling me transphobic. Especially because I have a detrans kink blog where I joked that Trump will make transmascs girls again. I feel like I don't belong in the LGBT community anymore and like I'm a traitor. I really don't know why it's so wrong that I voted how I wanted and I have the interests I do because every other trans guy I know agrees with me. I don't understand why I'm getting called out and cancelled for thinking just like every other trans guy. Is this something other trans guys are going through since the election? Or am I actually just a bad person like everyone keeps saying?

❤️ anon if I reply later

Part of the harm of invisibility for transmen is being bombarded with a million "emergency HRT" resources by a hundred different well meaning groups and absolutely zero of them mention testosterone. If they do it's basically a footnote. Testosterone is necessary HRT medication too, believe it or not. It is harder to synthesize and it is federally restricted and I think that's EVEN MORE REASON TO RESEARCH AND LINK EMERGENCY TESTOSTERONE HRT‼️

Random thought I've been having for a while now but I'd love to experience the covid lockdowns all over again but as cis.

Like instead of crying over how this means my hrt will get post poned for two more years, I could spend all my days playing videogames and jacking off and generally chilling around, all while you're actually obligated to do so.

Yes I know that all the stuff covid has done is terrible both regarding the disease itself, and the cultural, political, and economic impact it had, but, 16 year old me could've hardly known about that, much less care

@ anyone who says "I'd call a cis man girl too", I'd like to see you try that in a group of straight gym bros

the second a trans man fucks up, other queer/trans people start calling him "girl" and going ok well its gender neutral. its slang. like how dumb do you think people are to fall for that

sigh.

+ the fact it's pretty much confirmed those "influencers" claim to set up at a gofundme for whichever person they helped in the video, only for none of the money to go to the person in need?

I think gofundme has actually gotten stricter with that where you need to supply receipts of where the money goes, but I'm sure influencers will find a way around that like the scum they are

How do you feel about kindness being filmed like they’re performances. Someone hands a homeless person a sandwich, and boom, the cameras rolling. I’m a good person, they say without saying it, but the thing is a sandwich can only last so long, yet you'll be dining on those social media likes all week. Sure,it’s lovely, helping people. But here’s the thing: It’s sad that the world’s become a stage for doing good when you have a camera in your face, or worse in the face of someone struggling to live each day, they are not the supporting actors in your new tiktok. We don’t just help anymore. We sell the moment. Isn't it lovely though getting credit for being decent when your not just doing good. Your doing good for the algorithm.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so resentful, that I wasn't so hateful at times. Hatred does consume your soul in a way. But I can't help it. And for the love of God sometimes I wish people would just understand that.

Like all throughout places like special ed school, or even support groups, I would get bullied relentlessly by people who were neurodivergent or had a mental illness of some kind, and I'd get told "they can't help what they do, just ignore it" or "be nice to them regardless, they already have it hard as is", but I, with the same neurodivergenies and mental illnesses, never get afforded the same treatment. Why don't I get treated like that when my mental illness or trauma makes me say some fucked up shit? Or have violent thoughts? Or have outburts?

Even here on tumblr all I hear is "support people who get angry or violent from mental illness" and stuff like that, but the exact same story. They say something genuinely hurtful, they get defended because they "can't help it", but when I have an episode, I get degraded even further.

Just fuck all the way off. I get it. I fucking get it. I'm the unwanted here. Everybody else is more important than me. But you don't have to be mean about it, and at the very least, don't degrade me for something you defend or even praise others for.

Sorry not sorry but sometimes I really am done having to put up with mentally ill folks. Like the fuck do you mean you can make fun of my sexual assault and abuse I've faced and then go "whoopsie daisy, it's just my BPD making me do that, teehee" and then when I call them out, I'm the ableist one??? The fuck??

“Stop isolating yourself from reality” well tell reality to stop sucking

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

And even for trans men who are fully bodily abled, white, and have little to no mental illness and/or aren't neurodivergent... Did people forget that we aren't 100% the same as cis men, in the places where trans men would get placed in men's prisons? Because while remaining family friendly, if you haven't had bottom surgery there'd be some very peculiar issues regarding that in a prison environment.

And regardless of which gender prison you're placed in, hrt access isn't always guaranteed in prison, far from it in fact.

And the whole transphobia aspect aside from placing trans men in women's prisons; women's prisons can get pretty violent too, and especially towards trans men since they're "different" which is often reason enough to incite violence. That and women's prison often being even more neglected than men's prisons.

Cut some slack on trans men who won't just "do DIY" and stop hating on those who do + transmasc diy hrt should be less taboo. I know this wasn't even about diy hrt but just had to throw that in there.

I think it’s normal to be afraid of jail especially for trans men who are disabled or not white or are mentally ill. to casually joke about “what happened to be gay do crimes” to a population whose mortality is threatened by the prospect of jail is deeply cruel and deranged behavior.

I hate how my biggest goals in life rn are to have a steady 9-5 that doesn't completely mentally drain me, and allows me to have an actual life work balance, live in my own 1 bedroom apartment with no roommates, where I can eat healthy homecooked food and actually own a functioning car I can drive. Why the fuck is that considered a wild dream nowadays? This was literally the standard/minimum like 20 years ago. Wtf. I don't want to do this anymore this whole world is bullshit why are human dignity(and rights) becoming a pipedream

I think I genuinely want to end it all. Nobody cares about me, not in a way that matters anyway. I constantly get discriminated against simply because I'm a foreigner, and they make it incredibly difficult to navigate all the legal stuff in my new country. And even if I do have everything in order, sometimes I still get denied simply because "fuck you, that's why".

I'm also struggling with severe mental illness and trauma, which at this point I only expect to be neglected even further. Not to mention dysphoria and being trans amplifying the above tenfold.

