New Poem Time:

New poem time:

Another day, pacing four walls

Dreaming to escape away

To trees, the smalls, the talls

Where maybe someone will find me

Waiting

Another night, I hold inanimate

Plush beings in hope they'll heal

Me and before it's too late

And I'll feel safe alone

Waiting

Another morning, I wake to

My breaking mind looking down

Crying to my dying heart who

Neither has answers nor hope for the

Waiting

Another evening, I want to cry

For painkillers for my dying soul

Who can't help but ask why

I'm still here when I'm just

Waiting

Maybe I should go

Waiting

Only hurts more

Waiting

Makes me care less

Waiting

Maybe it's not worth it

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1 year ago
She-Ra And Catra By Vero (TheArtofVero)

She-Ra and Catra by Vero (TheArtofVero)


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1 week ago

do y'all even know how much i hate being an "elder queer" at 40? a whole goddamn generation before me was wiped out by a plague that politicians deemed not their problem bc it was killing the "right" people. like. this was OPENLY STATED. i spent a large chunk of my childhood going to funerals. nevermind the fact that killing queer people for being queer wasn't codified into law as a hate crime until i was a junior in high school.

i should NOT be an elder queer, i should be middle at most. i am a middle aged queer. most of the elder queers died.

when i was growing up i didn't go to pride parades, i went to pride marches. because that's 100% what they were in the 80s and 90s.

from the absolute bottom of my heart, LEARN OUR FUCKING HISTORY. a generation was nearly wiped out so you young queers could be here. don't let that have been in vain, please.


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1 year ago

gonna post my entire stickman reaction pic collection


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1 month ago

New goal in life

Never buy a drink at a place that has a surcharge for people under 21

Dunno that's kinda bs


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2 years ago

YOU CAN'T JUST HIDE RELATABLE STUFF LIKE THAT IN THE TAGS😭😭😭

If Jessie and Delilah ever decide to have a child, who’s carry the baby? But that’s only if they decide to have a baby.

But if that’s not happening, what about adoption? And how would Ash and James react?

I mentioned it before somewhere else but someone asked a similar question and I said Jessie! Just because I figure Delia's already "been there, done that and doesn't want to do again" haha. i drew the kiddos too

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I don't think Jessie and Delia would have more kids but I can't help but design next gen kids/fuse characters together. Drew these two just

i have unfortunately thought about all this stuff but it will never see the light of day because IM TRYING TO HAVE RESTRAINT. i've always done next gen stuff and fankids (it's literally how i started online lol). trying to avoid my old tendencies and focus on new stuff! there's already a lot of fun to be had in this hanamusa au with the already established characters. don't wanna throw that all aside for stuff i've already kinda done hehe

1 year ago

CW: Death, Cheating, Grief, Mourning

I'm going to talk to the void cause shit happened among my community and I'm processing (if you know the people in the story, no you don't).

There's a unique parallel between death and the end of a relationship especially when felt in communities. Obviously both are the end of something, but there's more to it. Both are mourned under the conditions of their ending, murder victims are mourned far different than people who pass in their sleep after saying goodbye. Likewise I think that relationships are often mourned the same way.

This becomes especially poignant when it comes to relationships that die by cheating. These relationships ended by the greatest betrayal of hearts that a human can endure, and importantly revolve around the taking of consent. In these instances consent between partners is on the "contract" of being in a relationship. When you have those agreements which you promised to live by there is no guarantee other than trust that it will be upheld. This is why relationships are often scary but rewarding, it's scary to take a leap of faith like that but also deeply rewarding to trust someone that deeply. And when that trust is broken with cheating it breaks that trust and deals a mortal wound to a relationship.

Okay, so how does this relate to murder victims? When a person dies in that way they are denied agency, consent, and the ability to die on their own terms. When these things happen without someone doing this it's a tragedy and hurts more than a peaceful passing but there's extra pain when someone causes that loss.

The reason is trust, when you exist in a community there is a set of agreed upon rules that almost always include not to kill each other, it's about the most universal rule out there. The trust is what gets violated so that not only is a person gone but a deep and fundamental trust is broken. This is why I feel these types of mourning are similar.

The point to making this comparison is this, murders are felt among the whole community. They are mourned with the whole community. When people in your community experience cheating, support them and help them mourn just as you would a person lost because often times they lost the person most dear to them in the process.


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1 year ago

Me: mods can we ban this person?

The angel and devil on my shoulders: and we're supposed to do this how???

me: chat what do we think

the angel and devil on my shoulders: can you not call us that please


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5 months ago

Reblogging to listen later

going back to the last post. gerard's playlist which he played as a dj

Going Back To The Last Post. Gerard's Playlist Which He Played As A Dj

Siouxsie And The Banshees - Peek A Boo

Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart

The Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism

Depeche Mode - Shake The Disease

Head Automatica - Beating Heart Baby

Pixies - Velouria

The Hives - Abra Cadaver

Morrissey - Last Of The Famous International

Playboys

The Cure - Why Can't I Be You?

Gwen Stefani - What You Waiting For

New Order - Temptation

David Bowie - Modern Love

Elvis Costello - (What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love And Understanding

The Clash - Spanish Bombs

Cursive - Art Is Hard

The Stooges - Search And Destroy

Echo And The Bunnymen - The Killing Moon

Violent Femmes - Add It Up

Christina Aguilera - Dirrty

Bauhaus - Ziggy Stardust

Going Back To The Last Post. Gerard's Playlist Which He Played As A Dj
1 year ago

"Bethesda/Todd Howard doesn't actually hate FNV 🙄"

"Bethesda/Todd Howard Doesn't Actually Hate FNV 🙄"
"Bethesda/Todd Howard Doesn't Actually Hate FNV 🙄"
"Bethesda/Todd Howard Doesn't Actually Hate FNV 🙄"

They have stated the show is apparently 100% canon and they're using it to retcon the only good Fallout game to come out in decades. It wasn't even enough to ruin West Coast lore post-FNV, they're literally saying FNV never happened.

No wonder Pete Hines resigned back in October; even he thought this was stupid.

Bethesda haters stay correct. Anyone who somehow still had hope for this franchise despite the last ten years, now you can finally let go.


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