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Distraction from progress

I've been having some time off from my spring cleaning and "new life" due to some family issues. Sucks, since all I want to do is feel that fresh and giddy happiness I get when I realize I'm so close. I'm not going to talk about what has been happening specifically, but I do need to spend a lot of time with my family.

Will this be how all distractions feel in my new life? All dragging and somehow hopeless for me? Who knows- all I can do is hope that this doesn't last long. I've got plans with friends tomorrow and the day after, though- so I guess I'll need to fit more of my new life into that.

Just trying to feel better right now, not doing too well though :/

<3 Caramel

Cleaned up my room— it seems like everyone is enjoying it ☆☆☆

Your blog and photography are beautiful! I really love looking through and seeing how you spend your days.

-💤💖

!!! Omg thank you so much TT

This was really encouraging! I'll keep posting pretty pictures, okay? Thank you, I love you!!

Winter Celebration art #1

I plan to draw a ton of these little pictures before christmas, print them out, and give them to my friend(left) with his gift.

I'll post one whenever I finish it, so hopefully this motivates me!

Calibrating

So far in the school year, things have been alright- balancing the APs I’m in has taken some time, but overall, things seem just fine.

I’m still trying to make a proper schedule for myself to follow, finding a lot of trouble when trying to actually stick to it. Maybe I just need motivation? Feels like I’m trying to get ahold of all this too late. It’s alright, though- at least I didn’t leave this until university.

My blog’s been looking pretty blank recently. In my free time, I’m thinking of adding a little gallery and maybe a music player? 

I’ll see if I can actually put something of this sort into my blog sometime soon- but no promises, especially since I’m still not sure how to manage my time TT

<3Caramel

Time for pie

Scrambled eggs

God, I wonder what kind of life I could have if I could just motivate myself normally. Maybe I'd have more integrity, having enough courage to tell the truth sometimes. Maybe my grades would be straight hundreds. Maybe I'd already have a proper job.

Looking at studying guides like this makes me kind of believe I can work hard and work focused - and maybe, I can. I guess I'm moving onto my "getting in character" part of my new life, and that excites me like nothing else! I really hope I can get this done.

I'm tight for time right now, though, so for now I'll just keep this image posted here to save it for myself later.

<3 Caramel

I picked up a green tea from the convenience store today.

Honest, I didn't even need it— I could just as easily have boiled water and made the tea myself, but at that time, I'd been out for so long that it felt pointless to return home with nothing.

Ha... It feels a little pathetic, but at least I'll wake up tomorrow a little less exhausted.

Build me up

Another one of my packages arrived today! There’s just a few more that I’m waiting for. Though it didn’t make me feel the motivation and determination for my new life that I had earlier, it felt wonderful to dress up and look nice. :)

I walked up to a hill with some friends today and watched the sunset- average teenage things, yes, but it was pretty to see the lit city skylines and the stars hanging up in the sky.

I feel like I’ve kind of lost my energy for my new life, but that doesn’t mean I can't still make it to the finish line- I’m still willing to put in all the effort I need. By the weekend, I should be able to move in a desk and mirror into my room!

Going to visit my tài pó on Sunday, I’ll figure out what flowers to bring by then. For now, though- I should definitely sleep. Sorry for the poorly written post, I’m exhausted.

<3 Caramel

Hiiii you're back! Missed you <3

Oh my goodness Mari!! I missed you so much too (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)

Glad to be back!!