Just another chip lost in the dip
The second half of the broken chip
No one’s favorite
Always picked last
Salty tears I cry (cuz I'm a chip lol)
I want to get out of the thick ocean
But I'm stuck
No going back now
Everyone sees me
But they won’t help me
I'm oh so blue
Slowly sinking more and more under
The thunder of the storm grows louder
It surrounds me
I hate the coolness but start to like it
It gives me a false comfort that I like
I like taking a risk in it
Now it has me all the way under
I'm drowning
It hurts less than I expected
I see it getting darker as I sink
But it hypnotizes me
I like sinking
I see everyone else swimming
I like being under it’s like I know a secret that they don’t
They can’t see you because you’re under so far
I have lost most of my salt so I sink yet further
The ocean makes it feel like I'm on top of the world flying
But I'm just the opposite but I don’t care
No one can save me now
But I like that, it makes you feel free of everyone
I wish that one certain person could save me
They think they did one other time but they didn’t
You think I’ll be perfectly fine again, but what if I never was?
I screamed for help once but you didn’t listen as I walked away
I need them
How dare you leave me like this?
I think you owe me an apology yet the world still owes me nothing
You think you cleaned my slate for me but you didn’t
Instead you scratched it up
You think nothing of it
But you don’t know half of it
I just want you to hold me, with your gentle fingers and warm me with the kindhearted words you speak
Sorry I just get scared and lonely just like you
Please heal my stone turned heart
It’s been broken from a young age
Living day to........day, broken
I've almost hit the bottom of the almost infinite ocean
I want to be in the sky
The sky is infinite
I hope you realize that what goes up doesn’t always come back down
Angles started from the ground and they stay in the sky
I want to be there
Save me if you care
I hope you’ll be there forever
Forever not never
Numb fingertips
Heart of hell
The wind doing flips
Finally
The darkness turning into burning light
I don’t like it with the sun
I need to live on the dark side of the planet
I've got a word stuck in my head and it weighs a ton
It can’t be taken away with any of the elements of the earth
Fire, air, earth, and rain have nothing on me
It’s attached to my life
If you unstick it from me, you'll be handing me over to death
Such strife
I don’t know what it is anymore
Thoughts going at the speed of light
I can't see them
Or catch them
There isn’t a stem
I wish I was sober
I'm lost in the fog
The fog you can't escape
I try to run out of it
Without something to stick to it is as foggy as scotch tape
An agenda wet with water molecules
Lightning thoughts tire the storm
The storm gets lost in my fog; it's thick
How do you plan on finding me, when I don't know where I am?
How are you going to get me out of this brick?
I want to feel my fingertips, have my heart be free, and have the wind die down
I want to hear my thoughts and have the enigma of the ride
Leaves and stones
Leaves and stones
Leave me alone
Weeds and side walks
Weeds and side walks
I don't want to talk
Sky and trees
Sky and trees
Where are the bees?
Lines and tar
Lines and tar
I'm feeling less than par
Swings and slides
Swings and slides
Up and down like life's tides
Woods and lampposts
Woods and lampposts
I'm starting to turn back into a ghost
Coolness and bare branches
Coolness and bare branches
Trees losing leaves like I'm losing my chances...
The fire is lit
The fire is lit
And I can't help it
Just wishing and hoping ain't gonna do nothing
It’ll just make it worse
But I do it anyway because I'm cursed
Desire equals suffering
So don’t wait and hope
Before you open your big mouth you might as well fill it with soap
If I desire not to desire anything that’s a desire
I love you but I can't fully have you
What am I supposed to do?
I can't win with fire
The things I wish I could tell
I want you to just know why I may not be so well
When should I stop having just a spark of hope?
It's 1 in the morning
And I'm mourning
I'm beginning to realize that enough is enough, no more of this nope!
I think about you a bunch
I probably never even cross your mind from time to time ever much
You are only somewhat removed
Now it's 1:08
And you are what I now hate
Out of my life my safe person always moves
I need someone like you
I can't really tell you but I wish and hope that you knew
I feel like puking I don’t want to be seen
Needing you so much I'm sick
This sickness cannot be fixed with vicks
1:13
By the minute I'm getting older
You are warm and I don’t think I can get much colder
Wishing waiting and hoping
In this situation it is impossible
I'm so sick I need the hospital
I don’t know what I'm thinking, I have to find a new way of coping
1:21
Thinking about you I should be done
I'm in the eye of the storm
It’s a nice break but I know it’s not over
The forecast shows another month of hell
In my brain that might not go over very well
It could become deformed
Rain will grow a green four leaf clover
Clear blue skies
And because of them, sometimes my heart dies
I don’t know the next time I’ll meet the sun again
I don’t care how long the storm is, I'm not going to stop
The odds I have to beat
It’s not easy at all stuck in the heat
The whispers of wind from way back when,
My jaw didn’t pop
When I could think freely without stress
Back when I didn’t know what made a mess
But it wasn’t great back then either
When my future comes I have to keep in mind that I can’t control what others think
Let them think whatever the hell they want
Let us be stupidly nonchalant
Dark clouds and rainstorms neither
Are the things that make you stink
Don’t believe in staying inside on rainy days
I don’t need the sun’s praise
I feel anxious for what my future could hold
I have grit
How will I make it much longer?
How much farther do I have to go?
