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oh how i wish it wasnt so warm where i live already i wish i could cvt my arm more but i guess i have to do my legs instead where i can cover it..
i hate my life i hate having to worry about work and school and my friends 24/7
im so behind on my school work right now and thats making me go insane
cvtting is the best coping mechanism i have right now
how i feel standing in the mirror felling completely obese with my totally fake scratches on my arm
how i feel when people ask me what the scars on my arms are and i say "oh they're rabbit scratches totally"
I hope my stomach rots and digests itself ðŸ«
Same Kanato same~ How i be like with food, literally me *stab stab* 🔪💜
Im Sorry for yapping and venting... but I think it's just me or if there are others who feel this way... I like to abuse myself. Not sure if it's from trauma in the past or something I know it's so unhealthy but I can't help it I like the pain and it's the only thing I know to make myself feel loved... sadly. I'm so alone I want to experience relationships and be in a relationship not sure if it's going to make a difference for me what love truly is I really don't know... I just want a boyfriend hahaha~... he's out there somewhere in just have to wait for my moment for that man. Again I'm so sorry for ranting alot today!
Although the thoughts of suicide haven't left, i think about them every day. It's a bit of a turn on to think about and at the same time, I want to experience the pain and death. When I say Death I laugh at the word. Because I feel aroused and I think about my death and other things that come along with it. I know I'm strange I'm sorry but it's true... by the way I still plan to cut and sadly shamelessly masturbate... just to get my mind in the clouds.
I'm going back to crying over everything. I hate it. I hate how alive I feel I hate this feeling i wish I could go back and be the pale lifeless emotionless person I was, I loved feeling so numbed and zombie like where I didn't cry for everything or worry about anything, I wish I was so tired and fragile like I was. These infusions and pills... are ruining me. Thanks alot.
Why am I always the blame for everything? Am I an easy bunching bag? Does your verbal abuse really know how to humiliate me? I guess I know why I always saw myself so low and ugly
I hate feeling so alive, I want to be a corpse cold, pale, and sleeping.
These infusions and pills... it's making my body feel human. I look healthy, I don't like it it's ruining my image
I don't want this i want to be back feeling dead and not healthy looking like. I hate being and looking like a human.
I just wanna say, if anything happens... to me. Thank you. All these thinspo pictures and photos are so motivational and inspiring and so very beautiful. But I'm slowly dying and might go to a hospital for force feed. I don't want to go to the hospital nor i do really want to die, the doctors said for me to open my eyes and change and get my head screwed on because I'm in danger to myself. Haha! Trust me, I know what I'm doing. i don't need you guys to yell at me because I already know what I am doing to myself, but nobody will understand, but myself. I'm not sure what will happen later, tomorrow, somewhere in the future, but I'm not going anywhere (I hope) again. Thank you.
Sasuke Fanfic: My Baby
Summary: Sasuke had always been uncaring about his life and body. He was always the first to jump to self-sacrifice or even stab himself during a mission when things got too hard. Sasuke's behavior worried Kakashi to no end. He saw his younger self in that boy and he knew exactly what his younger self tried to do. TW: attempted su!cide and $h!
Chapter One: Sasuke hadn't shown up to a get-together the team was having about a mission. They waited for hours to see if he would turn up but nothing. Kakashi’s worries grew by the minute no matter how calm he looked on the outside. Naruto had been annoyed at the start and just wanted to get going, but with time, he became worried for his teammate. Kakashi knew Naruto would never admit his worries but he saw the boy tapping his foot and slowly complaining less. Sakura was chewing on the inside of her cheek, a nervous habit she had that Kakashi never failed to notice. It was way past the meeting time and Sakura convinced Kakashi to check Sasuke's home. They all walked there together but Kakashi made the kids stay in the front yard just in case. Kakashi knocked on the door, but there was no answer. He could've kept knocking, but he worried about what would happen if he wasted more time. He slowly opened this old wooden door to Sasuke’s home. It was pitch black inside, the black-out curtains on the windows not helping. Kakashi flicked on the light and was met with the very thing he had been fearing. Sasuke's body was lying on the bed in a pool of blood. Kakashi scrambled over and pulled the boy's body to his. He felt Sasuke's cold pale skin under his trembling fingertips. He checked Sasuke's pulse, he was alive. Kakashi let out a breath he didn't know he was holding in. Blood trickled from the corner of Sasuke's mouth, staining his porcelain skin. He cradled Sasuke's body in his arms and pressed him close to his chest so he could hear the boy's breathing, reassuring himself he was alive. The older ninja stood and jogged out the door. Sakura and Naruto were still standing outside. They both froze when they saw Kakashi holding a bloody and lifeless Sasuke."What happened!?" Naruto screamed, "Is Sasuke alright!?" Sakura followed up."There's no time to explain! We have to get him help!" Kakashi didn't stop running, only once glancing behind him and seeing his students running after him, panic evident on their faces. Waiting for Sasuke in the hospital was terrifying. Sakura was crying in the seat beside him as he rubbed her back to try and calm her. Naruto was up and angrily pacing around the waiting room; he was crying, too. Kakashi hadn't told them what Sasuke tried to do yet, he didn't want to make it worse. He'd tell them after Sasuke woke up. After what felt like centuries a nurse came out to inform the team that Sasuke was stable and call Kakashi back to talk. The nurse explained to Kakashi that Sasuke had overdosed and they had also found deep scratches and cuts littering his body. Kakashi kept calm the entire conversation, but inside, he felt his heart break with every word.
I wrote this late at night and didn't really revise it. Please let me know if you'd like more chapter!
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I want to fvcking cvt my @rteries out
I love that I can burn some extra calories bc of wounds healing
How did I go from fainting when seeing my own blood to looking at different layers of skin?
Just relapsed to distract myself from eating and the high is hitting HARD
Serious TW for SH
No photos or graphic depictions
I relapsed into sh recently, and only now told my bf. I told him that if he was mad I understood. And that if it changes anything between us I’ll work hard to repair it. I said it all by text at midnight, fully expecting him to be asleep. But he instantly called me, told me really gently that he wasn’t mad, that he understands it in pain and this is how I cope. He said it’s not okay that I do it, but that he understands and that nothing is going to change just because I didn’t tell him right away.
I don’t know what I did to deserve this man.
-Apollo