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I've got to get myself into order. Instead of having manic highs and depressive lows every couple weeks, I should really be balancing out whatever I'm feeling instead.

Been feeling not too great the past and pretty confused for the past while due to trying to make sense of social stuff but honestly today I'm feeling a little better

Also today I feel halfway okay about my appearance so I'm pretty glad about that

Wondering how summer school's going to be on monday

Caramel

do you believe in aliens

String theory!! >>

:)) I love aliens

Who, me?

I’m not depressed. I don’t think I’m depressed. I don’t feel depressed.

So why does everything point to me being depressed? I can’t even keep up a personal blog, which kinda sucks :/

Recently, I stumbled upon a little text-adventure game that pretty much summed up how I was feeling for the last two years or so- I can definitely turn my life around, but I just don’t. Maybe it’s a choice. Maybe it’s something I can’t control. Who knows. I blame laziness, mostly, but I’d suppose that’s a bandaid on the entire situation. I’m probably just a coward for responsibility. Here’s the game, by the way: http://www.depressionquest.com/dqfinal.html

I guess I do have my moments where everything feels like it’ll turn around and I’ll have a completely new life and all that, but I don’t think I’ve ever followed through. Sure, I definitely can make things better, but sometimes things just don’t work out. 

Hope I can do what it takes, though- I’m really banking on the hope I can clean up my own mess and pick up my slack. Being able to make choices for myself I like, having the energy to accomplish simple tasks like doing my homework and agreeing to go out with my friends. It sounds so wonderful to live without this barrier. Please, please, please. God, I just need this one wish. I’d absolutely love to live with energy and the ability to go out and do what I want to, what’s good for me- God, please, I’m sorry I didn’t have faith, I just need this one thing. Please help me out, please listen to my prayers now. I’m sorry. I really want to live without this.

"Wait, wait, so you're telling me..." *Joe leans into the mic* "that magical girls are real?"

"Well, Joe, I was using a metaphor, like, emphasizing the difference between the online and real-world selves, but honestly, from the happiness brought from logging in and posting, magical girls may as well be real—"

*puts his hands up in surprise* "Oh my god. So they are real. I thought it was all just some anime nonsense. Jamie, Google this right now. Google magical girl sightings nearby. Maybe we can get an interview. And you were saying earlier, some of these girls explode?"

"That's where the whole subculture comes from, Joe. Like a landmine, if you get too close to one, they'll explode, but that's more of an emotional—"

"CHRIST. Is that even legal? How can they DO that? I want to know, like, the science behind it." *leans in closer* "Do you know what makes the explosions? Jamie, google some explosion gifs right now. Yeah, pull that up. I wonder how strong those are. Like, something like that could probably kill a silverback gorilla."

hiya ! (?)

Hello exasperated older brother figure

Cleaned up my room— it seems like everyone is enjoying it ☆☆☆

Delicious snack restock of my bag. I know it's for pins, but I don't have enough, so it's a snack window now ╮⁠(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠╭

Valentine's Day - 1

Sen and I went out today. He's really good at arcade games for some reason, so we went to play Taiko and some air hockey! His score in Taiko was insane... I guess that's why 王(king) is a radical in his name. Meanwhile, I'm named after some silly artsy things...

Couldn't find the energy to eat a proper breakfast the past few days, so I decided to take a break and treat myself with a croffle and peach soda from one of my favourite cafes.

Maybe, if I treat myself nicely, I'll regain the energy to work soon. I really hope so, at least-- I have a lot of term-end work to get done.

post something

BRUH I need to get my life together but yes I will

also am thinking of adding a few new pages to make the site cuter