(they/them)disordered systemi don't care what you label yourself as, it's not my business. just keep the fucking discourse off this blog.
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generalized amnesia and emotional amnesia goes hard because oh yeah that extremely terrible thing happened and i don’t feel anything i felt while i was experiencing and oh this other thi- NERVOUS SYSTEM SHOWS UP
chronic hyper vigilance is ah yes, i have my survival mode. and then i have my SURVIVAL MODE.
as an alter human deer alter we can confirm this is true
plural system who keeps splitting into more deer alters: I feel like a million bucks
caretaker casually revealing they’re a bear is not something i put on my 2025 system bingo card
yk that weirdass feeling when you realize you are truly alone outside of your own head???? currently going through that mood lol
forming an introject of a character from a media source you hate is just telling yourself over and over again "THEYRE NOT THEIR SOURCE THEYRE NOT THEIR SOURCE THEYRE NOT THEIR SOU-"
ALERT ⚠️
THERE IS A DANGEROUSLY HIGH CHANCE OF SOMEONE PUTTING YOU IN A PILE OF SOFT WARM BLANKETS ALONG WITH LOTS OF SOFT FLUFFY KITTENS IT IS ADVISED FOR YOU TO HIDE IMMEDIATELY AND STAY CALM DO NOT FALL FOR THEIR TRAP UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES!!!
"I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy" nah fuck that I would. Actually if I could choose to have any superpower, I'd want the power to make people feel whatever I've felt at any point of my life, at my choice. Someone mildly inconveniences me, I'm letting them have 30 minutes of being five years old and trying to learn how to cry silently because you know nobody's coming to help you and if someone hears you, they're coming to make it worse. Fuck you and your eyebrows.
the obscure 'weird' fictive shame is real and i think we need to change that
a 'weird' fictive
Hello fellow neurotypical persons! How are you at the moment?
hellos!!!!!! we are doing very nice very well very great!!!!!!!!! thank you for asking :D i hope youre doing well as well! due to the weekends less school so less stress (in a way), so yippee!!!
Hi, I am Ahmed from Palestine, from the northern part of Gaza City. I am 33 years old, married, and a father of two children. I live in the Jabalia refugee camp with my family, which consists of 19 members, in a four-story house.
Since the beginning of the war on Gaza on October 7th, life in northern Gaza has been extremely difficult, lacking basic necessities due to the siege imposed by the Israeli army on the northern part of the Gaza Strip. The occupation has blocked food, medicine, water, electricity, and even communication networks. Thousands of airstrikes have been carried out, and hundreds of massacres have been committed, mostly affecting innocent civilians, the majority of whom are children and women. The infrastructure, thousands of homes, and civilian facilities have been destroyed.
On May 12th, 2024, the Israeli army besieged the Jabalia camp for the second time and ordered us to evacuate, informing us that it was a military operation zone and a dangerous combat area. We were forced to leave our homes in the camp and flee under heavy bombardment and intense gunfire, navigating through the rubble and bodies lying in the streets and on the roads. We became homeless, with no food or water. During this difficult siege, I lost two of my brothers, Abdullah, 30 years old, and Atallah, 26 years old, due to random shelling and airstrikes on the camp.
Why am I collecting donations?
After more than 15 months of war, on January 19th, 2025, the ceasefire came into effect, and we returned to the camp to check on our home. However, we were shocked by the extent of the destruction and devastation in the camp. The homes had turned into piles of rubble, and we could no longer recognize the places or roads due to the scale of the damage. Our house was completely destroyed, leaving us homeless. Now, my family and I live in a small tent that is insufficient for the number of family members. It offers no privacy, no bathroom, no kitchen, and it does not protect us from the summer heat or the winter cold. We are living in an overcrowded environment with displaced people, chaos, piles of garbage, and the spread of diseases, especially among the displaced children.
This war has forced us to live in extremely harsh conditions and an environment that is unfit for human life. We continue to suffer every day from the ongoing war, repeated displacement, lack of resources and essentials, fear, pain, and oppression. Not to mention the hardship of fetching water, standing in long queues for basic needs, and struggling to find food—another challenge added to our suffering in this devastating war that is destroying people, buildings, trees, and animals. All of this has exhausted our bodies and deeply affected our mental well-being.
Therefore, I am reaching out to you through this humanitarian platform to help me support my family, rebuild our destroyed home, and contribute to providing the basic necessities of life so that I can live with my family with dignity and freedom.
• How will these donations be used?
1) An apartment will be rented to temporarily house my family until the reconstruction of the destroyed house is completed, as an alternative to a tent, at a cost of $600 per month for at least two years. (An estimated total cost of $14,000 over the two years.)
2) Purchase the basic tools and equipment necessary to furnish the rented apartment at an estimated cost of $5,000.
3) Purchase clothing and basic necessities for all family members at an estimated cost of $6,000.
4) Remove the rubble of the destroyed house and rebuild it at an estimated cost of $140,000.
5) Purchase the tools and equipment necessary to furnish all apartments in the new house at an estimated cost of $35,000.
• How does your donation and support make a difference?
Your support and donation is a noble humanitarian cause that supports and strengthens our resilience during the war. This contribution, even if it is small, will make a huge difference in my life and the life of my family.
Please help us to live in safety and peace, to start over to achieve our ambitions and dreams, and to create a safe environment for our children that will provide them with a bright future.
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🌍✨ A Voice from Gaza: Fighting for Hope ❤️🩹
Hi, my name is Mosab , and I’m from Gaza. Life here has been harder than I could ever imagine, but today I’m sharing my story with hope in my heart, because your kindness has already given us so much strength.
