Cleaned Up My Room— It Seems Like Everyone Is Enjoying It ☆☆☆

ty for the spam!!!!! i didnt wven realize that u came back!!! i hope you've been well :DDD now that ur exams r over you can relax a little right? i hope so ^^

i've got all my semester exams next week, and after that i'll b out for the summer thankfully

have a good day, nice 2 see u back :D

-🍊

!!! Omg you've got this!!!! Finals are really stressful, but I'm sure you'll get through (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)ᕗ-✧

I've been using my downtime to work on a funny project of mine, and hopefully soon I'll have something to show for! This coming summer is going to be great for the both of us, I can just feel it <3

Have a great day, alright? Love you!!!

Dissatisfaction

I really like my life as it is now, I get a few if not a decent amount of things done every so often, like music recitals and competitions and gigs every month or so.

School life is good enough, since I feel like I’d be okay with pretty much any environment. My friends are wonderful too, and they keep me company for the lionshare of the time I’m feeling lonely. They’re fun to talk to as well, and honestly one of the best parts of my life.

The problem is that I can’t help but dream of idealized versions of my life now- going back to that dream of being the stereotypical asian kid with neat handwriting and pocky and stationary of all matching colours. Aestheticism has a grip on me like nothing else, and sometimes I can daydream weeks away cooped up in my head, remembering none of what happened while I was up in the clouds. Social interaction in those times comes on its own, making up jokes and having entire conversations on autopilot without even being aware of what I’m talking about.

Most of my aesthetic wishes are the usual: being productive, matching colours and themes of everything I own, all in something pretty stereotypical of an asian girl (an example being my blog theme- all pink and cute even though I wasn’t a fan of pink when I made it), and, most regretfully of all, a friend group of kids who are all similar to my aesthetic ideal.

I love my current friends- so much so that they’re one of the only reasons why I bother going to school in person anymore. They’re fun and interesting to talk to, play games with me, and give me lots of support- but there’s always some kind of aspect missing from it all. 

I’d never let them go for the world- but when was the last time I had a sleepover? Went out with a cute group and looked for phone accessories? Braided one of my friend’s hair?

My current friend group is absolutely amazing, but I feel like I kind of left some of my planned childhood behind since I stopped having a super close friend group of girls in elementary school.

Is it so selfish to wish I had a group to bake with, to call each other pretty and cute, to tease about who they like, and to paint each other’s nails? Is it not such a wonderful thing to dress up in matching colours, garden with, and look up horoscopes together that you don’t even believe in, but still hope for like some fairy tale?

I really wish I were more of a girl, I’d suppose.

I really do wish that more people saw me as a girl. I hope it’s not too selfish to pray for?

It's been a while since I posted. School and family gatherings have made me very busy lately, so I haven't had much time, unfortunately (⁠｡⁠•́⁠︿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠) I miss you all dearly.

Qingming was just on Saturday, and the weather was perfect. The cherry blossoms were in season and beautiful!

This pond was so gorgeous, though I wish there was someone to take care of it— there was so much dirt and debris inside, and I couldn't see any of the fish I was so excited to feed...

Music player added!!

Holy moly!! After two or three hours of struggling, I’ve finally gotten a music player on my blog! I don’t think it’s on mobile but on desktop it seems to be working fine.

I’ve loaded a few songs that I like into it, but it’s pretty far from my actual music taste. Whatever, though- anything for aesthetics, right?

Anyways it should be right here on the top of my blog page! Unfortunately I was too lazy to make my own so I used a generator- but I feel like that was a little more trouble than it was worth since SCM’s method of using youtube links doesn’t seem to work anymore. I had to overhaul through discord, so that was a little time consuming figuring things out. :T

Glad it works now, though! Really adds atmosphere, I think. 

Now how will I get the rest of my old blog plans done..? I remember wanting to implement a guestbook and a little gallery on the sidebar. Might have to ask for help on those.

For now, though, it’s way too late to be thinking about all of that- I’ve got school tomorrow!! I should probably head to bed soon, otherwise I’ll pass out in precalculus again.

Goodnight~

<3Caramel

When I lose my extra weight and get a work habit and rearrange my room and get energy and work more it's over for everybody

The Nintendo DS Eshop closes soon! :(

Starting March 27th, 2023, Nintendo is closing the doors to its eshop for the Nintendo 3DS systems and the Wii U. This means no more access to purchasing games or downloading demos, even through download codes. Even more, any payment feature on the systems will be disabled, including the Streetpass Mii Plaza, Nintendo Badge Arcade, and theme shop.

This means that today and tomorrow are the last days you can [legally] download this kind of content to your 3DS or Wii U system!

Since 2022, Nintendo has restricted users from adding funds directly to a 3DS account, but this can be sidestepped through a linked Nintendo Network ID wallet.

Thankfully, we can still enjoy online play, the only restriction being transactions.

I'll miss it so much!! Thank you, Nintendo eShop, for so many fun games! I'll be charging my 3DS today to buy Stella Glow through a friend's recommendation. Does anyone have any last-minute game suggestions?

<3Caramel

Winter Celebration Art #2

It's been getting colder where I live lately-- despite the painful wind chill, I'm excited to jump into banks of snow on the sides of the road.

Challenging anyone who can draw to draw these hand poses

Matcha and adzuki bean mochi after a tasty omakase.

Millionth time’s the charm!!

WOAH that was a weird time jump.

I’m gonna start working on myself again lol

It’s been too long and I don’t feel happy living like this so I’m going to start trying again!! Gotta work towards the life you want. Nothing comes for free, right?

I feel like I need that mindset that I see in disney movies and idol anime. Where do they get all their energy? Guess I’ll find out.