I just don't see the point. I want to withdraw from society. It doesn't deserve me.

Feeling like killing myself later tonight. The dysphoria and it's consequences are too much. Don't bother telling me to please not do it, or tell me it will get better. because 1. Nobody truly cared before and 2. no it will not, I'm certain of that right now.

And I know nobody cares for me, not on a personal level, and not a broader scale. So I'm finally ready to do "it" I suppose. Hopefully it will be more peaceful there.

The idea of "socialization" as a trans person is so interesting, because a lot of trans women talk about how they generally don't experience male socialization (I say generally because all trans experiences are different, but the general idea of true). They experience closeted trans women socialization, which I can't even begin to speak on what entails.

So in contrast, you would expect something similar to be true for trans men, and in a way, yes and no. There is some truth to seeing how men are expected to act (stoic, unemotional, etc) and internalizing that. But there is also the experience of growing up as a little girl where so much focus is put on the idea that you should grow up in service of others. That is internalized so readily in just watching your mother and sisters cooking and cleaning up thanksgiving dinner while your dad and brother sit in the family room watching football. Its in how your body is told to be covered until it can benefit the men around you (i.e. school dress codes). Its in how you, as the smart girl in class, need to pick up the slack in group projects with class clown boys, but you are still less intelligent and deserve to be talked down to. Its in how you are told to be quiet and diminish yourself and act for others and never yourself. And because you are expected to grow up as a girl, this is how you are expected to act.

But then you aren't a girl, you are now a man that lives in service to others, has internalized this idea of diminishing himself, is stoic about his emotions, and lives in a world where the crimes of cis male patriarchy are thrust on his shoulders as his responsibility. Any of his anger is seen as either violently male, or hysterically female, and so you get none of the support you need and are only ever really critiqued.

Idk, just thinking about trans men again.

it is what it is (i want to die so bad)

"good morning" - wrong because if it were a good morning i wouldnt have woken up

It's not a life anymore. It's a struggle, everyday.

So I was supposed to put up with someone constantly joking about my sexual assault and abusive family because "they have BPD, they can't help it! :((( " but I dare say anything, to anyone, that's considered mean in the slightest and it's all "you shouldn't bully others!" "always be the bigger person" and "you should be a good example" but then also told that people with mental health disorders can't/don't have to change, which of course applies to everybody but me, because I simply have to learn to "accept life" and "sometimes you gotta go off your own path a little". No. Fuck off. If people can say anything and whatever because their mental illness makes them do so, so I can I. Oh and also people still holy believe that male and female socialization is something that got invented in the past 20 years with the sole purpose of misgendering trans women. Please get outta here.

I agree it went a little too far but just for once I'd like to voice my opinion on the bad state of European trans healthcare or any other of my issues, without being met with bullying to getting told about how American(and specifically always north American) trans people have it so much worse. Then when I point out that that's not always the case, I just get told to not play oppression olympics, even though that's literally what they did with my original comments. And how can I expect to "bridge the gap" when anything gets met with "ackshually"

So yeah I just kinda fucking had it at that moment. Still kinda do but slightly more reasonable now. Should indeed not have said it, but also please stop being so dismissive of trans/lgbt people from other parts of the world.

I've concluded nobody gives a shit about trans rights. Not even other trans people. And especially American trans people. Atp I hope the election takes away your hrt, shouldn't have been a selfish and inconsiderate prick to trans people outside of the US. Maybe this is karma. Good luck out there, but I won't care if you loose access to your tiddy skittles.

I've concluded nobody gives a shit about trans rights. Not even other trans people. And especially American trans people. Atp I hope the election takes away your hrt, shouldn't have been a selfish and inconsiderate prick to trans people outside of the US. Maybe this is karma. Good luck out there, but I won't care if you loose access to your tiddy skittles.

I need fellow friends who are also struggling. Doesn't matter online or offline but I'm tired of venting to my friends about how hard it is to juggle all my responsibilities in a body that's actively trying to not be alive, only to hear "damn that sucks" or "I believe in you" when you know they live with loving parents who provide everything for them, and don't have to put up with a body that's mentally and almost physically falling apart.

Of course I'm happy for those people but I don't think people fully grasp how much dysphoria, depression brain damage, and a broken relationship with your parents, sets you backwards in life. And tbh I need friends who can relate to at least 2/3 of those things just so we can talk about our shitty problems while having fun idec what.

please hmu

Can people please stop infantilizing gen z? A lot of us are in our 20s or nearing our 20s.

I'm tired of posts like "lmaooooooo my coworker just told me they're from 2003 isn't that INSANE??!?!" or "someone just told me they're from 2004 I can't believe these LITERAL BABIES are already PAYING RENT the same as me lolololololololololol" literally just stfu up please-

Yes, most of us do work a job. Yes, a lot of us do pay rent and taxes. Because we're *adults*. The majority of gen z is over 18. Please stop treating us like "literal babies", and don't be shocked when we do anything mature or adult like we're literally supposed to.

People seriously underestimates how living with mental illness is also inherently traumatizing.

It's been almost 10 years for me now. I physically feel my memory suffering under mental illness. Other senses like vision get affected too.

You wouldn't expect someone to undergo 10 years of cancer treatment, only to still be sick, and tell them "please keep going, you've been so strong before, one day it'll be alright!". You just wouldn't do that, would you?

Then why is it not only normalized, but encouraged to act that way towards me?

"You'll be fine" - Dude, it's been 10 years...

death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

I just want to give up I’m tired from the bottom of my fucking soul like I don’t want to do this shit anymore like let me rest please I’ve had enough

Dear diary...

All of this feels so pointless...

I feel like I'm wasting my time here.

There's no point in me being here if all I ever do is suffer...

Suicide isn't selfish, it's not your fault if you want to end your suffering.