“You Look Like You’re About To Cry.”

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

“you should do XYZ for ur future!!”

“you need to prepare this for when you become an adult!!”

i’m BARELY surviving right now 😭

switching from fine to depressed and/or near suicidal like a traffic light 😭

ITS BACK!

There’s so much to unpack here:

Pack of Beakers

Goth Beaker

The Beaker snitching and pointing out the photographer

The Beaker that’s about to unload on the photographer

The terminator strut before the ass whooping and you know he’s moving at speed because of the blur

The ominous feeling that you know this is 3 in the morning

its like I hate that I did it but the pain after is what keeps me going. it reminds me that im still alive and even if my emotions are numb I can still feel pain, it shows me that im not a lifeless robot

idk if I hate or love the sting after sh

I wanna smoke a cigarette. I wanna cut. I wanna kill myself. I wanna starve. Everything I want rn is self destruction.

Welp

After the worst fucking day, I just threw 2 weeks down the drain. I was doing so well, and I went and messed it up. i was clean for two weeks then I went and played fruit ninja on my arms. FUCK. I am quite literally a fuck up

I just can’t do anything right anymore. So here is my current mood. Idk what I’m doing anymore, should prolly just die lol. That sounds like a better idea than anything. My bf could do way better, and be way happier with someone who isn’t a fuck up. With someone that he doesn’t have to worry about hurting themselves. Mom and dad don’t care, they’re too busy arguing to be bothered by me. That deserve a happy, non-messed up child.

so if anyone is wondering, I have playlist for when I fuck up. Idk if anyone else does this lol, but here what I got. Damn this post is a mess lol

new crochet project

I decided to try and make a skirt for the first time and it’s actually working, when I finish it I’ll post the pattern link for it :3

Tw sorry lol

man I would love to slit my wrists rn but I can’t since I have to get labs done in a few weeks and I know that they won’t be healed by then. I might just go it on my tights tho but that’s an awkward place to me yk