I Don’t Have The Biggest Following Ever BUT I Have Been Getting A Lot More Attention Recently..

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‏I am Nour Walid from Gaza I am being subjected to genocide A 4 year old child needs food and clothes It has become very cold in the tents We have lost all our home and money since the beginning of the war Please help me including whatever you provide helps save my life and my family

https://gofund.me/aca98c3b

I usually don’t respond so quickly to things, and I unfortunately cannot donate due to being tight on funds, but I would HIGHLY encourage donating at least a few dollars to the people suffering under these conditions, Nour included.

In the meantime, here are some other sources you can use to help support the people in Gaza and other targeted areas.

(eSims to Buy to Aid in Internet Access in Gaza)

(Organization to Donate)

(Boycott Guide)

(Gaza News)

Al Jazeera

Gaza | Today's latest from Al Jazeera

Stay on top of Gaza latest developments on the ground with Al Jazeera’s fact-based news, exclusive video footage, photos and updated maps.

(Daily Clicks Support)

arab.org

Help Palestinian refugees with a Click

Please help deliver support to Palestinian families; all you have to do is to click once a day for free, every day!

I just realized that I probably will look stupid af in the DearMyLove clothes I got once they get here.

I don’t have any cute looking shoes that can match with the clothes. I did make a wish list and put mary janes on them but that’s for December.

Wtf kind of shoes am I gonna wear with it? Fucking crocs? Converse sneakers? Open-toe sandals?

I know Jirai is more of a lifestyle than a fashion subculture so this shouldn’t matter that much, but DAMMIT I really don’t wanna look like a complete mess in clothes I spent so much on.(ToT)

I WANT JIRAI FRIENDDSSS!!! Reblog this if you wanna be cute landmine friends ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

If there ever is someone looking for a magical girl/boy/etc…. PLEASE CONTACT ME I’LL DO ANYTHING I DON’T CARE IF I HAVE TO MAKE A DEAL WITH THE DEVIL!!!

I WILL BE THE MAGICAL DOOMER TO END ALL MAGICAL DOOMERS!!!

Ok I know this is a primarily Jirai centered blog so you’re probably expecting Girly Kei esq fashion but I wanna take the time to share something that recently happened to me so bear with me.

I recently bought some Hot Topic pants and some earrings that are very much like emo/mall goth, they came today and I tried them on and my mom was trying to commentate on my style (which I don’t mind for the record) and was trying to say emo, but I guess since she’s Spanish and it’s her first language she couldn’t figure out how to say it, so that’s how I got the gold that is her calling my style choice “emu”.

I burst out laughing I’m not even joking that was the happiest I’ve been all week.

Of course I corrected her but I’m never gonna let her live that down that shit was so funny to me.

Also here’s the pants in case anyone was curious:

I took this not expecting much out of it and to get a lower score because I feel like whatever trauma I have is milder or even nonexistent in some areas.(Even though it literally changed my brain chemistry forever but we don’t talk about that..)

Imagine my surprise.

Tags: Anyone who sees this

WOOOOO LETS LOOK AT OUR CHILDHOODS

starting a chain if i can lol

IDRlabs

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NO PRESSURE BTW

WARNING:

POOR EATING HABITS, PURGING MENTIONS

Man I am so not ready for tomorrow, Thursday, or any day for that matter.

Because of Thanksgiving coming up and my family of course being holiday people, I have to start preparing for people coming over.

The thing is that I don’t want to do anything. Like I’d rather die than do the simplest things like put away my baskets of washed clothing or tune up my bathroom.

If I do the simplest thing I’ll explode, crash and burn. I’ll disintegrate like a vampire in sunlight.

I can’t even bother to be happy about Thanksgiving itself for the food because I hate eating as of recently.

I feel guilty every time I eat and like I wanna purge it all out if I feel like I’ve eaten too much. I’ve been starving myself to the point that I start getting all shaky and paranoid.

I don’t wanna bother acting happy for all my family and friends coming over because I’m so done with people. I feel so disconnected from everyone that I sometimes wonder if this life I’m living is real and mine.

I just hate everyone and everything.. I wish I didn’t exist as a person and as something akin to Lain Iwakura. Just silently watching people.

I’m looking back at videos trying to explain Jirai Kei and not gonna lie, if I wasn’t a hideous, camera-shy freak, I’d go all out and make my own Jirai Kei essay.

The way that these people talk about Jirai Kei doesn’t feel like it does them justice since they’re into it from a fashion perspective. And I don’t wanna be that person, but if you’re into it purely for the fashion, you might as well call it girly kei since that’s what its fashion aspect of it basically took inspiration from, if not directly took it from (and if you’re a subcul Jirai, emo fashion in Harajuku is a primary visual inspiration).

Jirai isn’t just some edgy term used by Jirais to look cool and like some sort of anime menhera archetype. It was an actual insult used by people(usually men) in Japan to describe girls who are basically ticking time bombs. This is just Jirais reclaiming the term the same way Emos had reclaimed their name(Emo was an insult in the early 2000s).

I call myself Jirai because I understand this as someone who was often called overdramatic and too emotional, and feel a sense of power from it. Yes, I’m not Japanese, but there’s a reason that some Japanese subcultures have terms for participants outside of Japan(Ex. Gaijin Gyaru). It doesn’t have to be exclusive.

In conclusion, to quote a Reddit that I found, “I don’t think people(especially fashion Jirais) understand the implications of being called a Jirai.

Holy shit I posted something as a silly little joke about chronically online discourse and then my notifications blew up for the past 2 or so days.

Now I managed to get 100 likes in the span of less than a week.

I just wanna say thanks for the recent support on my blog! Definitely have no regrets making this!

XOXO

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Hey so sorry about my week or so absence.

The truth is that I was in a mental state of absolute limbo. I was so depressed and generally low energy that I lost a lot of motivation to do literally anything.

I stopped talking to people, barely went out or payed attention in classes, and kinda abandoned the blog as a product of my growing apathy towards… well everything.

Although I do feel better now(somewhat), I do feel very guilty. Not only will I probably fail most of my classes, but I feel like I’m just driving a wedge in all of my relationships to where I feel like I don’t have any connection or attachment to them anymore.

But hey. At least I got my monster energy. 🤷‍♀️