Well A Few Days Ago I Accidentally Told My Mom I’m Trans

getting closer to my ‘gray day’ and i keep pretending i’m ok when really i’m this close to burst into tears :’)

(’gray day’: posted a year ago)

bear with me

i was left in this dark place

alone and scared, crying, looking for a way out, for some light somewhere

but the only light i can find is showing me the faces of the monsters that put me here, tortured me

abused me

they live within me

i’m left here again, in the dark

i tried to run away but they always come back

they always find their way back to me, i can feel them getting closer to get me

i should be running away, find an escape

an escape?

but it’s all in my head

no, no.. it can’t be

they destroyed everything here and left their demons

they won’t leave me

it’s dark, i can’t get out

an escape?

there’s no escape

please, bear with me

or else i might find my way out, out of my head

and it’ll be too late

but you’ll be safe

the demons’ll be dead

i’ll keep you safe

I came out as trans 2 years ago and well, 10 days ago I realized I was aro so this is making me happy

I love this pixel heart, thank you for giving my day some positivity :)

Transgender Aromantic pixel heart for anon

draco: you’re late

harry: you’re handsome

draco: you’re forgiven

texted a friend to tell him that 1. i was here if he ever needed anyone (bc he told me he had no one to talk to) and that 2. i've been treated unfairly and it's making me upset and his only answer was 'i need you to send me the thing i asked you for bc it's due tomorrow' and i can't believe i'm constantly trying my best for people that just couldn't care less

i just realized that this sounded creepy as if i was just standing there and staring at them or something 

but hum i’m actually friends with both of them so i basically have random conversations with them and at the same time my heart goes awwww these eyes and i lose focus

also i don’t think they know each other

that’s it

currently in a room with both my crushes and i think my heart's gonna stop or something

so much pressure but so much happiness at the same timeeeeee

sooo my friends have been making plans right in front of me and not including me for a while and they keep talking about it all the time when i’m around and the whole crew is invited except me

so far they planned holidays and movie nights, some in a few days, some in a few weeks

and i know i sound kinda angry or jealous or anything but honestly i just feel worthless and it hurts to see i’m not wanted and it’s just proving me right, i’m not important and they’re better without me

Someone had drawn a basketball court on my table in biology class today

Also yesterday there was a pumpkin on my history table

Wth is going on in this school, students don’t have anything to draw on

there’s this kind of heavy sadness invading me for no reason and leaving me broken even when nothing’s wrong

Draco: Granger is so stupid!

Harry: *glares*

Draco: I’m more beautiful when I have my mouth shut, right?

Harry: You’re more beautiful when I don’t have my glasses on