Suffering From Anorexia, But Your Body Not Looking Like It

Seeing this, is your reminder to drink cold water with cucumbers in it.

that deep cleansing diarrhea coming in after not eating properly for 3 days 😍😍

I CAN FEEL MY SPINE. I CAN SEE MY COLLARBONES.

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when you gain weight or aren’t happy with the scale, instead of lashing out onto yourself or others and making things all around worse on yourself and possibly pushing you towards a binge try

💖 going for a walk first thing in the morning to set a successful, motivated mood

💖 shave, exfoliate and/or lotion your legs

💖 make an aesthetic board for your favorite thinspo and print it, post it or save it somewhere

💖 plan out your intake or meals for the week and get EXCITED

💖 write out your feelings about yourself on one paper and burn it/rip it up. write out what your goals are on another and fold it up and save it for yourself somewhere. it helps.

💖 start a jigsaw puzzle. I find this helps keep my brain alert, distracts me from binging and generally just keeps me busy for a while. you can find these online if you don’t want the physical puzzles.

💖 remember that the best results you will see in yourself are when you’re motivated for YOU and not for someone else

Today I binged with my best friend, and tomorrow I'm going on a sushi date with my bf. Gonna gain back those 3kgs I lost huh?

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How I lost weight

Since this blog started gaining popularity (+700 followers in 4 days??? Thanks guys!!!) I’ve had a lot of people ask me how I lost weight. I think it’s time to make a list:

•when you’re fasting never break a fast with high calorie food. Break with fat free low calorie options like fresh vegetables. The food you break a fast with is the most important food you eat.

•if you have a day where you plan on eating more calories than usual (a cheat/binge day) spread the calories out over the course if the day.

•drink lots of water in between bites of food. Makes you full faster.

•if you want to loose your appetite fast chug water. Like, too much water. It’ll hurt your stomach a bit but it helps remove brings urges. Also if it’s inly water it won’t hurt you if you end up puking.

•GUM!!!

•green tea is a lifesaver but all other herbal teas work too. My favorite is one called buddas blend heaven can wait. It has so much flavour and 0 calories and it really helps satisfy binge cravings. I drink like 8 cups a day. Also a great antioxidant and has a lot of other health benefits.

•if you’re craving tacos (I know I always am) take lettuce and put a tablespoon of zero fat sour cream on it and a tablespoon of salsa. It tricks you and reminds you enough of the food you’re craving. This works for other foods as well. Another one that works is mustard and ketchup on egg white or steamed mushroom to simulate a burger. Reminds you enough that the cravings go away.

•BOUNCE! I bounce my legs all the time. Once you start it becomes a habit and it helps you burn calories. They really had up.

•never weight yourself while you’re on your period. It’ll discourage you since bloating and water retention happens. You didn’t gain 2 pounds your body is just holding onto water.

•sit ups before bed and after you wake up. In bed helps cause it keeps your spine from brusing especially after you loose weight

•If you’re gonna eat something eat it 2 hours after you wake up. Eat it slowly with water/tea in between bites.

•put extra shit in your backpack if you’re in school and carry it around with you. You’ll get used to it and it helps you burn a few extra calories.

•take long routes everywhere.

•any time you have a burst of energy go for a walk.

•never fast for more than 3 days without at least some fresh veggies just for safety reasons.

•I don’t suggest purging but if you’re going to, drink a bunch of milk before you do and then wait about 5 minutes. Makes it easier and won’t damage your teeth as much.

•cardio!! DO YOUR CARDIO!!! TREADMILL!!!

•listen to music or watch a show while you work out. It’ll help you some out and not realize how tired you are.

•watch my 600lbs life while you’re on the treadmill. Trust me it’s motivation.

•learn to like healthy food. If you just talk about liking certain foods you can trick yourself into liking it. I honestly enjoy plain lettuce now.

•eat crushed ice

•CHEW. AND. SPIT. WHEN. YOU’RE. ALONE. I keep chocolate bars in my room and I chew up bites and spit them in the trash. Make sure you brush your teeth after and don’t swallow your spit. There’s sugar and calories in that.

I wanna drown myself. I have gained so much weight.

Why do you keep eating, no one is forcing you to do that ☠️☠️

April is my month. April is the time I take a hold of myself and do better. In April, I will focus on weight loss, I will take school more seriously, I will take care of my skin better. I will be better.