Waaa I Don't Want My Days Centered Around Me Hating Myself...... I Have Chores To Do...

On a break from myself ^_^ and my life ^-^ and most other things

I dont know how to use tumblr. Nor do I know how to live. Arent those the same things?

If this keeps going I'll soon be a petplay mutt!

Mankind is made out of polyethylene

I like to hate myself because i really hate myself

I've always had this feeling deep inside me that the world, despite being a somewhat dangerous yet beautiful and almost fantastic place, doesn't have a place for me at all- I wasn't made for it and It doesn't have any business cattering to me. My existence here was a mere mistake, naturally ocurring, and will be solved one day or another. And doesn't matter how much time passes and how much I find beauty in life it wasn't ever made for my enjoyement. I am not meant to stick around, nor meant to stick with someone or to a purpose. There is no place I belong to. I never felt like I could stay. I only feel like I have to go.

I should learn something

I like to film videos in a 1st person pov and just speak my mind as i walk around. Well at least i liked doing so when i did it a week ago walking through an event. It feels like I'm a videogame character. Videogame characters comfort me

Can I say I like something without a ontologically evil divine force (my fuckass depression) taking it away from me real quick?

I really hate that I only feel good about myself if a person that dislikes me validades me. I think that I would much rather be hated than loved, many times. Someone who hates me is someone who seems me for who I am, so I want to appeal to them. Even in negative ways, sometimes

Being on tumblr for 17 hours reading discourse since youre like 15 was not infact that good for my brain.