I want to see books getting sold
Between a rock and a hard place I do not want to sit
I'm in the eye
And that gives me some time to think
There was no point in making me join my meeting
Because my thoughts were fleeting
Because I'm too fucking anxious to share my voice, please spare me from the madness
I couldn't even share a simple greeting You asked if I had any questions, comments, or if I have anything to say
And I do... but I guess anxiety doesn't want me to talk today
No, not even now
In this month of May The nurse isn't my cup of tea
And I feel that I am allowed no privacy,
This makes me very uncomfortable as a teenage girl and,
Details of my butthole are obviously my favorite topic for stranger to know about me The thing is, if I was dying,
If I was crying
I'd prefer to stay and sit in class rather than go anywhere else
I'm not lying She thinks I'm stable
And yet she's a mere stranger in my life and I probably still have proctitis on my table
I have so much on my plate it has overflowed
But I'll find a way to be able Having a bad stomach and anxiety make a perfect match that work
They are a dangerous loop that lurks,
In my background when I say that I'm okay
Yeah, I am a little jerk I'm still anxious and I don't sleep at night
Because my brain is playing back all the mistakes and times that I wasn't right
And how embarrassing it was, and how I will probably never live it down
And tomorrow will just be another blurred day of living in the fog of this mental, intestinal fight
Trapped in my room that is myself,
Due to avoidance
Of
Feeling like and impostor in the house I live in
I know that I don’t belong
But I have nowhere else to go
I want to go home
But home is nothing more than a concept,
That I imagine in only my dreams
It’s hard to go home
When,
I haven’t discovered where home is
This is why I want to travel the world
When I'm out of school
And when I have enough money
I want to find a home
In someone's arms
Or I could find a home in my life
There is more than one way home
There are plenty of different roads
That will lead to destiny
So I'm going to keep calling everything home
Until it feels right
And only then I shall settle down
So take my bloated belly home
Because this house isn't working with the people living in it
Let's go home
The time is ticking down
Ever wonder when you'll be buried in the kind ground?
Never knowing the complex answers,
To simple questions
How do you see, how do others see your reflection? Would you want to know your time?
What if it was after reading this very line?
How would you want to do?
I don't want to be forgotten
This world is rotten I desperately want to leave a good mark
Stardust going back to dark
Matter is neither created nor destroyed
Humans going back to blank
But this last time your aunt stank Earth magic
Turning people's lives into tragic
This world takes all back home
Tick tock
Are you friends or are you fighting the clock? Some can't wait
Others believe that they don't deserve the white gate
Poor nonbelievers
They take the tick tock truth how it is
That's why we miss
I can’t sleep with the thought of you on weighing on my mind
I want to fast forward, you want to rewind
I hate how you were so kind
I want to see how this works out
You're too heavy and I'm not strong
My mind isn't where you belong
It just feels so wrong
I'm too scared to move you to my heart
It’s 6:28
I'm wishing you were at my gate
Most people consider this early but for me it’s late
I haven’t slept at all
Before I snuck out for some cold water
At skateboarding you almost taught her
When she falls, you better catch her
High school loves very infrequently last
Every night you keep me up
Never asking, “supp?”
No more cold water in the cup
I don’t look up to you
I'm not terribly trusting of this
You are something I don’t like to miss
Cold water gone, this love seems slightly amiss
The dog is barking, roosters crowing
I want sleep
I want my internet creep
But thoughts of you, I still keep
Will you love me?
Hey now,
What happened to being proud of being an underdog?
What happened to wearing the pain like a badge of honor?
The only badge I’ll get to wear
Because I am not smart
I've just gotten really good at faking
And faking gets you nowhere
That’s why I'm now here,
In this damned place for public humiliation and I'm supposed to be grateful
Hey now,
Let’s bare our teeth
We make it by the skin of them
There's nothing quite like an artist’s pain,
The heart trying to leave the body through the throat
You know it’s bad when your own heart wants out
It rips itself from the chest
As if it were merely attacked with Velcro
Weak
Hey now,
We don’t play horribly safe
But risks and gambling are the only way we can live with ourselves
And we never fucking learn
Making the same mistakes
As if we were geniuses in our tattered shoes
We continue on living like we knew something else ought to happen
Fools is what we are
And we’re too damned stubborn to change our ways
Hey now,
Sometimes you get to taste the sea on your salty lips,
And they can’t
This whole place is friggin rigged
Just deport me already
I know too much,
Of depression
Because I became so lonely
Without something, anything
Hey now,
Where are the others?
Now is our time to join
To stop the artists’ creative pain
And stupidity
Of thinking that writing, painting, drawing, singing, playing,
Is going to stop it
Like staying up late working overtime for free,
Is going to get you anywhere
Hey now,
There’s supposedly baseball stadiums full of you
Who stay home to avoid getting bullied
If adults think that your education is so important
Then why do they make you feel so bad?
Hypocrites!
Guys stay home,
The lessons they teach in school
Have only taught me to hate myself
Hey now,
Let’s not become our own bullies
Let’s just do something
Like raise hell
Gotta fuck up this world some more
Because apparently leaving without making a mark, isn’t good
But as underdogs
We are stuck wearing choke chains
And muzzles
Hey now,
Class E is a proud class
Full of assassins
Let’s be like them
Get disappointed
Then build yourself up
Don’t let brick walls stop you
Don’t let gravity get you down
And don’t let tornadoes twist and turn you into a hot mess
Hey now,
They don’t know our pain,
Of working hard for nothing But as underdogs we are the people that keep coming, we’re the people that live
They don’t know about the ghost
The ghost of good ‘ol Tom Joad
I know you are hurting
You're like me, you're searching
You say you've been hurt before,
But I won't walk out the door
If you wish to, you'll open up,
But I won't push
A door that can only be opened from
the inside
Instead, I sit here,
With you, and near,
And
Simply
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