Man I Lowkey Wished I Didn’t Make A New Year’s Resolution.

Jirai culture is feeling guilty for trying to recover

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Anyone got any J-idol recommendations?

Here are a few of the ones I like atm to get an idea of what I’m looking for:

-BABYMETAL

-Candye Syrup

-Momiro Clover Z

-i☆Ris

-femme fatale

Gotta love it when you try to cheer yourself up only to feel worse by proxy of being an insecure bitch.

I’m watching food shows to get rid of my boredom but I just feel guilty because I feel like I ate too much..(I literally just had dinner)

I’m counting my calories atm and it feels like one too much for just being afternoon. Last time I checked I did lose some weight but it just wasn’t enough for me. I need to lose like 200+ pounds more.

I want so desperately to be able to fit into size L clothes like I used to but I have the self control of a literal toddler. I’m hella scared for when my DearMyLove buys get here because what if I wasted my moment just for it to be ill-fitting?

They say to be proud of who you are but I hate being plus size so damn much.😒

i wish i was thin

I gotta love how I am the epitemy of a weeb(Loves Japanese fashion, music, anime, etc.) but I have the most 2000s, Avril Lavigne obsessed, Snooki from Jersey Shore wannabe room with juicy couture bags stowed away in my closet.

Don’t get me wrong I love it but I think it’s really funny for someone who hates living in the US, I sure do love romanticizing the 2000s as if that wasn’t one of the worst times to be a woman of prominence.

I already have a list of some of my faves but I don’t think I delved into specific songs so here we go :3

Jazmin Bean-Piggie, Carnage, Hello Kitty

Eyes Set to Kill-Broken Frames, Reach, All You Ever Knew

Sleeping With Sirens-If I’m James Dean Then You’re Aubrey Hepburn, A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son, Deja Vu

Pierce The Veil-A Match Into Water, Tangled in the Great Escape, Million Dollar Painter

Hollywood Undead- Own the Night, Gangsta Sexy, Coming in Hot

Attack Attack!-Smokahontas, Renob Nevada, Turbo Swag

Candye Syrup-Idol Death Ska, Sweet Suicide, Syrup

CORPSE-Code Mistake, Cat Girls Are Ruining My Life, Daywalker

Carolesdaughter-nobody’s favorite not even my own, Target Practice, My Mother Wants Me Dead

Nicole Dollanganger-Flowers of Flesh and Blood, Poacher’s Pride, Gold Satin Dreamer

MARINA(& the Diamonds)-Teen Idle, Primadonna, Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land

Ethel Cain-Head in the Wall, Ptolemea, Inbred

That’s all the ones I’ll name for now less I go on forever and ever lol

What r yalls fav songs and/or artists!

I feel like making a post about my alterhuman identities outside of fictionkins so here’s a list of the like 3 different identities I have plus some that I’ve recently been kinsidering recently.

♡Kin: Angel♡

♡Kin: Wolf♡

♡Kin: House Cat♡

♡Kinsidering: Doll♡

♡Kinsidering: Rabbit♡

I’m crying over the stupidest thing rn.

I saw a yt short of a flipnote animation with the fucking grandma episode from SpongeBob as the audio, and IDK why but it just broke me.

I miss being a little kid so much. Maybe things weren’t the best per se, but it was the happiest and sweetest and most innocent and hopeful I ever was.

I miss my old room back in my grandmother’s house and the balcony. I miss those days where she’d make me oatmeal and we’d go do things outside like picking berries. I loved being on this little hill that I think was made of sand.

I just.. I miss it all. I can’t describe how much I do.. I’d do anything to relieve those moments again if I knew how bad things were going to get for me.

Me fighting off my intrusive thoughts be like:

Currently watching Carrie and I’m at the prom scene. Lowkey even though I know shit goes down, it makes me wish I went to my high school’s prom.

It’s probably for the better that I didn’t go, though. I was a lonely bitch who cried at homecoming due to having no friends(At least ones near me).

Friendships are such a hassle honestly but I’m so desperate to feel normal that I’d do anything for a sense of human connection.