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question 83: how did you discover plurality?

arghh we just realized we’re genuinely in love with someone what the shit

cw: medical shit , flashback mentions

nah i fucking hate going to the doctors because when they even slightly touch me every part of me screams to bolt like please stop touching me im 5 seconds away from having a panic attack 😭😭

dude i fucking hate being stuck with these people i cant do anything and we just keep squaring like give me time out... hosts are literally nonexistent and like i feel like i have no control over what i can do anymore in the meat world because of these strict ass control freak mfs and it pisses me off.

this. this this this this. i point and scream THIS THIS THIS. WE CAN COPE FINE WE DONT NEED A BAJILLION PEOPLE TO DO ONE SIMPLE TASK (apparently we cant do a simple task without breaking down so we have to have fifteen people do it instead. FUCK EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION.)

We love our system. We love our headmates. We aren't upset about getting new guys! What we ARE upset about, however, is our brain deciding the method of running pk;m new 6 times in 2 days is much more efficient than remembering to even make an attempt at anything else.

oh, so many.

the horrible memory, little recollection of anything more than a week ago, finding things we didn’t remember doing, the huge gender and sexual fluidity & dysmorphia, going from extremely anxious or depressed to calm, the internal dialogue and arguments, the intense fictionkinning and rapidly changing opinions. we mistook two alters for our left brain and right brain. plus more probably

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question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?

anyone else have a bitchy fucking council of higher ups....... like who are assholes...

DON'T PUT YOUR TRIGGERS AND/OR PHOBIAS IN YOUR WEBSITES/PINNED POSTS/BIOS/ETC. FOR EVERYONE ON THE INTERNET TO SEE. ONLY TRUSTED PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW THAT INFORMATION, NOT THE WHOLE INTERNET. YOU WILL GET HURT!!! MEAN PEOPLE WILL USE IT AGAINST YOU!!!

plurality is so fucking weird because what do you mean the guy who takes showers for us just gave a random fictive the most logical, smart ass-sounding relationship advice ever seen

(Holding our cat up) You don't understand. I need you to stay grounded to reality

you aren't a bad person if your source is terrible.

you aren't a bad person if your source is an abuser.

you aren't a bad person if your source is a rapist.

you aren't a bad person if your source has a problematic creator.

you aren't a bad person if your source is anything, anything.

However, if you blame an introject for their source, tell them to kill themselves for it, treat them like their source when they tell you not too, push boundaries or persistently ask them questions, try and make it like they should be extremely ashamed and horrified 24/7 atwhere they introjected from. You are an asshole.

i hate random frequent coming and going sharp joint pain and aches. like i didn’t even do anything this time what are you fucking on??

Me just trying to have a normal day when the gay men in my head are getting down bad for each other.

Can yall stop for two seconds

We’re sorry for our absence recently we just want to take a break from creating for a while, explanation under the cut

heavy tw: suicide attempt & self harm

for a while now I’ve been doing quite horribly mentally, nonetheless I like running all my blogs just the same even when I feel bad

I’ve attempted maybe three or four times within the past few weeks and one was just a few days ago, and it drained me quite badly

I’ve also been trying to quit SH completely which is a huge task, mainly I struggle with these but if thistle fronts he does too

Anyway we’ve also been doubting our system worse than ever so we wanna get away from all things that trigger spirals of negativity and end up with us in severe danger

have a wonderful day friends, and remember, you’re loved

thius..... some of us may be uncomfortable with doubles at times when they're just getting used to everything but im not stopping a guy from existing.........

fictive culture is worrying if your mutuals are okay with doubles

we are always cool with doubles

Whenever I see someone saying they “wish they were a system,” I don’t think: “Oh how DARE they try to mock this shit that debilitates me every day!”

I think, “I wonder what in this world could make them feel like they need to have multiple voices in their head.” I think, “Are they lonely..? Did they even have any friends whilst growing up..? Were they neglected..?”

I understand because I also felt this way as a little kid, elementary school age (5-10). **I** wanted to be less alone as a kid, so I created imaginary characters that began to separate and distinguish themselves from one another. While yes, I had some major events of trauma, my trauma was what I thought as “monotonous” or “insignificant.” I just wanted someone to talk to, someone to confide in. I didn’t feel safe telling an adult what I went through, so it was stored in another alter.

You guys are so quick to jump at someone you have no information on in any way. You don’t know how educated this person is on the complexities of DID, and you don’t know what the person went through at all.

Please stop being so harsh and aggressive towards people figuring themselves out.. you would want that grace too..

love that guy who helps us sleep. that guys a great guy and i would nominate them for president.

i swear to god i will never figure out how this fucking system works. what is this WHOLE ASS HIERARCHY, RULES, AND HYPER-SPECIFIC ROLES FOR and like everyone tells me the most JAW-DROPPING lore just OUT OF THE BLUE??? WHY??? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS SYSTEM

i just genuinely need to fucking make the loudest alarm ever for saint patricks day because i cant keep getting pinched (im about to lose it) and obviously no matter how much i remind myself i still cant do it

i was going to make a post about some memory issues thing for system and thten i forgot so now im here again now.

What is your own definition of: Headspace

(Any outside Source is prohibited, e.g Google, chat gpt, etc)

(School holidays for us ✨️✨️✨️)

Consider yourself a opp if you don’t have to have a stuffed animal in your arms in order to fall asleep

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no because where did all these fictives come from did my brain give up on making guys

thats it. THATS IT. WHY DO WE HAVE AN ELSA FICTI-

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“No Autistic person is a bad person!”

As a literally getting diagnosed, Autistic person, that’s fucking crazy to say seriously. Same with, ANY GROUP. And this was said and the way it talking about it, is in the mentality that any action they do is “ok” because they are autistic.

I NEED people to understand, actions are actions. Nothing is justified JUST because someone has a disability. Yes some are, like social cues, accidental insensitivity and difficulty handling emotions.

BUT That will ALWAYS be to an extend. If you are not ACTIVLY trying to change your behavior that you are AWARE is hurting others, autistic or not, hey, not fucking ok. I mean this in the way, you are aware you are hurting other people and you have NO remorse, and the other person has done NOTHING to deserve that.

If you are continually doing that, without making an effort. That’s not ok. This is more so applying to this mentality being used to justify PHYSICAL VIOLENCE or SEXUAL HARRASSMENT.

This is a factor of WHY there is some types of ableism. You are defending action with, by EXCUSING THEM.

Hate on me, I do not care. As an Autstic person this is BULLSHIT.

Nobody is automatically at birth resented from being a bad person.

my musclesss :(((

yep ! we used to, but it apparently wasn’t useful for our system so we no longer function that way. basically, its just a shit ton of fragments switching in and out, rarely consistent. we just randomly appear and just have little to no discernible identity.

are there any other systems that don’t have a host? just have a few alters that front more frequently? and usually that group of alters rotates over time

none of us identify with the body, none of us are the host, non of us hold a “host like” role

non of us feel like the “main alter”

we’re all just piloting a meat mech and there is no captain

-bennett

when you try and run around and your body decides it doesn’t need its eyes anymore

I can't find the original post that inspire this but it doesn't mater if you view trauma as not bad enough to justify having a system

Stfu rn

trauma is trauma, and trauma is valid

*aggressively sends good vibes sent your way*

-jayke