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She ignites me

In a way no one , could even come close.

She knows

Just how to make me feel alive .

She is my flame

On the coldest nights .

She is the spark in my eyes.

Believe me when I say she can turn any heart

From stone to gold dust

In a blink of gods eye .

She don’t know evil

Only pure love .

She locks on and never lets go .

She is stronger then any diamond

Rough for ever in the making

As that what makes her so powerful.

She learns from everything

She never will look perfect

Coz the best things

Are always hidden beneath the dirt

Spreading love but never heard.

@trueemotions91

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A gun

A quick escape

To exit this thing called life

My Brain can’t take no more

Every day I force a smile

For what?

For fuck all

My head can’t think no more

I don’t want be on this place called earth

I want be dug deep in the ground

Out of this crazy life

Where there is no escape

From my self .

It’s a mess.

I give up fighting the urge everyday

To just end this shit.

For real.

If I had trigger

I wouldn’t hestatie

To know it would be over within a blink

It’s the perfect escape .

It’s lucky I don’t owe one

Or I would be in a place I call home .

Heaven .

Away from this nightmare

I can’t escape.

Please lord give me strength not

To put a end to my own light.

I don’t know why you placed me upon this life

And have me air to breathe

Every night

I ask why ?

What is my purpose to you under this dark light

Maybe the easy way out

People will say

But there don’t know the state of my mind .

It’s hard to cooperate

When all I see around me is snakes

I’m done with life .

Even the ones who claim to love me

Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.

Life is a joke

No one gives a flying fuck

That my brain is turning into sticky glue

With words I can’t relate to .

Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily

I would rather live in a zoo

Then play this game of 2.

Hate is a strong word

But belive me when I say I hate this earth.

It’s full of devils

Ain’t no angels here

Just a fuckin game of tug .

I ain’t got the strentgh to pull

The fucker to my side no more.

Years of fighting with my own

To now just want be put in a hole.

I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place

Im going be at rest

With my crazy soul.

I’m close to admit

The fucker has won .

@trueemotions91

The rush

From the blood.

The crimson rose

Against my pale white skin.

The Taste of evil and heaven I swear

it’s what feeds my darkest sins.

The pain I don’t feel

When the blade runs bare across my soul.

It’s not for me , I promise you that,

It’s for them who keep turning their back.

I love the way the blood trickles

Makes me realise , I’m here alive,

To breathe another day

Even if hell is on my side.

It’s twisted I know

To crave the rush.

They don’t care

As there push the demon

To the core

To blind to see the damage they truly cause.

Mine is temporary

A release from the demon

Within me .

Please don’t judge

When you see my scars

It’s proof to me I’ve lived

Through the pain

But I’m still here on the other side,

With nothing but love to give

To those who caused, the blade to sink in.

@trueemotions91

He was mine temporary

For a moment he showed me

What love could be

But all good things don’t last

But I’m blessed I got them seconds

As they felt like hours

His smell I’ll never know , his voice I will always imagine .

I will forever carry them memories with me

Because In such a short amount of space

he managed to change the perspective in me.

Why do you lie

To my soul

Your the reason this world is cold .

Cant you see

What you do to me ?

You bring me to my knees

To beg you,

for

The happiness in me .

You locked me up and

Forced me to fight

For the light , I cried for every night .

You made me , my own demon

The devil you created from the palm of your hand .

For ever I was giving no slack,

Licking the pain from your wounds while

Feeding the demon , within my own skin .

You made me crack,

I accept that

But I will come back ,

Stronger then the marks on my back

I will show you slack

I’ll accept your apology

When I get up from my knees , your see

I weren’t who you thought I could be,

I have to much lose

To give you the key

To end me.

@trueemotions91

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You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

Listen to the roar

Listen to the core

I won’t kneel again

Nor will my brain repeat again.

When life is passing

Remember to keep smiling .

I look at people every day

Walking past glaring

Eyes all blurring

From a telephone .

Cant be arsed to say hello

To a real huma soul.

not a leg ache

It’s a hand ache

A demolition to the human brain

We ain’t wired for the crown

Or silver tin foil .

We are made from earth

A thousand fucked up cells .

Your ground

When electric is running around

Straight to your brain

Don’t you realise.

You look like a clown

With a upside down

Smile

Not knowing

When your next swipe

Will be more mesmerising

To them demonised eyes

Blacked out from

That devil In a disguise.

@trueemotions91