I’m Looking Back At Videos Trying To Explain Jirai Kei And Not Gonna Lie, If I Wasn’t A Hideous,

Most Stereotypical: Have severe mental illness, partake in destructive habits and generally am a ticking time bomb, explosive outbursts and everything. I’m also very chronically online.

Least Stereotypical: I don’t do drugs and never really go out and do anything fun. I don’t party or go to clubs or anything like that. I also don’t really dress in girly kei type fashion(even though I’d love to).

|||||||||. so fellow jiraizz im curious to know. 🖤 what is the most stereotypical jirai thing about yourself vs the least stereotypical jirai thing about yourself? 👀 (plz plz pleaseeee interact n answer or ill cry forever)

ill start 🤍.

most stereotypical ◇ i have everything in reach of my bed because i really just stay on my bed 99% of the time and am definitely super chronically online.

least stereotypical ◆ tbh i dont want to be famous and worshipped by like simps and weebs online tbh. the attention can be nice but i hate normies too much. i only really want attention from people who i think could actually understand me. basically fellow jirais 🖤.

(btw i use stereotypical here without any negative connotations moreso like neutral/for fun positive.)

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I don’t have the biggest following ever BUT I have been getting a lot more attention recently..

Fuck it. Gonna take a shot in the dark and see what happens.

Feel free to ask me any of these :3

Nosy Anons (Jirai Kei Edition)

Reblog this post to let your lovely anons ask you any of these questions!

1: When did you first learn about Jirai Kei? 2: What is you Jirai Kei Unpopular Opinion? 3: What type of music do you like? 4: Do you have any Jirai Kei-esque or general characters you relate to/like? 5: What other styles beside Jirai Kei are you interested in? 6: If you could make an ita bag for any character, who would it be and why? 7: Bright Pastels or Dark Pastels? 8: What is Jirai Kei to you? 9: What made you decide to identify as a lifestyle Jirai Kei? 10: Do you use any creative outlets (drawing, writing, etc) to express yourself? 11: Did you have an emo phase and what was it like? 12: Are you apart of the LGBTQ community (if you're comfortable sharing)? 13: What healthy coping mechanisms do you use? 14: Favorite anime? 15: Favorite game? 16: Are you in a relationship or crushing on anyone? 17: Are you okay with fashion only jirai kei? 18: What are your favorite childhood tv shows and games? 19: Who would be on your "hear me out" cake? 20: What is your funniest memory on the internet? 21: Favorite old internet meme? 22: When was the first time you were on the interenet? 23: Favorite fanfiction or fiction tropes? 24: What is your biggest Jirai Kei pet peeve? 25: Jirai Kei culture is... 26: Who is your biggest inspiration/someone you admire? 27: Favorite media platform? 28: If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, which song would you pick? 29: What is a random fact about yourself? 30: What are two truths and a lie about yourself?

I’m feeling extra daring today should I show off my list of Neopronouns?

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Helping spread the word as much as I can. I’d hate for these to go ignored.

I don’t want to have another “crush”.

I need to have a full blown obsession.

I need to have someone to be the last thing I think about when I go to sleep.

I need to have someone to admire and adore every single aspect and flaw about them.

I need someone who I can confide in and be honest with and they can with me.

I don’t care if it’s for a week or even a day.

I miss being able to feel fuzzy things for other people.

self destructing all by yourself beautiful ?

WARNING:

OD MENTIONS; SH & SUI TALK

I keep seeing these posts on my feed saying things like “Please stay alive. It doesn’t matter if it’s for spite or for your own enjoyment. Just live.” Or something like that. As much as I want a reason to live and enjoy life, even if it’s to spite others…. I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this.

I’ve made lists of ways I could kick the bucket and so far I can’t even settle on what I wanna do if I do give up. I would’ve OD’d long ago if I wasn’t told that I could kill half my brain and leave myself paralyzed if I were to survive.

Death doesn’t even sound satisfying anymore because in general, I’m worried about how much I’ll make my parents pay out of pocket for things like my funeral n shit, and I don’t know how I feel about being put in a box 6 feet under. Plus I just don’t wanna give my parents an even harder time by doing it. They’ve already been through enough, especially my mom.

I mean the first time I told anyone how I truly felt, it was my brother and the poor guy started crying, something I haven’t seen him do in years. YEARS.

I just want someone to understand my internal suffering for once and not disregard it as me being too negative and overly dramatic for once, because so far the only proof I have of how bad it gets is in my arms. Literally. But I don’t want anyone to see that shit. I want people to know I never was ok, and I probably never will be.

If I can’t be normal like I want to be, I wanna at least let people know that I’m not a deranged freak and that I have my reasons to act the way I do.

Got a monster from my one of my campus’s vending machines.

Ultra Strawberry Dreams because it’s strawberry flavored. It’s the first monster I officially tried on my own accord.

Design: 10/10

Overall Taste: 7/10

Tasted sweet and carbonated with a hint of citrus that I got used to.

Ngl I liked it.

I bring a certain "I like hurting myself" vibe to the function that other people don't really like