Do Y'all Even Know How Much I Hate Being An "elder Queer" At 40? A Whole Goddamn Generation Before Me

never invite me to a wedding because all I'll be thinking about is shit like "the bride and the ugly ass groom" and just hope I won't accidentally say my thoughts out loud

New poem time:

Another day, pacing four walls

Dreaming to escape away

To trees, the smalls, the talls

Where maybe someone will find me

Waiting

Another night, I hold inanimate

Plush beings in hope they'll heal

Me and before it's too late

And I'll feel safe alone

Waiting

Another morning, I wake to

My breaking mind looking down

Crying to my dying heart who

Neither has answers nor hope for the

Waiting

Another evening, I want to cry

For painkillers for my dying soul

Who can't help but ask why

I'm still here when I'm just

Waiting

Maybe I should go

Waiting

Only hurts more

Waiting

Makes me care less

Waiting

Maybe it's not worth it

Addendum, we have moved on to listening to Queen and it's a nice vibe

Old school mixed music just hits that mellow vibe so well

Doing shrooms and coming to a horrible conclusion...

I am willingly listening to The Beatles

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It gets worse...

It's scratching the exact musical itch I had

Finally figured out how to permanently disable google assistant on phone

Me: mods can we ban this person?

The angel and devil on my shoulders: and we're supposed to do this how???

me: chat what do we think

the angel and devil on my shoulders: can you not call us that please

We should've known Gee's character was trans in the mv when they refused to swim tbh

ILLI'S GRIPPERS ARE OUT GUYS

AHH I LOVE HER SO MUCH

Not that kind of girl <3

“I want to decompose in a bog” well you clearly don’t know the first thing about bogs. Clout chaser

Teehee another poem, Wake at the End of the World:

There's a wake at the end of the world

And you're invited

We'll abandon our flesh at the end of the world

Aren't you excited?

Shadows of our bones will poke through our faces

There'll be no class, no sex, no races

For we left them with our mortal flesh

And we're all becoming one

We're rediscovering Eden at the end of the world

And you're invited

There'll be no pain and death at the end of the world

Aren't you excited?

Our ghostly figures can't build bombs anymore

And the guns will go cold and rust forevermore

When we've all lost life there's no more to take

And we're all becoming one

We'll lay our souls bare at the end of the world

And you're invited

Kindred souls will meet at the end of the world

Aren't you excited?

Our souls will light eternal night like neutron stars

And they'll shimmer like the beating of living hearts

And we'll be a mosaic in the vast empty

And we're all becoming one

I'll be there at the end of the world

And you're invited

And I'll love like no other at the end of the world

Aren't you excited?

And we'll build a new world of our own design

We'll watch over it for eternity we resign

We'll warm each other like braided flame

Where we'll both become one