3:35AM And Project A

Calibrating

So far in the school year, things have been alright- balancing the APs I’m in has taken some time, but overall, things seem just fine.

I’m still trying to make a proper schedule for myself to follow, finding a lot of trouble when trying to actually stick to it. Maybe I just need motivation? Feels like I’m trying to get ahold of all this too late. It’s alright, though- at least I didn’t leave this until university.

My blog’s been looking pretty blank recently. In my free time, I’m thinking of adding a little gallery and maybe a music player? 

I’ll see if I can actually put something of this sort into my blog sometime soon- but no promises, especially since I’m still not sure how to manage my time TT

<3Caramel

Couldn't find the energy to eat a proper breakfast the past few days, so I decided to take a break and treat myself with a croffle and peach soda from one of my favourite cafes.

Maybe, if I treat myself nicely, I'll regain the energy to work soon. I really hope so, at least-- I have a lot of term-end work to get done.

It's one of those days when eating alone feels extra lonely. I eat, but I'm not hungry. Nobody's sitting across from me, and the only sounds I hear are the leaves rustling in the wind outside.

One day, I'll make sure that none of us feel lonely again. We'll sit together, play games, drink soda, and laugh.

MEW WELCOME BACK MISSED UUUUUU >⩊< CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR ABOUT UR PROJECT♡♡

Thank you picopico!!! Also, thank you for your wonderful messages, they made me feel so remembered and loved (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)

I need to clean up a few things and do a little drawing but hopefully will have something to show in... Two weeks? But from now until then, I'll be posting regularly!!!

Had to rush to annotate my music today. I was hired as a last-minute substitute for an orchestra near me, which means I only have a few weeks to practice it... Hopefully things go well!

The performance is right in the middle of my midterms, too. I suppose it's time to pray...

Music player added!!

Holy moly!! After two or three hours of struggling, I’ve finally gotten a music player on my blog! I don’t think it’s on mobile but on desktop it seems to be working fine.

I’ve loaded a few songs that I like into it, but it’s pretty far from my actual music taste. Whatever, though- anything for aesthetics, right?

Anyways it should be right here on the top of my blog page! Unfortunately I was too lazy to make my own so I used a generator- but I feel like that was a little more trouble than it was worth since SCM’s method of using youtube links doesn’t seem to work anymore. I had to overhaul through discord, so that was a little time consuming figuring things out. :T

Glad it works now, though! Really adds atmosphere, I think. 

Now how will I get the rest of my old blog plans done..? I remember wanting to implement a guestbook and a little gallery on the sidebar. Might have to ask for help on those.

For now, though, it’s way too late to be thinking about all of that- I’ve got school tomorrow!! I should probably head to bed soon, otherwise I’ll pass out in precalculus again.

Goodnight~

<3Caramel

They think I'm busy and enigmatic and unavailable but I just can't control myself and keep eating foods that give me digestive issues

HEARTBREAKING: Poor girl has to get out of the soft warm bed even though she is so so so so comfy

Stress keeps ramping up no matter what I do and I'm getting really worried because I've had since pretty gross thoughts for the past monthish and they're not going away like I thought they would

Just the other day, my cousins painted my nails bc I was insecure about my hands- honestly, I don't deserve them, they're so sweet. Feels a little out of place, but it's alright. At first I was going to try to scrub them off, but it feels okay now.

Summer school honestly feels really polarizing right now, with my English class in the morning being basically free, and my afternoon math being almost four hours of nothing I understand. What's worse, my parents legitimately think something's wrong with me if I don't get an A in the more "academic" courses, like math and science. If I get a B, they might consider sending me to a shrink. Reality hit today, and I ended up silently crying in class. Sucks.

Math class consists of living off of straight copium and daydreaming about one day opening an imports store, so I'd suppose I'm not helping my case.

I'll get on it soon, I guess.

Sorry for the confusing post, I've been really stressed and remembered I haven't posted here for a while

I'm sorry dear professor but finishing this paper goes against my existence as a person and because of this I will not be doing it