Why Is It That Every Good Thing Is Immediately Followed By A Bad One. Why Can't I Be Happy. Why Can't

Need to get high af right now please and thank you

Getting that stupid decision itch

I don't deserve the things I want

I feel like I have no valid reason to complain about the direction my life is going in. I mean it's my fault right? Like in the end it's not really the mental illness that made me stop going to college and move away from my family. Like in the end those were decisions I made right? It doesn't matter that I was depressed and it doesn't matter that I've got impulse issues. In the end it was me who chose this.

1 of my love languages..

une étape

silencieux

corps pressé contre le vent

sueur et larmes

qui est là? ils appellent

il n’y a pas de réponse

silencieux

gelé contre des arbres dansants

pourquoi moi? ils disent

mais ils sont un

et ils sont seuls

il n’y a pas de réponse

une étape

silencieux

(it’s not my first language so, apologies if the grammar is off slightly)

-from Pinterest

It gets so old watching people have and get the things you so badly want. I just sit there hoping one day, it'll be me. But I've hoped for so long with so little in return that I'm finally starting to realize that it will never be me. I was born with the promise of being pitiful and undeserving.