Couldn't Find The Energy To Eat A Proper Breakfast The Past Few Days, So I Decided To Take A Break And

Millionth time’s the charm!!

WOAH that was a weird time jump.

I’m gonna start working on myself again lol

It’s been too long and I don’t feel happy living like this so I’m going to start trying again!! Gotta work towards the life you want. Nothing comes for free, right?

I feel like I need that mindset that I see in disney movies and idol anime. Where do they get all their energy? Guess I’ll find out.

Wwait are women actually a thing or were we all jokjng this whole time guys please tell me

So far so good

[2023-09-09]

It's my first week back at school and things are going amazingly! I'm on top of my work, extracurriculars, and have energy to do more and more each day.

Has some sort of magical spell been cast on me? It seems almost too good to be true. Things are just so wonderful as of late, and all this praise might end up going to my head if I'm not careful. As long as I continue having this motivation, things will end up fine, right?

In other news, a few of my friends have been telling me how I've been noticeably happier lately- which warms my heart. Things really are looking up!

Stress keeps ramping up no matter what I do and I'm getting really worried because I've had since pretty gross thoughts for the past monthish and they're not going away like I thought they would

Just the other day, my cousins painted my nails bc I was insecure about my hands- honestly, I don't deserve them, they're so sweet. Feels a little out of place, but it's alright. At first I was going to try to scrub them off, but it feels okay now.

Summer school honestly feels really polarizing right now, with my English class in the morning being basically free, and my afternoon math being almost four hours of nothing I understand. What's worse, my parents legitimately think something's wrong with me if I don't get an A in the more "academic" courses, like math and science. If I get a B, they might consider sending me to a shrink. Reality hit today, and I ended up silently crying in class. Sucks.

Math class consists of living off of straight copium and daydreaming about one day opening an imports store, so I'd suppose I'm not helping my case.

I'll get on it soon, I guess.

Sorry for the confusing post, I've been really stressed and remembered I haven't posted here for a while

A slice of strawberry mille-crepe cake Nao got me a while ago.

It was so good, I miss it... (-人-。)

It's one of those days when eating alone feels extra lonely. I eat, but I'm not hungry. Nobody's sitting across from me, and the only sounds I hear are the leaves rustling in the wind outside.

One day, I'll make sure that none of us feel lonely again. We'll sit together, play games, drink soda, and laugh.

ty for the spam!!!!! i didnt wven realize that u came back!!! i hope you've been well :DDD now that ur exams r over you can relax a little right? i hope so ^^

i've got all my semester exams next week, and after that i'll b out for the summer thankfully

have a good day, nice 2 see u back :D

-🍊

!!! Omg you've got this!!!! Finals are really stressful, but I'm sure you'll get through (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)ᕗ-✧

I've been using my downtime to work on a funny project of mine, and hopefully soon I'll have something to show for! This coming summer is going to be great for the both of us, I can just feel it <3

Have a great day, alright? Love you!!!

I took a photo of my dog today and spent the rest of the night distracted from my work (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)

Froggy pot

I’m really behind. I’m very much in deep water. I’ve got a bio exam in May, a 120-hour school project is going to finish at the end of the term, I’ve got a ton of French work to do- I’m in a froggy pot, and the water’s already well past boiling.

Not now, not now- I knew this past break has been a little extra good to me. What do I do now? What’s going to happen? At least I still have time to get myself in order. I need to prioritize, but so much of what I need to do needs strict focus and a ton of time. What do I even do? I don’t know what else I’m missing. What else has gone forgotten? Why do I always drop the ball at the end? Why do I always give up?

Will I have to put my new life aside to sink back into this? What do I do? Oh god, oh lord. I’m really scared. But I do have time. I have more time than I did in the past when procrastinating. I’ve got a little bit of a grip on this, I think.

Little effort, little give

I ended up cleaning up most of the floor and a couple corners of my room. It's really, really, messy. Tomorrow's Monday, and that's when March break officially starts- so maybe I'll be able to wake up early and clean up my bed and desk area? Hopefully my closet can be cleaned out too.

After thinking for a while, I've decided to pack all the stuff I'd like to keep and bring into my future room into boxes as if I were moving- it'll keep me minimal and I think it'll really help.

For now, though- I haven't even been able to find a box to put my things into. Instead, I'm using garbage bags.

Not too much of a looker. But once my room's done, I swear everything will look great! That's right- I'm hopeful for once. So hopeful, in fact, that I've drawn out a little plan for what my room will look like- hopefully by the end of the break!

A big goal to be finished in a week and a half- I hope it all end well.

It's pretty late right now, so while I'm so focused on turning my life around, I'll be fixing my sleep schedule too. My grades are next!

<3 Caramel