This journey hasn’t been easy. The war has taken 25 family members from us—25 beautiful souls we loved deeply. Their laughter, their presence, their love… all of it is gone, leaving behind memories that are both precious and painful. Every day, I carry the weight of their loss, but I also carry their spirit, which gives me the strength to keep going.
Our Journey So Far
When I first reached out, I couldn’t have imagined we’d make it this far. Your support has been a light in these difficult times, and we are so deeply grateful for every single contribution.
But the road ahead is still challenging. Every day, we’re reminded of how much we’ve lost and how much we still need to rebuild.
Here’s what life in Gaza looks like for my family right now:
🏠 Safety: The uncertainty of tomorrow weighs heavily on us.
😢 Loss: The absence of the 25 family members we’ve lost is a pain we carry every moment.
💔 Dreams on Hold: The future feels so far away when survival takes all our strength.
How You Can Help Us Cross the Finish Line Even the smallest act of kindness can make a difference:
$5 may seem small, but for us, it’s a little relief, a moment of comfort, and a reminder that kindness still exists. ❤️
Can’t donate? Reblog this post to help us reach someone who can. Every share matters more than you know.
✅️ Vetted by @gazavetters ( #309 ) ✅️
Why Your Support Matters Your kindness isn’t just about helping us meet our goal—it’s about reminding us that we’re not alone in this fight. It’s about hope. It’s about survival. And it’s about giving my family a chance to rebuild our lives, even in the face of unimaginable loss.
Thank you for helping us get this far. Your generosity and compassion have already brought us closer to a better tomorrow, and for that, I’m endlessly grateful.
With all my love and gratitude,
Mosab and Family ❤️
Hello, wonderful souls! 🤍🌍
I hope you're doing well. 🌿
Could you help me amplify my family's story and bring awareness to our struggle? 🙏🏻
💬 Please reblog my pinned post or consider donating just $5—your support could truly make a difference in saving lives amidst war and hardship.
Your kindness and voice matter more than you know. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! 🤍🌿
🕊️ @mosabsdr | Every share counts. 💫
hey, yeah! of course! unfortunately im not in any place to donate, and i apologize deeply for that, but ill for sure reblog your post! i wish you the best!
wAIT OK i just realized in my dissociative haze how bad that might sound to someone. but because our chronic pain and stress, this is like one of the most minor things that could happen. and twisted foot doesn’t hurt too bad so like this is the best outcome tbh
Hi guys! How is your life at the moment? Everything is going well, I hope.
hey there! thanks for sending in an ask! all things considered especially due to our current situation and hyper vigilance and such, not too bad. we have a bit of a headache along with a twisted foot, a never-ending appetite, some nausea, and just the usual amount of joint pain with it being a little worse in our back, but all things considered, we’re doing pretty good and we’re still able to function (that’s a fucking win)! thank you for asking. :)
Hi guys! How is your life at the moment? Everything is going well, I hope.
hey there! thanks for sending in an ask! all things considered especially due to our current situation and hyper vigilance and such, not too bad. we have a bit of a headache along with a twisted foot, a never-ending appetite, some nausea, and just the usual amount of joint pain with it being a little worse in our back, but all things considered, we’re doing pretty good and we’re still able to function (that’s a fucking win)! thank you for asking. :)
Just to throw this out there
it was not and is not your fault they groomed you (yes even if you were seeking it out.)
it was not and is not your fault they abused you (yes even if you weren’t the best person at the time.)
you are a survivor not an abuser sweetheart
if you ever need anything my DMs are open
and yes this is a post made half for ourselves be self indulgent <33
seeing people actually being cared for and having their injuries treated is so bewildering and also very joyous for me. because holy shit, if i wasn’t screaming, crying, and unconscious or wasn’t in enough pain to the point my parents thought was enough no matter how much I begged them, i wouldn’t be allowed to rest.
‘letting my intrusive thoughts win’
shut the fuck up.
you’re referring to impulsive thoughts, intrusive thoughts are undesirable and often horrific for the person experiencing them. you dyeing your hair randomly is not an intrusive thought.
if i let my intrusive thoughts dictate my actions, id be in jail for a long fucking time.
my dumbass read that as leek and now all i can think of is this stupid fucking meme
plural joy is doing something nice for your headmate and feeling their smile leak across onto your face
Sometimes when somebody makes me food they have to take a break cause I infect them with my "!!!! :D :D :D !!! :D" hehehe
guys….. we ALL know that rugs DONT exist. they’re just CARPETS WHO ARE TRYING TO BE DIFFERENT. if you’re a rug, it’s because you don’t know that you were actually made with carpet material… smh.
pov : you try and convince your headmates to rest at night because its a healthy thing to do. they proceed to look for one specific journal to read they just randomly remembered for more than an hour that had four pages in it done because ‘i won’t remember it tomorrow’. the next day, you feel like shit
plus we had the whole 'sorry future me', followed by the internal fuck you when we did something that might've not been the smart
question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?
anyone else need like. verbal confirmation that someone is your friend. like aaa i cant call you my friend if you haven't confirmed it yet!!! that's rude!!! and it only works in your case of course
as a system, we agree on nothing, except for one thing. *yelling, in any form that can not be obviously seen as playful (and even caution on that)* is never okay if not behind closed and locked doors, and even then, we prefer not to yell in any capacity as it only harms others- especially when internal arguing occurs. we’ve seen what discourse between people, especially those you love, does to a person from a first-hand perspective.
What is your definition on: alter
(Google and other forms of search engines or A.I is not allowed.)
Plural POV #60
You're going about your day, doing the same things that you must have done hundreds of times before in almost the same way... And then you suddenly feel uncomfortable.
Welp, there goes your productivity. Now at least 30% of your focus will be held by the thorough investigation of what the heck triggered whose reaction because of what past experiences.